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Side effects may include dreams of increasing absurdity.

Side effects may include 
blurred vision, 
seeing split-screen, 
loss of eye contact. 
Call your doctor 
if you can't find your eye contact,
if suddenly everyone looks familiar,
if suddenly everyone looks like a bear,
if the tricks your eyes play on you, the other senses are in on it too.

The doctor asks "are the meds helping?"
I say "you're the doctor, you tell me"
He says "ok, let's increase them"
"...let's increase them"

I could've looked it up, what these pills do
I'm hearing these voices,
I'm having these conversations
--no, I'm hosting, I'm hosting these conversations
It's like in my periphery people are talking.
I don't know what they're talking about
Half the time I'm listening, half the time I'm not
but if I go to answer I scare the living shit out of myself

And then I get the help
Help is doors with no handles
Help is rooms without windows
Thinking, speaking entirely in acronyms
It's all keys and locks and laniards and badges,
Asking permission, not minding
The clipboards come around, nope, 
nope, no thoughts of suicide, but 
hello Risperdal
Could you do me a favor and die?
I mean leave me alone.
I mean this medicine's making me mean for no reason...
don't leave me, 
sorry don't leave me.
Have you eaten? 
Have you showered?
Have you tried to take your freckles off?

(someone drew a flower on the wall)

I have a question:
Is it just my head under arrest?
Can the rest of me leave, please?
Am I being arrested for being sad?

Side effects may include
Chair-through wall-smashing fantasies
Chair-through wall-smashing fixation 
Chair-through wall-smashing ideation

Yeah, hi, I have a question:
on which side are the effects?

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