all credit goes to choco, he ripped the songs from the vinyl and put them in his discord and I am putting them on soundcloud so I can listen to them as well

Scrapyard Vinyl (Side C Exclusives)

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The Human Way is great, listen to Discordant But Baleful Memories



Navigating the complexities of relationships, especially when deep hurt is involved, touches on several important human experiences.

 * Acknowledging Different Processing Styles: You mentioned, "we process it differently... It's been our whole relationship really." This is a fundamental aspect of human interaction. People metabolize grief, hurt, anger, and confusion at different paces and through different means. Some need quiet reflection, others need vocal processing; some express emotions outwardly, others internalize them. Recognizing this inherent difference isn't just about tolerance; it's about understanding that your partner's way of coping isn't necessarily a reflection on you or the relationship's value, but rather their individual mechanism. Acknowledging this explicitly, as you have, can be a step towards bridging the gap that these differences can create, reducing misunderstandings where one person might feel abandoned, rushed, or overwhelmed by the other's process.

 * The Courage of Vulnerability and Owning the Past: Your apology – "Im sorry that I don't know how How much pain youve had to put up with and Im sorry I used to hide my heart and live a lie just to get by" – coupled with "Thats not me anymore," speaks volumes about vulnerability and growth. It takes significant strength to look back at your own coping mechanisms, especially those developed for self-protection ('hiding my heart', 'living a lie'), recognize how they might have impacted someone else, and own that without making excuses. This kind of self-awareness and admission is often born from painful experiences but is crucial for building more authentic connections moving forward. It signals a commitment to relating from a place of truth, even when it's uncomfortable.

 * The Role of Empathy and Apology in Healing: Your words express empathy – the attempt to understand and share the feelings of another, even acknowledging the limits of your understanding ("I don't know how How much pain youve had to put up with"). A sincere apology that acknowledges specific impacts can be profoundly healing. It validates the other person's experience and pain, demonstrating that you see them and recognize their reality. It's less about assigning blame and more about taking responsibility for one's role in the dynamic, which can help rebuild bridges of trust that may have been damaged.

 * The Necessity of Time and Space: Your advice, "Take time and process your feelings," is often essential when emotions run high. Intense feelings can cloud judgment and lead to reactive communication that causes more harm. Allowing time and space isn't about avoiding the issue, but rather about allowing the initial intensity to subside so that both individuals can approach the situation with greater clarity and emotional regulation. It respects individual needs for reflection and prevents forcing resolutions before people are ready, which rarely leads to genuine understanding.

 * Hope and Relief: Mentioning "Thankfully it didn't happen the way you thought it did" introduces an element of relief. Sometimes, the anticipation or interpretation of events can be more painful than the reality. Acknowledging this shared relief can be a small, positive point of connection amidst the pain, a reminder that not all fears materialized.
In essence, your message touches on the difficult, ongoing work of relationships: navigating individual differences, healing past wounds, communicating vulnerably, taking responsibility, and allowing space for processing. It's a journey that requires immense courage, empathy, and self-awareness from everyone involved.




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