prod. by myself

i spilled my guts all over the floor
im throwing up what id hold in before
swear we expired now we gotta throw it all out
every well i try to wish in i just fall down

im stuck here tryna pick up pieces of what's left of the truth
dont try to tell me that you think my life was better with you
turn of the tv i cant stand to see your face or ill lose it
ill let it consume me

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
im looking back ur tearing up
about the fact that we are done

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

throwing up

spot of sunlight

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I need a spot of sunlight
To get a- away from life 
I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again

Fried out of my mind get it over easy
True story I run see me on the TV
In a month I'll be out of the rut
Rust covered and lust filled
Calling your bluff

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost
And you're the talk of the town in my mind
When you look my way
You split my taste in the mood
And when I take it the conflict rise
I'll just fake my life 
Fore I lose my faith in the ruse

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

You and I are out of luck we're at a standstill
Guess I'm a diamond in the rough whenever going gets to tough
Cause I just roll with the punches, throw a stone in a bucket
No my tone isn't fine but I just won't get to bluffing
I guess I'm a dope fiend and I'm waiting for nothing
I got no self esteem when I'm calling you lovely
You need a hotel somewhere else combing the cusp
It wasn't noble when you're fucking causing a ruckus

Cause if it's better than me 
I'll sever tether to breathe 
New sweater, trendsetter
Back on to the leash 
I need a spot of sunlight 
To get a- away from life 

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost

prod mix master written by me

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Lyrics:
Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh

I feel wrung out
Ive run outta energy
It was too loud
Gotta Take a step back
Embrace the fallout
Oh its probably my fault but I dont care
Anymore, mm

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far (gone)
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

I cut my teeth over my intentions I 
(Got) no sleep over my whole weekend cause you
Watch me fall apart at the seams
Is this a dream?

(What’s happening?)

(I cannot) hold myself too high
(Feel something) eating me from the insides
(Why do I?) always seem to play the bad guy
You make me the enemy just to cope in your mind

(Watchu say?)

And i’m not tired I’m just out of it
Ive been spending most my time tryna get a grip
And I’m just worried that my parents gettin sick of it
How the fuck can I go on now?

I give up
Don’t try to fix me
My brains gone numb
You try to touch me but your kiss just kinda stung
I understand you but I feel so dumb
(I feel so fucking dumb)

So bite your tongue
I know you’ll miss me but i’m too far gone
Misunderstand me saying “you’re so fuckin tough!”
but I’ve already given up

Ooo, ooo
Oh just watch me fall apart
Oh just watch me
Ooh oh
Mm

i give up lmao

lyrics :

baby i don't do too well with myself
cause we always want something
more than life that we choose to go
i'm not here to live for ever
i'm just taking it slow
cause i can see the future
fallin down in slow-mo

i've been wasting time
i've been wasting life and
with my tears to the ground
i can't get over what i did wrong
i'm running out of sleep
and trying to believe
to get over my head

i'll out of the scene
get me out of the screen
everyone that you see
is not like what they seem

everybody is callin
but i'm the one who keeps fallin
needed somebody to help me out
i'm all alone cause

baby i don't do too well with myself
cause we always want something
more than life that we choose to go
i'm not here to live for ever
i'm just taking it slow
cause i can see the future
fallin down in slow-mo

too late to know again

should've known better than that
no way you can change that past now
and no one else to help you out
it's only you

you're not a forgotten one
but sure you are the selfish one
i'm tryna be the one to save you

cause i don't want that stain ruining all my reputation
used to idolize we forget that they were human
can't break the same cycle again and again this is an addiction
now it turned into a habit we can't escape that

all of the sudden we were so ruthless and
thought that we learn everything that was not a lesson
all that we know is our ego and our perfection
chasing for that money and fame and competition

catch a break know that everything you've earned was fake
where was real love you asking for
but you always wanted something more

the chance in living in this earth is fucking difficult
the people that we idolized turn into criminal
they get away with many things that is a sin to know
cause all of us just need that green paper for our

lives i don't wanna be the same old person i used to be

i'm tryna be the one to save you from myself

too late to know
too late

i'm tryna be the one to save you from myself

walk away i'm trying to find new lives
for you to see the truth oh
it's not the end it's just a path to find your soul
you had enough you always wanted something more
creating enemies that you used to adore

cause i don't want that stain ruining all my reputation
used to idolize we forget that they were human
can't break the same cycle again and again this is an addiction
now it turned into a habit we can't escape that

all of the sudden we were so ruthless and
thought that we learn everything that was not a lesson
all that we know is our ego and our perfection
chasing for that money and fame and competition

i just wanted you to choose your way to me
in a moment you'll be facing my reality
in a second you'll be losing your sanity

take me out of this place

again

IRIS

guitars by @ease-up-kid
prod corefish


I don't think that I could be any better than the
Way they perceive me, ah
I don't believe it
4, 5 tether my own feet to the ground, I can't be seated
Fuck it, I'ma breathe this
I need some sequence
My head feeling over and out
I steal the pieces
Put it back together, the sound was just a pretense
4, 5 tether to ground, the stance anemic
Lost my head up over the clouds while I was geekin'

I let my soul curl down to the deep
Oh, how can I compete when that boy's better than me?
It's obvious the methods are ephemeral
Please pick up a lonely message
Just a friend to appease
I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
Tie a string, brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And sever my attraction to spend

