END OF EXISTENCE

-Verse One-
Alone.
In my head.
There’s so much about me that I haven’t said.
The unknown.
It’s a gift.
I gave you everything, but what did you give?
Not a damn, not a fuck about me.
I’m becoming what you never allowed me to be.
And my head is a dark and dangerous place.
And you left me behind as it started to race.
-Pre Chorus-
Pretending I’m alright.
It just isn’t right.
-Chorus-
But I won’t make.
Another mistake.
Like I did before.
My heart is just something that can’t be restored.
I’m tired of trying, I’ll just get ignored.
Was I just a pawn on your chess board?
-Verse Two-
Go.
Leave me be.
You shut me out as I was down on my knees.
No.
This can’t be right.
I looked at you with love, you looked at me with hateful eyes.
-Chorus-
But I won’t make.
Another mistake.
Like I did before.
My heart is just something that can’t be restored.
I’m tired of trying, I’ll just get ignored.
Was I just a pawn on your chess board?
Forget I floored it.
Praying I will find a way out.
The thoughts in my head just keep me weighed way down.
I hope I’ll get out, I wish I could escape now.
But I’m about to fucking break down.
-Bridge-
But you can find me underneath of the surface.
There’s no point in my life, my God, I’m so worthless.
And if there is one, what’s the point, what’s the purpose?
I’m thinking about giving up cause it’s worth it.
But you can't even see the damage you’ve dealt me.
And when I was down, you were not there to help me.
I’m bleeding from my arms, I know it’s unhealthy.
And it’s getting harder to breathe, my heart’s heavy.
-Reprise-
Alone.
In my head.
Theres so much about me that I haven’t said.
-Chorus-
But I won’t make.
Another mistake.
Like I did before.
My heart is just something that can’t be restored.
I’m tired of trying, I’ll just get ignored.
Was I just a pawn on your chess board?
Forget I floored it.
Praying I will find a way out.
The thoughts in my head just keep me weighed way down.
I hope I’ll get out, I wish I could escape now.
But I’m about to fucking break down.
-End-

Chess Board

A Walk Through Hell

-Intro-
Oh!
-Verse One-
You made me suffer for the last fucking time!
Now I am in a place where all dreams and hopes die!
Escalating a mountain of hate!
I can’t bring myself to look you straight in your face!
-Pre Chorus-
This isn’t the life that I wanted to know!
So now, my face will never show!
I can’t control the demon inside!
But I’m ready to break away and decide!
My mind is filled with toxic thoughts!
A nightmare, I was always brought!
So now, I’m climbing to the top!
To make the demons in my head stop!
-Chorus-
Bringing me down!
If I try to shut it out, will it even make a difference?
Or will they still be too loud?
I’m fighting against all my aggression!
To hold back the demon in my presence!
-Verse Two-
Break!
Away!
If I hold back now, would it take over me?
Stare!
Into the abyss!
This pain is a feeling that I’ll never miss!
-Pre Chorus-
This isn’t the life that I wanted to know!
So now, my face will never show!
I can’t control the demon inside!
But I’m ready to break away and decide!
-Chorus-
Bringing me down!
If I try to shut it out, will it even make a difference?
Or will they still be too loud?
I’m fighting against all my aggression!
To hold back the demon in my presence!
-Outro-
I can try to give my heart away!
But it won’t be any good for me!
I can try to give my life away!
But it won’t be any good for me!
I can try to give my soul away!
But it won’t be any good for me!
-End-

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