You make me hate myself
A whole lot less
I’m a mess when I’m without you
You let me cut myself
A bit more slack

You provide the simple getaway I need
Terrorize the demons laying eggs in me
Feels a lot like most nights
The end’s nigh and then
You shine on me
It’s dark and then you shine on me

Today tastes just the same as yesterday
Today tastes just the same as yesterday

Take a swim and sleep it off
Slip into the warm place we belong
Cool
All my motivation’s been and gone
You’re the only muse worth singing songs to
They’ve made it way too hard
To change anything
In the end
They make it way too hard
To change anything

You Make Me Hate Myself A Lot Less

Lyrics:
Won't regret, bitch, pop you every second.
I might get you fucked up, have your scars get to pending.
I am not so fine, why the hell am I pretending?
Still not gonna die, they can't bring me to the dead end.
You ripped my fucking life, everything but my damn freedom.
Now I've turned into a zombie, got the blood right in my pupils.
Get to bleeding, have your brain and face be weeping.
Bitch, don't cry, you fucking demon.
They turned on me, burned on me.
They might smoke on my death when I'll be sleeping.
Dreamed about suicide, bitched at that.
Killed everyone, you can look at my stats.
No one in here can break up my path.
Still on the way to lavish real fast.
Try to tempt me, you might need a cast.
Stomp on your head, turn it into ash.
Loving my present, can't fuck with my past.
Everything was dead, my life was crashed.
Heavy, I be feeling heavy.
Done with it already.
Pop you like confetti.
Got you looking hairy.
Feel like I'm a fairy.
Ripping teeth so daily.
Morphed up like I'm Eddie.
Keep it fucking steady.

Blood was on my arm, had to dry it out.
Blood was on my arm, had to dry it out.
Blood was on my arm, had to dry it out, ayy

Blood was on my neck, had to try it out, ayy.
Felt so damn betrayed, had to cry it out, ayy.
Had me in a room, got the demons out my mouth, ayy.
Had to change up and made a damn zombie sound, ayy.
Dealt with people that was so unreal to me, uh.
Month after month, I jus had to get new dreams, uh.
If they try to ruin, I'll fuck them up and make them scream, uh.
Get them all ripped up like my fucking jeans, uh.

DRY.EM.OUT (prod. BOWSY)

I need you to bring your body here with me

Raising hell, finding hope in this mad, crazy world

And we don't talk about it

so will you be my girl

I can't keep on waiting

When the world gets crazy

Don't say that you're a fiend

Maybe if I close my eyes

I wanna be redeemed

If you don't know how to do it

How much are you gonna do if ya gotta fiend

In the middle of the night

When I feel your heart beating

I want you with me in the morning

The way you talk about me is so mean

I can't stand to see you leaving

I just wanna let you know

I feel like I'm drowning

Maybe we can try something new

And I don't know where I'm going

And since I did this all for you 

I just wanna go home

But I gotta keep movin

I don't know where i'll be next

But I know when I'm leaving

I know what's going on inside of me

There's something in the air

I wish that I could be extinct

I wanna go back to where we began

I wanna hold you in the morning

Take me as I am I am

I wanna see us again and again

I wanna see us again and again

And let it go let it go like I am

I wanna wake up in the middle of the night

I dont know where I am

Walking down the street just like a man

And now you've got me beat just like you can

I dont know where I am

Liberty Extinct

we took a total of 6 years to produce, write, and record this track (production and writing took less than a year mind you...). enjoy our first track together as SKY (special kind of youth) <3 lyrics below:

[VERSE 1]
Know it’s been 2 years
Since we last spoken
Gotta understand 
Baby we were children
I ain’t got nothing on you
Not tryna get us back together, no

You been doing you 
I’ve been taking my time
Proud of us for sticking it, kicking it
Baby we doing alright
Kinda miss you, not gonna lie
Kinda miss us, all the time
But I don’t need that 
I don’t want that, I don’t want you back but

[PRE-CHORUS 1]
It was good while lasted
Baby with you, with you, with you
It was good while we had it
Baby it’s true, it’s true, it’s true
And I like that, I like that, I like that 
About us
Glad we had that, had that, had that
About us

