Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

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Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

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she wonders if ill be there
dont worry i swear i can
i know im good but i miss the pain
 babygirl im not perfect, dont know who i am
did u ever think that i can let u go
idk what i did that was so wrong
loved u since the day that u were gone
sorry baby i thought u didnt care at all
didnt care at all
and then i just forgot 
how it used to feel 
to be in your arms
i went back to my past
again, it broke my heart
she knew that i was wrong
i didnt care at all
didnt care at all
i think there’s something wrong 
why cant u let me go
she said you're all i love
i wanna die so bad
but when you’re in my arms
something feels alive but i still wanna die
u got me doubting girl, is this what u wanted?
so fucking down, i don't know how i got here
they say they love me, i dont understand it
it's all a lie, can't u fucking be honest?
baby i got way too numb and i just wanna feel something
i'm asking you, but i know u just can't help me
sometimes i feel like i just need the money
sorry baby i thought u didn't care at all

i thought you didn't care at all (prod. splashgvng)

originally performed by Lady A 
art / mix by me

NEED U NOW (prod. Sleye)(Lady A Cover)

super nova feat. foreign forest & maxthriftgod (prod. lilidentitycrisis)

dylan lotus - Chains (w/feelnum)

lyrics

sorry, the number u have called is unavailable at the moment, 
please leave a message at the tone

hey uh, so
I'm calling cus I
I saw what u posted today
and I can't just can't do this at all anymore
I don't know what made you think it's okay to just
fuck my best friend like that but
we're done
n uh, you're not gonna see me anymore
bye

I've got a feeling that sits in my soul
to fight thru the pain
to let it all go
of all the blood I bled
I know there's more to give
n I can't taste the ash
I know u slept with him
if I could I would forget u
here's a list of everything u said that wasn't tru
God damn I'm gonna miss u
but I wish I never met u

I wish that this could be
one of the last songs I write about u
but we can both see
that this is gonna take a bit of time 

I remember freaking out cus I got sober 
I remember dates we set for late October
but we had to wait till it was over
where u at?
I'm smoking out the back
two packs and friends wanna get a bag
ride fast, crash a car n fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse, yeah
lock myself inside my house
I keep it down
cus I'm trying not to cry loud
it's all ash, but I gotta clean the bong out
two hits n I'm gonna put the knife down
yeah

does it cut u when i say that i don't want u around?
ur in my head but I still tend to keep my ear to the ground
n I swear
it gets so overwhelming 
time flying past 
but it feels like last week

n what do I say when I can't breathe?
what do I say to make this pain cease?
I'm all choked up n I can't think
what can I say to make this okay?
I hope u hear one of my songs
but u don't know so u sing along 
till u look down, see my name so
u say: "oh shit, what have I done?"

we're sorry, u have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service
go fuck urself

Salem Pt. 2 (5head)

We Suck Together (Prod Splashgvng & milodrama)
Key 
Bpm 

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🎸 Guitar by milodrama

super nova feat. foreign forest & maxthriftgod (prod. lilidentitycrisis)

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