made this 2 part beat that i rly like and decided to record some vocals over it. i love the 2nd part, probably my fav beat i've ever made to date, especially the outro. lemme know what you think

lyrics:
(pt1: steady)
all that money coming in, all that money coming in
all that money coming, steady
i don't want it, all that money
but i'll take it anyway cuz it's still what? still fetti

bitch don't ask me for no favors just because you know my pockets is heavy
if i want it i go get it, all these blessings i receive em, i get them delivered like fedex
im just tryna live my life but i've been having a hard time lately
but no matter what, my bitch got a fatty and the money is still coming in, what? steady

(pt2: family)
we were meant to be
we were meant to be family
we were meant to be
we were meant to be

every time i see you i get flashbacks to every single time you treated me like shit
all the trauma cant be erased with a simple sorry you have not changed a bit since i was a kid
im just gonna get real with you i dont read the messages that you send to me in your delirium
i tried to stop you from destroying yourself a hundred times, now im done trying, you do you
and im gone now, a thousand miles away, at this point i cant give a fuck about your mental state
this is what we have come to, and this is what it takes
and it's truly sad, I'm your deadbeat son for the deadbeat dad

please don't raise your voice at me
please don't raise your voice at me
you know i want it to be true
you know i want the best for you
please don't raise your voice at me
please don't raise your hand at me

STEADY // FAMILY

A stripped back version of one of my original songs

Losing Game - Demo

A stripped back version of my original song 'Bleeding Hearts'

Bleeding Hearts - Demo

First demo of my first collaboration with Alexander Hoxy! Some R&B beats and good vibes, enjoy :)

Demo: things you decide not to see ft. Alexander Hoxy

Recorded at Strawport Studio in Vilnius, Lithuania, August 2022.

Lyrics:

Verse 1

My friends and I move to a new neighbourhood
There’s a park nearby and the rent is good
Damp windows and a single closet
Creaky bed, and the hall smells of vomit
It may look a little dodgy but it feels pretty safe at night
I tell my mum not to worry, I’ll make sure I eat right

Chorus

I know it’s not so bad, one day I’ll look back and laugh
And though things aren’t always great, one day I’ll celebrate
‘Cause scars remind us who we are
And though getting by is hard
At the very least it will make a good story

Verse 2

The girl next door is a part time escort
Before she hits thirty she wants to be sorted
She says she wants to move to Manchester
Where her money will go further

It’s challenging to claw yourself out of shitty circumstances
What are the chances, without getting dirty
But I’m determined to be one of the lucky few
I mean what else am I gonna do?

Chorus

Middle

Oh I’m doing fine but some friends of mine work day and night just to get by
It’s a race each day to stop falling behind. Will there ever be a finish line?
If I didn’t laugh I’d have to cry

Look Back and Laugh

Look Back and Laugh - Acoustic

Don't Doubt ur Vibe

She said she’s here to study and take pictures of the city in the summer
I show her around the corners of the city that I think are cool
She buys me a smoothie and teaches me how to say: ‘Hello, how are you?’

We bump into each other as we walk down the street

Working part time in that trendy shop
Your boss is always looking at you, tries to feel you up
I missed my last train but I can crash at your place
After clubbing I get hungry so let’s go eat something

I wonder, are there any locals in London?
First they come then they go before I get to know them

Recommending a Russian writer
And the music that you used to cry to when you broke up with your first boyfriend
I like learning all those peculiar phrases
That result from a funny translation that goes on in your mind

I wonder, are there any locals in London?
First they come then they go before I get to know them

I wonder, are there any locals in London?
First they come then they go before I get to know them

Art by: https://www.instagram.com/iza_barszcz/

Locals In London

This is in its early stages (to be mixed and mastered) but thought I'd let you hear it during this lockdown. A personal song, I dedicate this to all those going through difficult times.

Standing On Air (Rough Mix Demo)

Mixed and Mastered by Strawport Records

Lyrics:

There are things you don’t know I keep them from you
‘Cause I’d hate to bring you down with a dark point of view
So I put on a brave face to help me get through
This everyday despair that’s nothing new

Broken, I’m Broken
I’m Broken, Broken

I really want to tell you but it’s hard to convey
How all the colours I saw have faded to grey
The joy that filled my heart has all been drained
And everything that I loved now causes me pain

Yeah, I’m going in circles and I don’t know how to change
Nothing strikes the right chord that can help me turn the page
And repetitive thoughts are keeping me awake
If I could sleep forever that could be my escape

I take a deep breath and get out of bed
It’s the smallest routine that keeps me out of my head
I might be broken but it won’t be forever

Broken, I’m Broken
I’m Broken, Broken

Broken, carry that weight
Broken, stronger every day

Broken

True Stories + Living Music. Based in London, UK.

Broken

CornelisGerard