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lyrics:

i just woke up from a dream
where i got to hold your hand
hold my head up while we're out
i really doubt you'd understand

spin my wheels out
lost traction
don't know how to feel now
caught up in reaction
you told me forever
it's not lasting
i just feel like dead weight 
pretend i didn't happen

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

i didnt like what i saw in the mirror 
so i made someone and i hope that i wont fear her
i wrote a song about it listen till my ears hurt
no matter what the message isnt getting clearer

never wanna talk if it's not your turn
never gonna stop just to hear me hurt
cause it's what i got its what i deserve
tryna take my heart boy you got some nerve

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

(cause i've been)
looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

lakehouse

introvert cover (prod.kbl)

spot of sunlight

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/corefish/sos   

I need a spot of sunlight
To get a- away from life 
I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again

Fried out of my mind get it over easy
True story I run see me on the TV
In a month I'll be out of the rut
Rust covered and lust filled
Calling your bluff

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost
And you're the talk of the town in my mind
When you look my way
You split my taste in the mood
And when I take it the conflict rise
I'll just fake my life 
Fore I lose my faith in the ruse

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

You and I are out of luck we're at a standstill
Guess I'm a diamond in the rough whenever going gets to tough
Cause I just roll with the punches, throw a stone in a bucket
No my tone isn't fine but I just won't get to bluffing
I guess I'm a dope fiend and I'm waiting for nothing
I got no self esteem when I'm calling you lovely
You need a hotel somewhere else combing the cusp
It wasn't noble when you're fucking causing a ruckus

Cause if it's better than me 
I'll sever tether to breathe 
New sweater, trendsetter
Back on to the leash 
I need a spot of sunlight 
To get a- away from life 

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost

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Lyrics:
Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh

I feel wrung out
Ive run outta energy
It was too loud
Gotta Take a step back
Embrace the fallout
Oh its probably my fault but I dont care
Anymore, mm

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far (gone)
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

I cut my teeth over my intentions I 
(Got) no sleep over my whole weekend cause you
Watch me fall apart at the seams
Is this a dream?

(What’s happening?)

(I cannot) hold myself too high
(Feel something) eating me from the insides
(Why do I?) always seem to play the bad guy
You make me the enemy just to cope in your mind

(Watchu say?)

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far gone
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh
Mm

i give up lmao

coprod @31sentinel
guitar by @billsburyjoeboi


LYRICS:

Can you show a little bit of sympathy
Or something please?
I need it
I think I lost my aim, reeling, feeling defeated
I guess I'll write another song and delete it
Because it isn't all what's meant to be 
I just feel like it ain't me, staring at a screen
Falling from the mezzanine I hope it make me bleed

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

I need a therapy release to get blessed with peace, I plead
One shot and I'm down on my knees again
Can you show a little sympathy

Exhaustion runs through my lungs 
Selfishness, it's all for fun 
All humility is gone
So I'll find a way to be fine 
Wish you'd show a little more kindness 
Cause now your animosity's blinding 
Affection doesn't always need guidance 
With two sides, you'll always be biased 
Into me, the need is flowing
Sympathy, you never show it 
It's sad enough, commitment isn't mine
It's adding up, I'm bad enough to die

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm a lie
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

Put another face on and my body in the back-seat
Hold it on my hip, so a buddy couldn't blast me 
Keep it under lid, till my sons get the best of me 
Hold my heart in a hearse like it's meant to be

And you just couldn't believe how
Couldn't believe how I got it back

And you just couldn't believe how I got it all back
I need a new life cause of overreactions, it's
All strife since the day that you left 
I said I wish I knew a way to get the cold off my breath

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

SYMPATHY

SYMPATHY (feat. Dylan Longworth)

guitars dannyboyoo 
prod corefish

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
Lost in atonement, going overboard
To fall into place

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw then
Make a little content
Get a couple comments
Do it all again the next day in the morning
Hope it all was honest
Freezing up a big star to become a comet

