shattered belief syndrome

zoloft
first song off the album
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zoloft

damn, it's been a while since i logged on here, sorry about that.

found this one digging through his old hard drive, there's a bunch of songs i want to upload from there at some point. Never even knew he made this until recently though, makes me wonder how much other music of his remained unfinished or lost.

anyway, from the lyrics i can kind of piece together the circumstances being written about here, but i think it would be better kept a personal matter. I will say that it's something me and him both had to deal with, and it was probably significantly harder on him. That kid went through an amount of hardship that would break most people.

come to think of it 2011 was just a bad year in general for us. Mom was really struggling to make ends meet, dad's health was getting worse, and we'd basically been forced to sell the couple acres that our grandpa gave us in his will. Good news though was our older sister had moved back from out of state, so she was supporting us in any way she could.

Zion had also lost a close friend that year unfortunately. Everyone had said it was a vehicle accident, but i learned later he'd been fucking around with inhalants, and that was that. Can't even imagine how hard it must've been on his parents. Sadder part is it wasn't even that uncommon, around that area at least. Even the most unassuming blue collar neighborhoods can be hiding really deplorable shit. I do hope that wherever Zion is now though, he has better friends. Because he deserved them.

i saw a seraph on the street today. he was laughing and crying, cause nobody knew his name

i saw the devil on the promenade. bundled in flagstone, writing checks that I can’t pay

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

carriage, brim your bones

i saw my father on the news today. he was tracing his prayer beads, as the red and blue took him away

bevel the whipsaw for the cavalcade. I’m eating your bullets, with a spoon made out of clay

and I am a lamb wrapped up in thermogen. shear off all the stope you take

keep her there, failing throne

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

i know you're starting to get scared of me
the more i try, the worse it gets
and i can't stand the way they stare at me
but i'll try to live with my regrets

flagstone𐂂𐂂𐂂nov2011.wav

cover / prod / mixed / mastered by me + @takuxo wit the mix a bit 
sorry its pitched up 
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1/3

i'll admit

blink

all by me
april 2025

i fell asleep into the next week
you couldn’t stitch me together, i lost my teeth
it makes my throat hurt when i say nothing
i miss when the silence didn’t sound like me

leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
this key doesn’t fit anymore and the door looks wrong
leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
your voice sounds so much worse when it’s in my phone

i wanna fall in love again even if it kills me like the last time did
i wanna fall in love again even if it drains me ‘til there’s nothing left

just call me again if it ever gets that bad
but i forget how to talk when you tell me not to laugh
i lose so much sleep when i try to trace those cracks
like maybe it’ll spell out everything i wish i had

Like the last time

Darling with U, the musics made that way
My eyes aren’t blue, there's nothing i can do

(I still wanna be your-)

You know you want it
Theres no shame in the fact being a product makes you feel like a star
Born for the slaughter, bite your lips and loop up
Then I’ll discard you like the item you are

You can run but you cant hide, boy, i see through your eyes
I’ve chases after your shadow 7 different lifetimes
I know to keep it quiet, boy, tell another lie
Come meet me at your house, I’m starving right outside

Fate turns the light off on an empty stage
I dont waste my faith on miracles or paradise
Come sign your name off on an empty page
Light a candle for me if i make it past the night

Turn the lights off
Put on a show for the lens
I’ll take it all until i ruin your life
Sitting all alone
Ripping holes in a shirt
Just to be somebody else for a night

You know you want it
Theres no shame in the fact being a product makes you feel like a star
Born for the slaughter, bite your lips and loop up
Then I’ll discard you like the item you are

(I just love the-)
(Buena Musica)
(There’s magic in the air tonight)
(I am the queen of the universe)

Zero nine

i thought i heard your voice again
i turned around, where are you at now?
the same illusion once again

but you were gone before i even spoke
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

i can’t hold on, you slip away
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

stuck in...Yesterday_3

synths - me and tele
guitars/bass/drums - tele
cleans/harshes/writing/vocal engineering - me
mix and master - tele
art illustration - marsy 
art composite/dither/color - me

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@marsy333

wanted you...

the first single off of "tracks"

synth, acoustic guitar, vocals, writing - me
mix - me
master - gla studios

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