Feeling Depleted and Obsessed

youre so obsessed with me, arent you?

wake up
and my phones dead
i got 3 missed calls in my own head
youre going crazy 
she told me maybe 
you would only understand if it were lately x3

and you would call me crazy for not wanting to talk about me
i havent cared too much, the only thing that matters is the port hanging out my mouth
and youve kept me runnin 
wondering will i ever find my peace
what are those words ur mumblin 
but wait u cant say it cuz ur stumbling

wake up
and my phones dead
i got 3 missed calls in my own head
youre going crazy 
she told me maybe 
you would only understand if it were lately x2

ur outta my mind
u shove ur words into my mouth

wake up
and my phones dead
i got 3 missed calls in my own head
youre going crazy 
she told me maybe 
you would only understand if it were lately x2

crazy (yungspoiler)

@pahtrk
prod. yungspoiler
mix, mastered, written by me 

ive been understanding way more than you can imagine
i was incorrect
caress your fingers down my neck
i was just a tool for your advantage 
can we leave this town i think we'll plan it 
its difficult but i got the advantage 
i think i tripped upon a different planet

ive been understanding way more than you can imagine
you lost an opportunity thats fine id probably reject
ill take the next couple months to fully reset
ill do what u did to me back right back to you 
but thats not who i am 
i think i need some time to reset

i saw ur heart
inside out 
the sun is calling me
the sun is calling me

yeah, they never come back less you back down
if u wanted it so bad you'd act now
i really wish i could hear the sound
and u cant luv me cuz im not around
i aint far away cuz ive been at home
but i hate it here cuz i feel alone
my insticts aint ever peak
bad choices always repeat

ive been understanding way more than you can imagine
i was incorrect
caress your fingers down my neck
with all i lost theres u i left
to be upset i cant
i think i need some time to reset

with all i lost theres u i left

reset (yungspoiler)

im back baby

lyrics:
 im worth a penny in the gutter smellin ycha to u
if u wud tell me what u want then i wud give it to u
its not my fault im no magician could u- 

ya
now they fuckin w me 
i made a couple lil payments now they fuckin w me
thought i was gone but now im back its pretty funny me 
cuz i was down abt someone that wasnt fuckin w me

u came out the woodworks like a lil tool 
acting like someone that i been should have knew
when ur off the gas u act a lil fool
im the only lil welshman in the fuckin room

but no one ever told me i could feel like this
i went clubbin in miluakee cuz i feel like it
im havin fun in the sun and i really like it
no i never felt better n i feel like this:

like the fuckin boss
like the ceo 
like the fuckin boss
like the ceo 

ya
now they fuckin w me 
i made a couple lil payments now they fuckin w me
thought i was gone but now im back its pretty funny me 
cuz i was down abt someone that wasnt fuckin w me

so yea i fucked it up
i was flyin thru the skies goin to new york
so now here i am
ive been moving round doing what i want

i fucked it up
i fucked it up again like u said i would
so now here i am
sitting at the start cuz im not enough
no its never enough
i wish i was special to u
im worth a penny in the gutter smellin ycha to u
if u wud tell me what u want then i wud give it to u
its not my fault im no magician could u understand?

i been feeling happy for the first time in a long time thats progress
i woke up so i could see the sunshine in the outside its been a process
yea we was on the roof
cuz we didnt wana smell of gas all up in the room
and ross was lookin hella trash on the tv too
but i know ur there for me so im there for u
aww

yea they fuckin w me 
i made a couple lil payments now they fuckin w me
thought i was gone but now im back its pretty funny me 
cuz i was down abt someone that wasnt fuckin w me
 
but no one ever told me i could feel like this
i went clubbin in miluakee cuz i feel like it
im havin fun in the sun and i really like it
no i never felt better n i feel like this:

like the fuckin boss
like the ceo 
like the fuckin boss
like the ceo 
u came out the woodworks like a lil tool 
acting like someone that i been should have knew
when ur off the gas u act a lil fool
im the only lil welshman in the fuckin room

no its never enough
i wish i was special to u
im worth a penny in the gutter smellin ycha to u
if u wud tell me what u want then i wud give it to u
its not my fault im no magician could u understand?

no magician

lyrics:

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too- I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

Im so Maury how I son these copy pastes
I ash on my vlone while he hang up his old navy
This power up in my cup could kill a baby
Im so deep inside this shit I promise u won’t save me
This some first take shit
On bass that’s earthquake
It feels like rapture how my whole entire room shakes
Got me sweating cause I know im not a pure soul
Still im gifted with this voice that lays ethereal
Her dad must be Phillips how she projecting
And her mom must be fedex how she hold my package
Pull up on my guys and they let that opera sing
Stay around too long I swear they’ll bring u damage

Fuck me and bite me and slap me and maim me and scar me and shape me and teach me the ways of the background U gave me I learned it and suffered the beatings and upsets
I am nothing but an object to you

