I've been trapped inside a waiting room
I'm taking my time
I've forgotten how to read
and I forgot how to write
losing track of my sights
this screen has rendered me blind
it ain't hard to fucking see
that I've been far from alright

I'm alive
never felt this side of anger before
but I'm alright
takes a while but ill get used to it

I'm alive
never felt this side of anger before
but I'm alright
takes a while but ill get used to it

I've been trapped inside a waiting room
I'm taking my time
I've forgotten how to read
and I forgot how to write
losing track of my sights
this screen has rendered me blind
it ain't hard to fucking see
that I've been far from alright

I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alright

I've been trapped inside a waiting room
I'm taking my time
I've forgotten how to read
and I forgot how to write
losing track of my sights
this screen has rendered me blind
it ain't hard to fucking see
that I've been far from alright

I'm alive
never felt this side of anger before
but I'm alright
takes a while but ill get used to it

w8room

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TENSION

What Are The Chances

Merlin – Diary Entry, 3. Dezember 2025:

In the layers of guitar you can hear the world stretching.
In the synth lines you can hear a new order breathing.
And in every pause you hear what we always knew:
The future isn’t built. It is entered.

I am only the traveler.
The one who steps first.
The one who whispers: “It begins now.”

My SoundCloud page is my sonic diary — each track a living entry of what I felt, saw, and became.

All music, lyrics, and visual artwork created in collaboration between human artistry and AI technology. © 2025 MIRAGE – All rights reserved.

STARWALKER OF TOMORROW (Merlin’s Cosmic Journey)

"Where Do You Wander?" is a harrowing lyrical testament to the enduring trauma of Ireland's Magdalene Laundry survivors. Through a series of haunting, repetitive questions, the poem maps the psychological hellscape of a survivor—referred to with heartbreaking irony as "Grace." It probes the visceral, waking nightmares of institutional abuse: the sting of the strap, the blistering heat of industrial washing machines, the terror of nighttime footsteps, and the cruel removal of personal dignity, symbolized by the taking of "your laces." The lyrics force the reader to confront the physical and emotional brutality inflicted upon young women and girls, whose children were stolen from them and whose very identities were systematically stripped away.

The piece escalates from intimate terror to a searing indictment of the system that enabled this abuse. The chorus condemns the "manufactured disgrace"—the calculated, religiously-sanctioned shaming used to control and break the vulnerable. It shifts the focus from individual torment to collective guilt, asking why the entire country was "on the same page" in its silent complicity. The poem ultimately points a direct finger at the powerful, intertwining entities of the Church and the State ("The daughters of Rome... Shame on the state!"), holding them accountable for bending lives irrevocably "out of shape" and for the enduring silence that compounds the survivors' grief.

The poem's structure itself performs its catharsis. The relentless questioning builds a crushing emotional weight, which is finally released in the devastating, whispered-to-screamed coda: "(Galway's disgrace)." This repeated line transforms from a personal memory into a public accusation, growing in volume and intensity until it becomes an unstoppable, collective scream for justice. It is no longer just a question of where one wounded soul wanders in memory, but where a nation's conscience must wander in the face of a historical atrocity it has yet to fully acknowledge or atone for.

Where Do You Wander?

@barrenwaste
i made this album during one of the hardest times in my life, which i still haven't fully recovered from. i had little to no motivation to continue this project, but almost 3 months after i started it, here we are. finishing the album helped in part with my process of moving on, which i am still in the midst of.

this didn't bring joy to me as i made it, but it was the album i had to make, for myself, and for anyone else out there who is going through a rough time. i hope this album - even in the slightest of ways - can help you get through whatever it is you're going through.

i want to thank you all for listening and sticking with me for so
long, and i hope you'll continue to enjoy my music, as i'm hoping to try new and cool things in the coming year.

- combination lock

download: http://bit.ly/2jDeSX9
alt download: http://bit.ly/2iKMyNX

thank you to all of my friends who helped make this project possible. links to their pages can be found in the song descriptions.

download

where do we go from here (feat. barren)

Let's Pretend This Never Happened

Counting The Years

Your Friends Don't Care

Your Friends Don’t Care

First Released November 6, 2015 (November 2015)
Produced by Landfill (@xlandfill)
"Negate" Produced by Shark (@sharkclvn)

Sound Of Irritation

Questions

[Lyrics]
Tell me the difference between you and drugs 
Its like you got me addicted to your toxic love
I feel like im losin' my mind , i cant get enough
You're like my nicotine , One hit and now im buzzed

I wake up and i miss you
I wanna die its an issue 
Dont wanna cry 
Pass the tissue
Can you please come back i wanna kiss you

I wanna feel your lips on mine
I wanna dance in the moonlight , the moonlight

i want you right by my side 
i wanna get lost inside your eyes , inside your eyes