[PRE-CHORUS 2]
So long as you’re happy baby
And settled for nothing less
What works for you 
And what doesn’t 
What you must do
And what you musn’t 
Hope you found what you 
Were looking for before we parted
Thank you for giving me your time 

[CHORUS]
Gone are the days 
I had you come over 
Us and the world 
That’s all i remember
Taking it back 
To our adventures
Doing it doing it right 
Yeah yeah yeah 
Figured it out 
That you weren’t my centre 
Putting us down 
Was harder than ever 
look at us now 
Doing better than better 
At least we did it right

[VERSE 2: RAP]

Up and down, tides
Been a wild ride
You were always by my side
As a matter of fact, lets. hit. rewind.

Nothin but the wind, and the sun, in my face
and my hands, on your waist, and my eyes, in your gaze
But i know, this place, could never, replace
the number of days, we spent, away (away away)
We would drift off into lover land
The rule of romance and red roses: an upper-hand
Time, and space, were strangers
But the thorns, on a rose, meant danger

Even tho the end, came, calling us, back home
I would say, what we did, was the right call
Doin' the right thing
Picking the right song
Talkin' while i'm listening
Loving me for so long
You were you and i was i
So we tried, to find,
a line, so fine,
Thought i was blind
Lost on, memory lane, i go, insane
but you remain, and i breathe again
We did it right

[BRIDGE] 
You were you 
And i was i 
couldn't work 
Though we tried 
Us and the world 
Thats all we knew of
Takes me right back 
I know we left it 
Quite badly 
Hurt us
Unexpectedly
But the truth of the matter 
Don’t matter who’s better 
At least we did it right

[CHORUS]
Gone are the days 
I had you come over 
Us and the world 
That’s all i remember
Taking it back 
To our adventures
Doing it doing it right 
Yeah yeah yeah 
Figured it out 
That you weren’t my centre 
Putting us down 
Was harder than ever 
look at us now 
Doing better than better 
At least we did it right

do it right | SKY

Nikki is joined with a heavy hitting guest mix from Belfast's very own SIMPY.

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yai hai muhabbatein

i cry my eyes out, i feel inside out (s)
i'm all alone holding my fuckin phone (in)

no one is with me anymore (lo)
life feels like a chore (de)
when is this all over
wanna get to my room, close the door (an)

how do i get out of bed 
when you're stuck in, my head~ 
why should i get up instead
rather be on, my bed~ (la)

wish you and i was thing 
wish i can give you a ring (ph)
wish i can give you a ring (mn)
wash my face up at the sink 

its been a long time since i cried
i wannna fall asleep but you're always on my mind
its been a long time since i cried
i wannna fall asleep but you're always on my mind

i never wanted christmas without you (you~)
i never said goodbye so see you soon (soon~)
dont wanna let it go, i love you (i love you~)
i said i do so come, /love me soon/ (soon~)

i never wanted christmas without you (you~)
i never said goodbye so see you soon (soon~)
dont wanna let it go, i love you (i love you~)
i said i do so come, /love me soon/

woke up, in a haze, oh wait, all a fake
pillow's like a lake
now to clean my face oh wait, cant be late (sc)
now dont need to catch a bus (r)
total mess i'm full of lust

im waitin on you oh oh
im waitin on you

i can't fall asleep
and i dont wanna be awake (in)
all i see's the world's fake
only you and me it's fate

my heart is in your hands
and i dont wanna/gotta ask again
grow old until very the end
and i'll say it again, again, again, again
i do

its been a long time since i cried
i wannna fall asleep but you're always on my mind
its been a long time since i cried
i wannna fall asleep but you're always on my mind

i never wanted christmas without you (you~)
i never said goodbye so see you soon (soon~)
dont wanna let it go, i love you (i love you~)
i said i do so come, /love me soon/ (soon~)

i never wanted christmas without you (you~)
i never said goodbye so see you soon (soon~)
dont wanna let it go, i love you (i love you~)
i said i do so come, /love me soon/

wthoutyou (Prod. IOF)

Special Guests: The Analyst, Jungie and Caeseum

Mystific invited three incredible artists to add their own unique take to the already captivating "I Was Wrong." The Analyst and Jungie, two talented Brazilian producers, bring their experience and passion for the genre to reinvent the track, while Portuguese producer Caeseum adds a special layer of creativity to the international collaboration.