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too-  I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

house Party  (eric Godlow)

@awordwithgod
produced by michael harrison
everything else by patp32

no one ever said that it would be this hard
im crying so much cause they stole my car
i wanna thank you for picking me up
and now youre crying cause i said too much

ive been so angry if you couldnt tell
i got cocaine i couldnt sell
i wanna make sure i can sleep tonight

wake up tomorrow and im gonna end my life
im gonna end my life x2
i really dont wanna live
im gonna end my life x3
i really dont wanna live im gonna end my life

whats wrong they didnt want to talk to you
i understand, okay? im here for you
i hope you understand your reprocussions 
why dont we start with just an introduction

wake up tomorrow and im gonna end my life
im gonna end my life x2
i really dont wanna live
im gonna end my life x3

the one place i shouldn't be .michael harrison

Tell Me - X (prod. Taigen)

(BoyKidd)
Yeah 
Girl fellin love with you 
Every chance i made
Never knew this shit could existed 
From going south to east 
Everytime you’re the beast 
Everytime you slayed 
Nah 
Okay
Let take this straight 
Let me get this fake
Let me get this take 
Let me take evey minute today 
Like damn 
Girl you’re the best
Really liked the sex 
Felt like everything coming all next 
I don’t wanna say sorry from the very start
Dont wanna take the army 
Cause i dont think hard 
I wont go so far 

(BoyKidd)

Let me say goodbye to your mom to your dad 
Let me say goodbye to your brother to the next 
Never felt in love today
Never felt that great 
Until I meet you like every other day
Maybe yesterday will be the worst day
But the guy for you 
Wouldn’t take a chance for you 
How could i never knew 

(BoyKidd)
How could I ever knew 
That you broke my heart
Every time I felt in love 
Feel like shit could start
Baby girl you’re my enemy
While we’re drinking some tea
Well Im 
Let me get some tea for you
And next 
Never knew this could end it
Girl 
Why couldn’t I go again 
Never go again

(Lxst Boy)
Uh yeah yeah 
I never felt in love like this before 
I just wanna to go back 
To kiss on your back porch 
Trying not to get caught 
But now it don’t even matter 
You ripped my heart out right out my chest 
Then Squeeze and blood splatter 
Looking at a map to find the love that I lost 
Ay 
x marks the spot 
I got taken for fraud 
Ay 
Take it all back 
And I’m still feeling empty 
Reaper in town ￼
Sold my soul 
When she kiss me 
Long brown hair 
Kinda cute when she tipsy 
Now she knows I’m gone 
And I Knew she wouldn’t miss me
Knew she wouldn’t miss me
Like what
Knew she wouldn’t miss me
Like what 
Knew she wouldn’t miss me
Like what 
Knew she wouldn’t miss me
I’m gone
buckle on her knees 
I gotta stay strong 
I couldn’t write another song 
I couldn’t write another song

Let Me (ft. Lxst Boy)

Hahaha (diewxll)

make it real

produced by pekarot
engineered by me

lyrics:

girl u told me i wouldnt be something
now i turned being a nothing into something
posting songs hoping i make it
i dont wanna have to live in fear

GIRL IM DYING THE FLOOR
NOW STARING INTO THE MIRROR ON SHROOMS LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TOO
SICK OF CRYING ON THE FLOOR IN THIS BEDROOM

lost to many people way to soon
wanna chase these pills with some whiskey but i dont wanna die yet
reapers got my soul on a list and hes ready to collect
and if we never meant i doubt he would be dead
n i sent my last text and you left it on read
i gotta say this one more time
it wasnt my fault that he did what he did
but u can blame me because i never change im jus like the rest

a fucking drug addict
a fucking mess
always fucking stressed

girl u told me i wouldnt be something
now i turned being a nothing into something
posting songs hoping i make it
i dont wanna have to live in fear

GIRL IM DYING THE FLOOR
NOW STARING INTO THE MIRROR ON SHROOMS LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TOO
SICK OF CRYING ON THE FLOOR IN THIS BEDROOM

something

@tores
@ripwarheart
@t57thetank


just like u promised
u said u wanted
to make things better
you go on ahead...
leave me in timelapse
i feel the weather
my heart its frozen
my fate has ended

just like u wanted
fall in love, lose touch, we faded
i know your love, it was for him
my mistake, took my attention
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
all ur benefit

