this style grew on me so much its crazy. literally no mater what style you do its always amazing

production+guitars by me & @oakscreen
feat. @heavenindaclouds

why am i so annoying
toxic all the time like i'm poison 
talk down n his corpse will be floating
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 
why does everyone ignore meh
same thing every day its so boring 
idgaf i'm still hoping
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping  

toxic all the time like im poison 

ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 

and im pacin around my room 
cuz i dont kno wat to do
n i thought u were my friend
and u said u loved me 2
i guess true love isn't true
oh my god what should i do
gonna throw up on my shoes (x2)

@heavenindaclouds :
see you staring in the glass with a mean face
i can't see shit i cant see straight now
yea you talkin love we gon' be late now
that's a mistake
i been dealin with shit since i was young 
i'm just tryna have some fun
you could take all this shit back without a gun
you ain't the only one
said you wanted love 
want it all 
but you didn't wanna make a friend 
not at all
you said you taught me lessons taught me more 
i don't really think i get the message anymore
cause ive been thinkin bout love 
is it me or is it trust (x2)
~~
big thank you to oakscreen

stream

coping w/ heavn

حبار
presave link: https://t.co/zcilna2wz3
SPOTIFY!!!! https://open.spotify.com/track/6P113H5hoHNycRRxaFsMRK?si=1EmmqW-QSk2yovh_JwysEA
i didnt name this after squid game lol
wanted to name a song squid for like 3 months
sorry for the wait if u care haha
everything by me

ur not my buddy
my nose is bloody
stakes raised like someone is conducting
like a freight train u know i keep chugging
reflection polluted its murky and mucky
bobbing my head up
punching and ducking
the way that its set up
im feeling quite lucky
spent like 3 years on a pipe dream
idc if u dont like me

it's all bruised up its unsightly
stretch their hands out
then they bite me
gon be a man down if they try me
they better stay back for the time being
they stay on weird timing
if they dont care then theyre lying
gonna go nowhere with all that crying
sum days feel like -

chorus:
we might dance around n die
leave a msg in the sky
n ion even know why im standing here
how u feel u made it clear
wish i made it it outta here
x2

corny ass verse: 
right now they wanna talk down
breeze past them like a top down
u assume the worst what is that abt?
idk why ur talking now
idk why ur talking now

time is running its course
im beaten down to the core
i hate the sound of my voice
wish i could rip

too corny so censored

they stay on weird timing
if they dont care then theyre lying
gonna go nowhere with all that crying
sum days feel like -

chorus:
we might dance around n die
leave a msg in the sky
n ion even know why im standing here
how u feel u made it clear
wish i made it it outta here
x2

lyrics for funny song :)

squid

prod me x brayam

LYRICS
now im goin insane
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
now im goin insane 
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain

feel like i burn through competition 
cant deal with none of your bullshit i need a minute
i feel like im bleeding out someone call the medic
i found an easy out tryna get invested
and now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
stuck in the dark too long i cant find my way
struggle with this shit everyday thats why i have migraines
you told me the thought counts
but all its doing is giving me headaches

oooouu its givin me migraines
ooouuu think i need a advil
ooouuu i can never act chill
better watch what you say about me

bury my thoughts away 
anything except for thinkin bout yesterday
you dont wanna feel my pain 
and i can barely feel my face
right now its all too real
why'd you have to teach me a lesson that i never wanted to learn
it gets worse
headaches everyday i cant tell you how bad it hurts
thought i was lost before now there is no tellin
if ill ever be the same
i just wanna see the breath come out your face
people told me to forgive you sooner
now im sittin here lookin like a loser 
im sorry if i end up seeing you sooner on the other side

Spotify

headaches*

https://soundcloud.com/kurtains/ocelot
https://soundcloud.com/kurtains

kurtains - axel ocelot [lone ! flip]

i keep making the same damn song
ride around drunk till my wheels fall off again
i see you
i wanted to be you
but u couldnt care less

see its one of the pros of the sidelines
its always wrong place at the wrong time
eyesight gone by midnight
but im bleeding out quick till sun rise

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

its one damn thing to say that i miss it, real shit
i could never stand to visit
cause i always got drunk
never check my phone cause im too fucked up

i said baby do u trust me
and she said i would rather kill myself
am i disgusting?
or is it hard to fucking heal myself

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

watch me break

SPOTIFY

watch me break (yungspoiler)

pretty different! had fun making this, was super tired tho and it kinda sounds like it lol

everything by me

lyrics:
I'm going down with the ship
under the water where by body belongs
I see myself in you
watching my skin turn blue

cry me an ocean of tears and I'll drown in it
losing myself to the fear and I'll go down with it
looking out over the pier what a beautiful place

never thought that I'd end up here
seems my heart likes keeping me scared
i can't help but think about it
the way we left things was so fucked, no way around it
I just need a reason
I can't be there for you
waking me up with birds and stars
winter's so cold but it warms my heart, my heart
never thought that I'd end up here
seems my heart likes keeping me scared
i can't help but think about it
the way we left things was so fucked, no way around it
I just need a reason
I can't be there for you
waking me up with birds and stars
winter's so cold but warms my heart, my heart

if everything stopped now
while falling from the benjamin I'd
hold time in my hands, but like sand,
it'll slip right through my fingers again

oh lord take my soul
as I touch the delaware
save me, please save me

never thought that I'd end up here
seems my heart likes keeping me scared
i can't help but think about
the way we left things was so fucked, no way around it
I just need a reason
I can't be there for you
waking me up with birds and stars
winter's so cold but it warms my heart, my heart
never thought that I'd end up here
seems my heart likes keeping me scared
i cant help but think about it
the way we left things was so fucked, no way around it
I just need a reason
I can't be there for you
waking me up with birds and stars
winter's so cold but it warms my heart, my heart

oh lord take my soul
as I touch the delaware
save me

delaware

buy on bandcamp :)