"I Was Wrong": From Jazz and Blues to Heavy Drum and Bass

The original track "I Was Wrong" is known for its innovative fusion of jazz and blues elements with the pulsating energy of drum and bass. The incredible vocals elevate the experience even further, making it a unique masterpiece on the music scene.

This Remix EP takes musical diversity to a new level, featuring versions that range from the subtlety of acoustic to the intensity of heavier drum and bass. Each guest artist left their distinctive mark, creating a collection of remixes that promise to captivate listeners from the first beat to the last note.

Support them: https://bfan.link/i-was-wrong

Mystific - I Was Wrong (Jungie Remix)

You feel so empty the next day, but the texts start coming in.... you found my car WHERE?! Wait, why do I owe you an apology - who are you? But it hurts to think. Then you look at what you posted on YouTube, and it's like, wha?...  So you don't remove it, as a reminder to yourself not to repeat the same mistakes, as if THAT ever works. I have a neighbor who argues with my heater. They communicate in knocking noises. The heater always starts it. I rent, and I'm pretty sure the neighbor figured out it's the heater, so there isn't much I care to do about it. But every time I'm worried I might be going insane, I just talk to one of my friends and family bundle, and then I usually realize I'm still at least somewhat more aware of external stimuli as they are, so that's the main thing that keeps me talking to people. I was blowing dandelion seeds, and my friend asked what I wished for. I said I wished my neighbors' lawns had as many weeds as mine! It's important to have realistic dreams.

here we go again

[$habz : Intro] 
come w me and let's take a ride
we don't gotta go far we can chill outside
feel the breeze and ocean tides
cause i'm reallly drowning in those ocean eyes
come w me and let's take a ride
we don't gotta go far we can chill outside
feel the breeze and the ocean tides
cause i'm really drowning in yo gorgeous eyes
i'm reallly drowning in those gorgeous eyes
i'm reallly drowning in those - (Mmh) 
really drowning in yo gorgeous eyes
reallly drowning in those ocean eyes
got my head up in the sky
in my mind, a different high
got my head up in the sky 
in my mind, a different high

[$habz : Verse 1]
hiii
got me feeling in a different way this a different highhh
say yew love me to but sometimes i think yew lieeeee
if i swim in yo ocean would i drown and would i dieee
would yew come and save me or would yew stand by the sidelines (and cryyy) 
these are the typa answers that i need
before i give yew my heart and let it bleed
cause yewd knock me out, Adonis Creed
trilogy,
we don't listen to their feed
your loves a drug, yeah i need
some of your love, next to me
your love is pain, yeah i weep
but your heart is where i wanna be
don't compare me to these wannabes
I'd beat it up good if we done the deed
treat yew good and treat yew better
than yo ex he shoulda known better
face card never declines
plus yo ass only gettin' fatter
yo ex was outta his mind
hes a joke ting he's full of banter


[Zephyr. : Verse 2]
Wait, why you talking bout her ass my nigga?
Really didn't wanna let you finish that line, had to get past ma nigga 
She gon' put you in a line and you'll fail the test when you get passed ma nigga. 
Crazy how the world is crumbling... Everything's just bout to smash my nigga. 
No hate, no love they just take your hun and she passed around, 
Familiar with how it claps the sound's profound, resoundin'...
Don't believe me? Well just ask around but what am I getting at?
Well lately I been detached, I'm seeing the world how it is and I aint with that, 
And now I can't even rap about beautiful feelings coz everything's turned to ash.

Ocean Tides (Feat. Zepħyr.)

Why wait for someone to love you when maybe they don't have what it takes? You'll waste your life waiting for the people you EXPECT to love you how you love them! FAMILY will do you worse than strangers and that's SAD ASF!  This can cause you to question yourself and ask yourself are you even worthy of love? It have you feeling empty and have lack of confidence for yourself. Apparently you can see I'm comfortable sharing my life experiences as I go through them. Sometimes it don't even matter who listens, as long as I'm being heard!


REALIZE Your Traumas and Learn to Live an Enjoy Life. 
I'm struggling but I'll get there....one day!

wthoutyou (Prod. IOF)

CosmoH