DESPAIR

lyrics
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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

Also addicted… (peepeebooboocakes)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AquInPAmqR0

music video

i've been doing well

lil jeep (prod. cian p)

(ft. SMRTDEATH) [prod. haardtek]

@smrtdeath
@haardtek

ride away

why does this always end the same?
prod. erik ron & @jvbeats666 & n,n.

Edit - Mastered

hopes up (ft. dashboard confessional)

prod. @notmorgn

[stranger things scene]

just hold on a little longer okay?
he’s gone
the bad man’s gone
we’ll be home soon
and
my mom she’ll get you your own bed
you can eat as many eggo’s as you want
and we can go to the snowball
promise?
promise

[lyrics]

not a problem kid 
just own a lot of problems 
pull up to the skatepark
we all broken hearted
i was punchin walls in the spring
i was spending summer just thinking

about myself and 
how i might fall
punch thru blood 
drippin from the white wall
and i can’t see u
if im too faded
so then i copped a bottle 
and got really fucking wasted

g u c c i
i’m sleep deprived 
fox in the night
moonlight up in the sky
and im still sick of this
blocked you ‘cus you trippin bitch
cuttin all the lines
like a fuckin bad fisherman

i had to cut out all the bad
stackin up the racks like my name is mr krabs
why out here thinkin it’s a pagent
i dont fuck with that bitch
disappear like magic

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

promises don’t really mean shit to me
in the end everything is history 
in the end everything is clear to me
i inflict and feel pain way too frequently

and when u turned into a ghost
it made me want to sleep forever 
cus i see you in my dreams
compared to life i like them better

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

way out of my head

Music Video on Elevator <3 : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfo3pI2nALw

Thanks for all the support on my 1st EP - I wanna keep posting new stuff so show your friends & help me make more music love u guys <3
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IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS
Written/Produced/Mixed/Mastered by: Alec Jackson

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LYRICS:

Hop out my dreams & hop in my car
We got GPS, I still wonder where you are
I try to run away but I don't get very far
The only time I feel is when you in my arms
(x3)


Just another boy from the midwest
Leaving all my friends, whats the difference
They don't know a damn thing about me
Leave it all behind, let 'em doubt me
I just wanna know what you in it for
I been all alone, can you check your phone
I just need somebody to talk to...


Hop out my dreams & hop in my car
We got GPS, I still wonder where you are
I try to run away but I don't get very far
The only time I feel is when you in my arms
(x3)

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blackbear & XXXTENTACION - Demons (ocean mix)is a brand new sad lofi Ocean Mix - haven't done one for a while so hope you guys love the vibes on this one. 

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show my mans some luv @tothegood

lyrics
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your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this
i'm broken (x8)
i'm tired of loving someone
who don't care bout enough
so i take my drugs and i
numb the fuck up love

your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this

this was a curse from the get-go
my head is a trip and i feel like i'll let go
of everything that i care about
and if i wanna leave then i'll get the fuck out
and i'll pack up my shit and i'll go
run with the feeling of feeling alone
missin' your touch when i know that you don't
i just want love but i find it in drugs in my coat

and i hide inside
and i cry every night i'm alive
cause the flesh in my chest is a lie
when i smoke and i look to the sky
this'll be the end of everything we know
i can't really think about the future and i won't
waste another day inside just scrollin' on my phone
stitch my broken heart and then you wrap it with a bow

your love can't save me now (x4)

follow tothegood

pyramids (prod. by tothegood)

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGc3gOh2Q7-pk9pIri41tlw

XXXTENTACION - My Girl (ft Shiloh Dynasty) - TYPE BEAT

shoutout to soundcloud.com/itsyungvan & https://soundcloud.com/daddydandy <3

lyrics:
shattered:
shawty you know that you lie
you wouldn't care if i die
you wouldn't care if i cry
shawty why do you lie

i wish i didn't date you
i wish i didn't know you
i'll sell shows to break you 
i flex on my ex
cuz that's all that i got
she run away cuz she know she a thot

i hope it was worth it 
bite like a serpent
act like a bitch cuz it tears me apart 
truth is i'm hurting
truth is i'm learning
truth is that i hope that i end up burning
your legs are like doors
you open and pour
you'll love anyone who won't call you a whore
but
that's what you are to me
i'm just a casualty

manipulating
when we were dating
you told me don't fret
he's just an old friend
he's just an old ex
i only love you 
back of my car 
we can have so much fun boo
do i still love you
baby i can't tell 
you talk to others
while i hide in covers	
sheets on my head
make me feel like i'm dead
texting your phone but you leave me on read

yung van:
fuck you, you don’t about care me
fucked up, naw the blames not on me
don’t talk shit behind my back, cause i don’t roll like that
i know you wanted on me
what’s he got that i don’t
he’s got you, that’s a joke
you’ll switch up, like a roach
just make sure you don’t choak
with all that shit your mouth
you better shut the fuck up
cause when this news gets out
all your friends gon’ switch up
i have no remose for you
don’t come back crawling to me
when he finds out what you do
he’ll throw you off like his shoe

shattered:
baby
you're faker
than santa claus
than santa claus
the guy 
that you are with
will leave
so please just don't come back to me
shawty 
you're colder than ice with some salt
my friends were right
about the night
when we had met
you got me set
like juliet
with bayonets 
ready to fire on me at your will
choking on smoke while we kiss and we chill
leaving my ass for a kid with some skill
you just a park all you give is a thrill

flowars:
bad girl in a mad world
ass fat where you at girl
let me hit it from the back girl
i ain't got a jack shit black pearl
i don't wanna look at you
everything you put me through
but you won't go away
so i guess ill fuck your face
ask that nigga how i taste
does he know your love is fake
tell the boy that i relate
ooh i relate
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat

romeo & juliet! w/ yung van & flowars (prod. nick mira & lucky bennu)

Did It All For You

afterlife (ft. convolk)(prod. jody)

- [prod. van beats]

sample: balance and composure, jon simmons let me use it pls dont sue me

run me outta town
got me outta bounds
dont forget me now
never let me out

when i come around
you just let me down
so ill let you down
and ill let me drown

x2

i been in a cage for 2 weeks
cant get out of bed im too weak  
anxiety holds my shoestrings
cant get out of my head im too keen

this hospital room is too clean
when im on my own im losing
man ill end my life and you'll see
when we wake up to a new dream

ooo
ooo
ooo
ooo

thats my anxiety

run me outta town
got me outta bounds
dont forget me now
never let me out

when i come around
you just let me down
so ill let you down
and ill let me drown

x2

take another ativan
mix it with a bad friend
sleeping like a sandman
blood all on my hands again

im cain now my brother's dead
sorry bout the headache
im really gonna die next year
from underground to under grave

Did It All For You

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