bandcamp: https://cosmikmusic.bandcamp.com/track/i-dont-remember-how-to-be-a-human
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/2cKy5iS72ttcHBAxfcLBPY?si=CWGPkdWaQiGmGmYVN6O7BQ

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i dont remember how to be a human

coprod brody
art by marsy

pre-save album2
https://share.amuse.io/album/blackwinterwells-woven-shut

...with reckless abandon

RIGHTEOUS INDIGNATION

bonne nuit ft. marsy & lydia

prod star3d

You're a spider, I'm a fly
Keep me wrapped up by your side
Even when I know it's wrong

Tell me what you mean, thinkin' for some weeks
Compliment your hair clips, you compliment my jeans
Lately I can't even think, you've been all up in my dreams
Remember what you said, could you tell me what it means, what it means

We can take it fast, we can take it slow
You can spend the night here, he don't gotta know
I could show you round, where you wanna go
Baby tell me right now, cus I gotta know

We can take it fast, we can take it slow
You can spend the night here, he don't gotta know
I could show you round, where you wanna go
Baby tell me right now, cus I gotta know

We can take it slow, he don't gotta know
We can take it slow, baby tell me right now
He don't gotta know

Sun's down, I taste that secret feeling
You're just so fucking perfect
Next to you, I feel worthless
Fish on your hook, you're reeling
You're a spider, I'm a fly
Keep me wrapped up by your side
Even when I know it's wrong
Lullaby, your siren song

Thinkin' for some weeks
Compliment your hair clips, you compliment my jeans
Lately I can't even think, you've been all up in my dreams
Remember what you said, could you tell me what it means, what it means

We can take it fast, we can take it slow
You can spend the night here, he don't gotta know
I could show you round, where you wanna go
Baby tell me right now, cus I gotta know

We can take it fast, we can take it slow
You can spend the night here, he don't gotta know
I could show you round, where you wanna go
Baby tell me right now, cus I gotta know

spider

prod cr1sis + crusey
my songs r on all plats btw

grl i cant get enough
yea i js need ur luv
not trynna fall aprt
but i been feelin stuck

like whatchu sayin
molly in my brain
i been off these drugs
imma little bit insane
i let it spray
if u fkin wit tha gang
btch i dnt play
we gon find out where u stay

(crusey)
ion wanna talk if u cant calm down
grl i rlly hate wen ur not arnd
ask me wut to say
we could shut it down
cuz im diggin my own grave
wen i open my mouth

im too lazy to finish tha rest

fall apart (cr1sis + crusey)

I watched you from my car and saw you crawl upon her body in that dirty fucking room and boy i swear it drove me crazy
Biting on my lip to try and cut away the sound, yeah i know i fucked around but i swear im still ur baby
I know im stuck inside your vision when you fuck her, u wish that u could just forget and rip my stains out of ur covers
Do you ever stop to wonder if you make this shit too easy when you trick another pretty little bitch to think you love her

Im insecure every time i see a mirror
While ur telling me this shit im fucking holding back the tears
Wanna rip apart my body everytime i see you with her
Im a stupid little slut, and i should really dissapear
I could tell you everything you wanna hear
I could whisper all the stupid fkn bullshit in ur ear
Make you think a little, just enough to make u feel the fear
Think u wanna stay close? Couldnt even come near

You think that she"ll replace me? Huh
Talking shit but u still wanna date me
My hands are shaky, i could make u hate me
Break myself again really hoping you would praise me

I dont think ur ever gonna find her
U cant look away im the doll on ur grindr
You just wanna fuck me i see in eyes 
Im so sick of all the hiding, wanna feel alive 

Im your dirty little secret
Yeah u have ur reasons
Hiding me in public
God i feel i stinging
I think im needy
Twitching from the feeling
Cover up my mouth when you start to hear me breathing
I start to whimper biting back my tongue
Youre such a fucking mess when ur begging me to cum
Youre like a monster lappin up my blood
I dont wanna share, want u deep inside my lungs

insecure [darko]

