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Gold Country Vol 5

The Sound of Forgiveness

Hurts So Much
Lyrics By: Thomas W. Peterson AKA RedHeart 
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Verse 1:
I've been holding it together with duct tape and pride
Telling everyone I'm fine, but that's a lie
There's a weight upon my chest that won't let go
And I'm tired of pretending that it doesn't show
I've been strong for so damn long, I can't remember when
I last let myself feel everything I'm holding in

Chorus:
It hurts so much, I can barely breathe
This pain is crushing every part of me
I'm standing here with my heart wide open
Every word I say feels like I'm broken
But maybe breaking's what I need to do
To finally tell the truth
God, it hurts so much
Yeah, it hurts so much

Verse 2:
I replay every moment, every word we said
Wondering if I loved you wrong or not enough instead
The silence in this house is screaming at me now
I reach for you at night, but you're not around
And everybody says that time will heal this wound
But they don't know that every minute feels like doom

Chorus:
It hurts so much, I can barely breathe
This pain is crushing every part of me
I'm standing here with my walls torn down
Every tear I cry won't stop falling now
I'm vulnerable and terrified
But I can't keep this locked inside
God, it hurts so much
Yeah, it hurts so much

Bridge:
I'm scared to let you see me like this
Scared you'll think that I'm too weak
But strength is admitting when you're not okay
When your heart's in pieces at your feet
So here I am, I'm falling apart
Take a good look at my shattered heart
This is what it looks like when love dies hard

Verse 3:
I drove by your place last night at 2 AM
Picked up my phone a hundred times, then put it down again
I want to tell you everything I never said
How losing you feels like dying, but I'm not dead
Just stuck somewhere between moving on and holding tight
To a memory of us that keeps me up at night

Final Chorus:
It hurts so much, I'm on my knees
Begging God to take this pain from me
I'm standing here completely exposed
With nothing left but the truth I've told
I'm vulnerable, I'm terrified, I'm breaking down
But maybe that's the only way I'll turn around
God, it hurts so much
To love someone this much
Yeah, it hurts so much

Outro:
It hurts to breathe, it hurts to stay
It hurts to watch you walk away
It hurts to hold on, hurts to let go
It hurts more than you'll ever know
But I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
At least I'm feeling something
Even if it hurts so much
God, it hurts so much


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