I think I lost my spot on the roster
Was I an imposter?
Don't know, but the cost made my pockets hurt
Play the slot, let the rot burn
I fiend in the sheets for success
Why can't I be the best? It's like

Spend another damn week
Learning something I'll freak out about
Oh my God, is it something I seek out?
Without any prompt, rhyme or reason
Playing my scene, stage right, I'll be leaving

Fucked up bad and never looked back
And I got things I regret but never wasn't that
And now my whole body's spent
And I couldn't attend
My own breath pitch the depths, breaking sober attempts, fuck

I let my soul curl down to the deep
I lost all my friends 'cause they're better than me
So pick up a pen, write a stanza or three
Get big on the web and go back and retreat

I let my soul curl down to the deep
Oh, how can I compete when that boy's better than me?
It's obvious the methods are ephemeral
Please pick up a lonely message
Just a friend to appease
I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
Tie a string, brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And hope that my reaction would end

I let my soul curl down to the deep
I lost all my friends 'cause they're better than me
So pick up a pen, write a stanza or three
Get big on the web and go back and retreat

I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
String brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And sever my attraction to spend

4, 5, TETHER

guitars dannyboyoo 
prod corefish

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
Lost in atonement, going overboard
To fall into place

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw then
Make a little content
Get a couple comments
Do it all again the next day in the morning
Hope it all was honest
Freezing up a big star to become a comet

And I didn't know that
Everything was fucked
Before we thought to face the ground
And now I'm
Tryna find the sun
But I can hardly settle down
Oh why am I staying up out of the sightline
Laying in wait from a far cry
Praying I'm late when the heart die
The heart die

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
I know my soul
But if I know myself I can't do the same
Fear of the toll and the blurry vision
I can't stay away
Lost in atonement, going overboard to fall into place

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw then
Make a little content
Get a couple comments
Do it all again the next day in the morning
Hope it all was honest
Freezing up a big star to become a comet
It's easier, I know, but then the feeling of control slips away

Bitch, I might
I might talk
But my gut is spinning all night
You give likes
Give me something and it's all right
A new cartridge in my pen made me all right
Made me all right
Made me, made me

Break down easy and never taunt
Anything to make me forever haunted
Turn down the pain
I get what I wanted
Try to erase
Everything I saw

They say it gets easier, I know
But then the feeling of control slips away
Lost in atonement, going overboard
To fall into place

HEART

prod @dramatrial and corefish

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound
If I could saddle it all up and take it away
What's to say, you wouldn't give me all of that
Time and space, couldn't wait
Fuck it, here we go again
That's right, you and I are stuck approaching another end

Is it bad enough now to get me out of the first place
I left my will with the crown and now they're tying a hearse
They told me roll with the punches
I said I'm over it now
But I won't bluff when I'm bound
I'll just keep shoving it down
Little fit wasn't worth the time, circumvent my limits
Try to slip in and stupefy, year I spent a witness
Subtle shit just to loop the time in and out incision
Dog enough to let the villain side out to see the vision

I got a problem and it's all my fault
This feel of drama keeps me up all night long
The marijuana frees me from my slump
And maybe if I felt a little better, I could get up and eat
I sob it all into a sweater and then I sever the leash
And we could really get along if we just let off the peace
And if you really think I'm wrong, we could give it a week

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound
If I could make up the breakdown a little bit
Shake, rub, and ache out the feeling
Take in the great love revealing
Patience, son, been pain since the ceiling

Now I've got a fear of falling and I wanna let it go
Sick of huffing back a gaseous pack and sitting like a stone
And the trauma gave me honest responses to get it out of me
Circle all the drama and atrophy all the artery

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound

Is it bad enough now to get me out of the first place
I left my will with the crown and now they're tying a hearse
They told me roll with the punches
I said I'm over it now
But I won't bluff when I'm bound
I'll just keep shoving it down
Little fit wasn't worth the time, circumvent my limits
Try to slip in and stupefy, year I spent a witness
Subtle shit just to loop the time in and out incision
Dog enough to let the villain side out to see the vision

KITE

prod 31sentinel + simon m
written by 4cf + angelus + gabby start

carer (feat. angelus)

(prod. blank)
guitar loop: rjpasin
lyrics: 
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be
and i swear
you wanted something else
dont wanna talk about it
just be by myself
and its over now but i cant regret it
things that you said in my head
never left it rent free down in my head
been stuck for a while now
gave up my home and
i stayed home for a while
tried to cope
but it didnt work im all out of hope
when i let you in
didnt know id end up here again
the seasons change up
filled with karma
is my debt all paid up yet?
and have you taken enough?
ive been shaken up
ive been breaking down
its pulling me apart
and ive faken enough
i dont wanna bluff anymore its hard
but i see now
my smile was your touch
i lose breath with no lungs
and these warm summer months
been cold since you gone
woke up new epiphany
i see what you did to me
i was fucked up mentally
but all i needed was amenity oh
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be 
and i swear
you have to find who you are
it's time to let go.
you fell out of reach
summers been passing time through the breeze and
in my head i plead
someone to save me don't wanna end up stuck in a daze
stare at a daw just to feel anything
bring all my hopes up, tearing em down
no one can hear me despite all the sounds
and i can't move on
you said be honest so ill just say it
i hate myself got no replacement
so im here, stuck between these ears
while avoiding every mirror
avoiding all my peers
and i've felt this way for years
and i see it so clearly
i was falling you ain't even talk to me
doesn't matter now
can't regret it now
or make it better now
don't regret it now.

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