And I didn't know that
Everything was fucked
Before we thought to face the ground
And now I'm
Tryna find the sun
But I can hardly settle down
Oh why am I staying up out of the sightline
Laying in wait from a far cry
Praying I'm late when the heart die
The heart die

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
I know my soul
But if I know myself I can't do the same
Fear of the toll and the blurry vision
I can't stay away
Lost in atonement, going overboard to fall into place

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw then
Make a little content
Get a couple comments
Do it all again the next day in the morning
Hope it all was honest
Freezing up a big star to become a comet
It's easier, I know, but then the feeling of control slips away

Bitch, I might
I might talk
But my gut is spinning all night
You give likes
Give me something and it's all right
A new cartridge in my pen made me all right
Made me all right
Made me, made me

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
Lost in atonement, going overboard
To fall into place

HEART

prod @gf5 and corefish

I could be anything you want
if you want it back bad
Guess I'll see you in a month
when you fall on my lap
No concealing in the sun
Can you feel it when it's done?
I'll reveal it in a month
Guess it was all for myself to break

And now I'm constantly inside my mind
I'm trapped in a suit and tie
Feeling awfully objectified
They see me and scrutinize
They start to realize what the time spent meant to me
It's all in the crime of a mindset atrophy

I guess I couldn't solve all the riddles that you shared when you're next to me
Dissolve in the middle of the woods, it wasn't meant to be
Sulk by the phone while I waited
I need a little more in my lungs when I take it cause

I could be anything you want
if you want it back bad
Guess I'll see you in a month
when you fall on my lap
No concealing in the sun
Can you feel it when it's done?
I'll reveal it in a month
Guess it was all for myself to break

It's off count
Run it down
Feelings stop
I feel it out
I cannot
Forfeit it now
Pissed off
I'm feeling loud
It's off count
Run it down
Feelings stop
I feel it out
I cannot
Forfeit it now
Blast off
I feel it now
Pack it up

I think it was all of me that left without myself from my suspension
Thinking my heart harbor thieves forever
I can't run from every sentence
Clogging my arteries, you know my heart can't take all the attempts
But I need to reassess us

I could be anything you want
if you want it back bad
Guess I'll see you in a month
when you fall on my lap
No concealing in the sun
Can you feel it when it's done?
I'll reveal it in a month
Guess it was all for myself to break

Toss it up with my incompetence
When I'm in the eye of the storm I am the opposite
Somewhere where it's safe and it's warm
Where we can grow a bit
But I lost my faith in the world that was full of shit
I want it back
But slowing the tension now might be just what I need
Below interventions now I'm fiending for release

I could be anything you want
if you want it back bad
Guess I'll see you in a month
when you fall on my lap
No concealing in the sun
Can you feel it when it's done?
I'll reveal it in a month
Guess it was all for myself to break

It's off count
Run it down
Feelings stop
I feel it out
I cannot
Forfeit it now
Pissed off
I'm feeling loud
It's off count
Run it down
Feelings stop
I feel it out
I cannot
Forfeit it now
Blast off
I feel it now
Pack it up

BLASTOFF

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self prod

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

stay by my side when i wake up tomorrow
play bout my life not living tomorrow
k on my mind when i wake up tomorrow
no time to cry worry bout it tomorrow

every day that i live a decision
better stay out the way out my business
if ima aim ima shoot wit precision
keep to myself and act like i aint did it
in the whip wit the windows all tinted
i pray to God every night that im sinning
why they get mad what i did when i didn't
how can i trip bout a bitch i aint missing u
i sip dusse i sip henny
like its water i drink plenty
bad bitch feening buy her fendi
just to shut up she resent me
i get too much i get dizzy
count my moolah im too busy
aint gon do ya so get busy

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

shit get too turnt im outta control
they do u worst its taking a toll
if i fuck up nobody will know
i cant find it tell me where to go