ART BY @WORLDWIDEWILLY
MASTERED BY @BODYGAARD

On and off
You like
The way
It hurts

Play pretend
You feel alive
At all

Dreaming of a day with you
That never came
I'm thinking bout it all
I loved the way it rang
Our name together
Smells of feathers
The unsung love
Of 2 young lovers

Dreaming of a day with you
That never came
We looked past all the time
We spend withering away
The grass is green
The lie itself
So soft the touch
Of something unreal

You'll never change
But I'm in love
(I'm so in love I hate it)
But I'm in love
(I'm so in love)
Set my mind astray
But I'm in love
(But I'm in love)

Chase the bolt
The strike
Will you
Come with me
Too young to know
How else to live
Our lives
You won't change

Dreaming of a day with you
That never came
I'm thinking bout it all
I loved the way it rang
Our name together
Smells of feathers
The unsung love
Of 2 young lovers

Dreaming of a day with you
That never came
We looked past all the time
We spend withering away
The grass is green
The lie itself
So soft the touch
Of something unreal

Something to note
Cause I'm in love
(Cause I'm in love)
I'm so in love
(I'm so in love)
The greed that wraps it's arms
Cause I'm in love
(I'm so in love)
I'm so in love

Unsung Lover (Auvy)

solo :333
@sensuku

say it cos u are
promise that u crush
stay with ur heart
take me out the dark
i turn you around
u took me so far
tell me why it hit so hard
u know that i loved u

why cant i move on?

would i hurt you? could i feel you
just a single time more?
u were see through and i miss u
ur in my mind more

i feel like im lost inside i talk alone
i feel like i hate myself, im broken for-?  
i feel like im torn inside, could i restore
whats the point in anything if i aint yours

crush (me)

ft @prod-jhai
prod @nightigerxo
prod @tores

¸„٭⊹•~⍣°”ˆ˜¨ _ ¨˜ˆ”°⍣~•⊹٭„¸





lyrics

@1blckhrt
she wanna kick it at the party
i aint fw u im not sorry
im in love with drugs my vision going starry
gaze up at the sky look at where the stars be
hop in the whip u know its a ferrari

i dont wanna talk to you again
all the nights we shouldve spent
writing all these texts ill never send

i been faded, i been lost in my head
voices echo but i leave em on read
heart so cold feel the ice in my chest
said you love me but you left me for dead

now im swervin thru the city lights
youre not here when i sleep at night
told myself id be alright x2

@prod-jhai
i told my self that i would be alright (yea)
how am i supposed to be without u
every night when i lay in bed (yea)
i think of you, im just praying for a call back
 
for a call back
you should know that
i was there when nobody was right beside you

but that was all in the past
and i knew it wouldnt last
then you go off the map
ur just breaking my head

ur just breaking my head
waiting for ur call back
(2x)

city lights w/ jhai [ALL PLATS]

https://www.instagram.com/p/DNzD1g62JWB/?img_index=1

𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚢 , 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗 𝚒𝚝 𝚞𝚙
𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚢 . 4𝚞𝚞𝚄𝚞𝚞
ʸᵃʸᵃʸᵃʸᵃ ʸᵃ ʸᵃ ʸᵃ ʸᵃ ʸᵃʸᵃᵃʰʰʰʸᵘʰʰʰ ʸᵃʸᵃʸᵃʸᵃ ʸᵃ

cant find the words :/ ₗₑₘₘₑ ₖₙₒₒₒₒ
if im wrong den itz alright
i don wanna do this anymore
do this anymore (ᵢ dₒₙₜ wₐₙₙₐ dₒ ₜₕᵢₛ)
y̷a̷a̷a̷̷y̷a̷a̷a̷a̷a̷
turn it off the lights
all the way 4u ╥﹏╥
burnin down the sky
jus so i could b of use

jus so i..
cld see how it feels
cld rlly c
urrnot the person tht u pretend 2 b
u were ma brothr now ur n enemy </3
fck all dat bs u r no friend
thot it wuz us until the end
i had ur bacc
nd u pretend thtd u do the same
2 of us only 1 rlly left 2 blame

ANGELS IN MY CITY

she/her

everything by me unless stated otherwise

@feywinter