#ay
alright
okay
i dont feel myself today
shawty tryina turn dis round 
all ur words, make them twist round on me
i cant tell from right or wronggg
u put me thru da miseryyy
i aint ever gonna fix this pain

benefit // tores + warheart + t57

I ran until I was too old
I cried and I prayed to my Lord
He saw in me things I couldn't see
and He brightened a hope in my soul
people around say my name
not knowing the wake of its way
when I told them the whole, they laid my story cold
they said come as you are every day
everyone waited for me to come around someday, and I wanted to
stones of the streets that I hated to walk alone, i kiss them for You

fantasy of a perpetual

Happier Not Knowing

✦hope y'all been doing well & enjoy this one!! a new song/flip with gamvae is coming out next week on spotify and two weeks after that this ones coming out everywhere too :) thank u for listening <3 ✦

lyrics
--------
fuck me up inside u did damage
losing u to much i can't handle
cuz lately i've been lost in this dark palace
tryna send me in the wrong directions

i told u, i didn't know what u expected
now you're so cruel, why u tryna send me a message
and now we're so through, all alone i feel abandoned
through the cold view, bleeding out give me the bandage

put my emotions in a bag and i'll pack them
i thought the trust would last every second
i got voices in my head i gotta break it
there's really not much left compared to back then

i knew it months ahead that u planned it
got voices in my head what they demanding?
cause now theres no way back and my heart's standing
put these feelings in a sack and i'll trash them
many times i tried but i can't help it
and i'll ask u one more time if u have felt it
no there's not alot to hide compared to back then
and now it's you and i
looking for the ending

Wrong Directions

Wrong Directions (endocrime + 11feinly)

i dont wanna feel this way
doctor can you please help me
every day the voice say
i can help you out my friend
come inside come right on in
let me make a concoction with an additive

i can make you feel better
come try my special sample
it only costs a lot
like a leg and a handful
are you full of rapid thoughts? 
do you feel like a landfill?
lemme give you pill after pill
be my damsel
in distress
you seem stressed
oh so tense
bit depressed
oh my my you're such a mess
congratulations, you're dependent
on me and my medicine

me and my medicine
feast on these sedatives
she isn't doing well
he needs another pill
we only wanna help
but it'll cost you everything you've got and everything you don't

i dont wanna feel this way
doctor can you please help me
every day the voice say
you will never be okay
you will never be okay
i can help you out my friend
come inside come right on in
let me make a concoction with an additive

let's take a step back to your past
i really wanna see how you react
when i mentioned dad, how'd you feel bout that?
did it feel like you were on thumbtacks
did you feel that like it was whiplash
if you did then we're on the right path

okay for this therapy session I've got an answer
I made this on my own step by step like a dancer
it'll help with trauma and more but it'll cost you
your life
your whole life belongs to 

me and my medicine
feast on these sedatives
she isn't doing well
he needs another pill
we only wanna help
but it'll cost you everything you've got and everything you don't

medicine (lovin)

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

@sorrow_bringer

10 missed calls
didnt even here the phone ring
i rly thought
that i left that in the old me
why're ur eyes always red?
she still walks thru my head
good god, i've been feelin so unholy
when i fall, i know no one's there to hold me
if that's all to be said
you can load up the lead

spent my last 12 months
tryna make a couple bucks
ruinnin from my loved ones
i've been hiding
from the life i knew once
to the shit i do now
you can't even here the sound
if i'm cryin
long nights smoking blunts
til the sun comes up
i've been faded on my own
and idgaf
if the neighbors gunna watch
take a pic too
it's all good
they won't ever get what we do

10 missed calls (prod. sorrow bringer)

@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

BREATHE (prod. curtains x taxpurposes)

prod me 
i hope u likey

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

(verse)
and its hard 2 hide
so i hardly try
yes i wonder why
that i try 2 lie
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i 

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK !!!!!!! OMG GUITARS!!!!!!!

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

pessimist

Debut album out 10/31 on Halloween!
Thanks for listening friends, this was a really fun track to make
<3
Shoutouts
@sewerperson
@sorrow_bringer
@iofmusic

And on a side note THANK YOU FOR 50K on Loveless
You guys are awesome!

*lyrics by request*

(Fearce)
Cant believe my eyes
Look how far we made it
told to never cry
now we just get faded
might see you at my show
too high to even notice you

someday came suddenly
another feeling gone
always time to leave
timing
dont mean a thing
when everything gets lost
it was just a dream
but 
all of its so vague now
can you help me figure out

so many stories i couldnt remember
when all i could think of was falling asleep
you distance yourself from the past and the present
now all that you're left with exists in a dream

but we're so much farther
than the people we used to be

(Sewerperson)
black ash
seeing thru the serpents eye
whip lash
i could barely sleep at night
breaking the walls of my mind
baby i had enough
chained to the pole by her side
baby im giving up
and i never leave
i just fade into the background
they aint let me breathe but i promise you i am now
 ever since i known her she cant help the way she stand out  
baby ill see you in your dreams and i promise you ill stand down
woah
lights on top these buildings offer shelter from the snow
i cant even decide just where the fuck i wanna go
far away from anybody i would ever know
i could feel this tingle in my hands before they glow

The People We Used To Be feat. sewerperson (prod. sorrow bringer)

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