Art by $lave
Fell in love with a girl who dosnt even exist
the fact that she's mine is the only thing that matters
im obsessed with something ill never even have
so slit my wrists again and cut through the scabs

these sloots can stay mad cause they know this love is priceless
im jumping out of this 3d plane of existence
with a dakimura pillowcase tied around my neck
holding me tightly as i kill myself

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

every night i go to sleep and only dream about her
see her face everyday as the background on my computer
liking girls is gay but my waifu is forever
once i hang myself then we'll be together

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

my waifu

im normal stop calling me those mean words

stop calling me a schizoposter just cuz im way more aware than u
stop saying ima schizophrenic i just know exactly what theyll gna do
theyre always watching me i think u know who im referring to
theyre like the fbi for the antichrist n theyre always wearing white n blue

stop making me feel insane ima normal guy with a normal brain
theyre comin at me with their 5g rays idk why they cause me so much pain
im jst a normal man im a hard working citizen
but when i get on the internet i say some shit that doesnt make sense

well it does to me u guys just need to open up ur eyes
ur not crazy for thinkin theyre watchin u all of the time
theyre always there n if u see them u should run n hide
conspiracy is just a word to make ur thoughts seem like a lie

stop calling me a schizoposter just cuz im way more aware than u
stop saying ima schizophrenic i just know exactly what theyll gna do
theyre always watching me i think u know who im referring to
theyre like the fbi for the antichrist n theyre always wearing white n blue

*alex jones talking about fighting against the evil new world order for our freedom *

instrumental is from watch me bleed by shooter: https://soundcloud.com/negativexp/watch-me-bleed-instrumental?si=42db1388ec94403e9a6f2976ca2eed40&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

conspiracy is just a word to make ur thoughts seem like a lie

V tubers are a plague and annoying af 
(lyrics)  
(Verse 1)
 I dream of anime girls who tell me I can escape this world 
They know how much my life sucks, They know how hard I got fucked.    
(chorus)
You say that I'm killing myself 
I say that I'm escaping hell
point the trigger directly at my brain 
blast away at the source of my pain
(verse 2) 
I know it won't be painless 
it sure as hell won't be easy
but once I join them 
they'll do anything to please me. 
(bridge) 
you tell me not to kill myself 
your words are emptier than this broken hell
my only true support wants me to blow my fucking head off
one shot is all it takes , one shot and everything will be okay

Kill Myself

When you get to the top
I hope you get pushed down 
If you ever get lost
I hope you’re never found 
You love to hear yourself talk
About how you’re so great
When you’re feeling so hot
I hope you realize it’s fake

You’re always acting
Nothing that you say is true
You’re not a good friend
There’s a reason no one likes you
You play a victim
Because That’s all you know how to do
I don’t care that I win
Just as long as you lose

When you start doing well
I hope you burn in hell
When things start going your way
I hope it ends in dismay
I used to not be this mad
But you made me feel this wrath
Now I just hope that you die 
And I will never comply

I hope all of your friends
Stop playing along 
I wish you wouldn’t pretend
That you did nothing wrong 
It’s not that hard to admit
But you’re fucked and stupid
I hope someday you realize
The weight of What you did

Bitch

Been locked up again
I may have lost my mind
And you go out everyday
With your fucking friends

Oh yeah
Fuck you
I'd rather stay in bed
Than see Again
Your stupid fucking face
Oh I'm
So ashamed
I wish to die today
I can't Belive
That once we were friends

I wonder if they listen
'cause you're talking all the time
And there's one thing I want
I hope that you shut up

Oh yeah
Fuck you
I'd rather stay in bed
Than see Again
Your stupid fucking face
Oh I'm
So ashamed
I wish to die today
I can't Belive
That once we were friends

Fuarrrk Off

trash cover.

I just want to kill myself
I just want to kill myself
I'll put a bullet in my head

Paint the walls with my brain  
Paint the walls with my brain
I guess nobody cares

Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself

Nobody Cares (belowground cover)

nxp cover song :P

lyrics:
Woke up again today
With no missions and zero strength
I don't know how to play
And I don't want to anyway
Need to delete this game
And go back to another save

But my hard drive's fucked
Zero charisma, zero luck
I don't have any skills
Or the XP to fix my build

The simulation's fucked
Everything and everybody sucks
NPCs hate my guts
I wanna quit, want to log off
I'm not having any fun

(My hard drive's fucked) I'm not having any fun
(Zero charisma, zero luck) I'm not having any fun
(The simulation's fucked) I'm not having any fun
(I'm not having any fun) I'm not having any fun

life is an rpg and i fucked up my build (cover)

original song finally 

lyrics

could be bpd
thats why im so mean
could be adhd 
i cant do anything
why bother with doctors
im self diagnosing
they already told me up on my phone screen
oh im autistic
let me sperg about my special interest
im going nonverbal
im ticking im stimming
all of my symptoms
they just seem to fit in
schizophrenia
self diagnosis
you cant blame me when im in psychosis
if i did something bad it wasnt me
it was my alter i have did
meet my system 
its hard to keep up
please believe me 
even with the slip ups
and a buzzfeed test
told me that im bipolar
you cant call me retarded
yeah its really immoral
and im neurodivergent
you are neurotypical
we want you to feel like we are divisible
if theres not something wrong with you
then theres something wrong with you
the quizzes and videos
they are all calling you

self diagnosis

(nova crashout)
im a fuckign F@g
i know that you dont care
im lsot in the sauce
im lost in jerking off
youre adultering my adulting
fucking up my life
no matter how many chords that i play 
ill never be enough

just a guy
im just another guy

cast me aside
like im nothing
throw me out
im not bluffing
youre my girl
and im not your boy
when you speak
i see their cum in your teeth

just a guy
Im just another guy to you

GUYYYY TOOOOO YOUUUUUUUUU

just a guy

Remains
Im tired of life
Im tired of my wife
I know your lies
I have a suprise

You’re cheating on your love
Is he what you think of
I want him dead
Im going to blow his head

Oh I know baby what your doing to me
Do you think I’m blind to not see 
Im tired of you and your stupid you
Breaking your skulls will bring me so much joy

My dear, my heart
Im gonna take you apart
I walk into your room
I’ll take you both to your doom

I grab my gun
I thought I was your one
I blow his face
He wanted to see the grace

I blow out your it brains
I chop up your remains
That’s what you get
For making me upset

I bury your corpse
Im sorry it took this course
The next day
I’ll leave this fucking place

Remains

kerf track, mixed by ri


i wish i stopped right when i had started
all feeling’s gone away
addiction’s spiraled out of hand into a mess thats gone astray
i’ve been seeking help from unhelpful sources
it doesn’t numb the pain
waking up is a fucking chore and i have to do it everyday

the things ive done to run away from all this
its why im running still
my vices dominate what used to be what gave me humanity

Seethe

I don't know how to make music my instrumentals are all stolen

that one song got taken down by soundcloud listen on spotify its back quality sucks still listen on spotify

conspiracy is just a word to make ur thoughts seem like a lie

cornsyrupchugger