☆

prod and mix by @traxee 

BEATSCAPE: https://youtu.be/jIFm2VkaaQ8 

Get the elevator on the wrong floor I didnt press it right
Office job is kinda lame still stuck in the past
I wanna try a different way
Pet projects and cases that they throw away
Trash it and go back to grey

safe in the dark town
oddly unironic
and at least i can walk unafraid
if i believe things will be alright
Pillows on my bed
shove em all to the ground
and tryna feel less alone
by turning on the tv
open your diary
what did u write about me
ink lit up from the screen
the brightest show and tell
yea

Little glow in the dark
Ceiling with the stick on stars
its like the world is ours
when its not really at all
See how its all gonna play out
Still Trying not to fade out
Stick with me on the days
That aren’t easy at all

i confuse myself, help
i could use some self help
never know what to do
So I must be selfish too
leave it all on the line
trust itll all end up fine
leave it all on the line
Its why i look to you

and then I'm back to the real world
and i'm working 9 to 7s
wasting my freakin life
without learning any lessons 
realitys so numbing
Step one and then come through
I think i'll feel better if we talk 
in circles like we do

i got u using my slang
the words we say are the same
makes me believe in something
i used to think was insane

Ima watch it all unfurl
They make it seem so easy to fall
but i know i'd get picked up
even if it takes a while

Off the elevator on the wrong floor i didnt press it right
Office job is kinda lame but its not gonna last
i wanna try a different way
feeling out the phases
they say
go away 
always make it out okay

ultrabeat sound of my 18 (p. traxee)

all instrumentation by me!
JUST STAY!!

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

so you think you'll waste your time?
well let me prove you right
i still need a reason why i think i should be alive
sent a message to myself, read it when im 35
the only question that i asked, if im gonna be alright
will this music shit survive, am i really living life?
i just turned 19 i just did my first show
im still debating on quittin this shits got me feeling low
but it still make me happy thats what im doin it for

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too quick someone should stop him

(awesome epic lead solo)

so how am i supposed to tell you you're wrong
how do you get so worked up over some little song?
and now that I am older, I'm still the same sloan
enjoy what you have right now, cuz you know it'll be gone

someone tell me where the time is at cuz im really tryna hit the sack
someone tell me where the moneys at, im tryna give it right back to mac
im really tryna this shit out of my system
you sayin that you love him you might as well kiss himmm
dont ask me for a reason why, i'm gon list em
don't ask me if i'm doin fine, there's no wisdom

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

what's the point if it all means nothing?

life is like an automation clip

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inhale your toxins i don't want to
(want to go)
why can't i make what i want to
(want to know!)
i think i found the answer i needed
(what i needed!)
all i need to do is say how i'm feeling
and i sayyy
like what the fuck is going onnn
(going on!)
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy
like what the fuck is going onnn
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy

for another dayy

covering my ears like la la la
i don't want to hear you talk if its bad news
you should talk to me cause i'm just like you
i don't even know how i keep going on
cause it keeps piling up
keeps piling up
doing nothing as i fall asleep
i don't wanna go back
(i don't wanna go back)
cause it's honestly just too much for me
inhale your toxins i don't, want to
(want to go!)
why can't i make what i want to
(want to know!!)
i think i found the answer i needed
(what i needed!)
all i need to do is say how i'm feeling
and and i sayy
like what the fuck is going onnn
(going on!)
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy
like what the fuck is going onn
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy

what i needed

prod. by myself

i spilled my guts all over the floor
im throwing up what id hold in before
swear we expired now we gotta throw it all out
every well i try to wish in i just fall down

im stuck here tryna pick up pieces of what's left of the truth
dont try to tell me that you think my life was better with you
turn of the tv i cant stand to see your face or ill lose it
ill let it consume me

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
im looking back ur tearing up
about the fact that we are done

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

throwing up

i miss u
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7KZm0nQJ0zlNnutRrh10du?si=61aZH4OLS_mrmPIrY87wmw&utm_source=copy-link

lyrics:

and just this summer
i realized
whats the point of crying
when u never want
to come back

these photos, these words, these messages i read
the bracelet i got, and the money i spent
is something ill never forget

oh u never realized the things that i did
neither tried to make me feel okay when i did
everything
you asked me for

i cant go outside or think about something else
when ur on my mind
girl u took away my heart
crushed it with ur hands
and made things worse

the time i consumed into writing these texts,
the things that i did,
even planned all those things,
for u
just to always say no
or planned on leaving after
i expressed my feelings

(its okay i still think that u are the best
ill never get over this
never forget
how i felt
when u were there
my love for u girl its crazy how its there)

i tried i tried
im sitting in my room once again
and i cry
u made me who i am but i hate all of it,
all these songs that i wrote for u theyre still there
and im weak
and i hate
but i love the way u act
even if u dont care
im scared of the future cus u are not here
the love of my life disappeared like u were
never there

the past 8 months i tried
to make u realize
i never tried to hurt u

i know u werent happy
but its okay my dear
ur better now
and aslong as ur here
im fine with that
cus my life is nothing without u

and just this summer
i realized
this was the best time of my
life with u being mine
the love that i sent
and the one u gave back
is something ill
never try to hide again
cus why should i leave it all behind
i never got to hold onto ur hands
or get a taste of ur lips once again
before u left
what happened to the part where u said
we'd both grow old together
and get a bunch of cats
live a happy life

delaware

ravine

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