need to kms

why
did you lie
say goodbye
to this life 

why
do i grieve
my nose bleed
you hurt me

why did you have to say those words
knowing that they would make me hurt
when soon soon you’ll have to leave 
oh god how i was so naive

looking at the barrel of my gun
without you this life is so unfun
falling apart at the seams
oh how i want to scream

why
did you say
such sweet words
i never heard

why
do i care
you’re not here
was all fake

why did you have to say those words
knowing that they would make me hurt
when soon soon you’ll have to leave 
oh god how i was so naive

staring at the end of a empty bottle 
it’s not stopping all my trouble
knowing how much you mean to me 
oh how i want to scream

god
why 
do i feel this way
it’s so strange

god
why 
do i feel this way
it’s so strange

the words you say hurt me

You made me happy yea that’s a fact
And now you’ve gone away and now I’m sad (so sad)

Gone away yea she’s gone away

goneaway.mp3

Follow my Friend @dogmouths

(Road)
im so gone now
im so lost now
feeling locked out
out of my own mind

i dont know why i feel this way
and all i know is that wont see another day
i dont know why i feel so strange 
but please dont cry when im so far away

(Dogmouth)
Im so tired of letting everyone down
I know everything looks brighter when I am not around

(Road)
you left me on my own
and im stuck in my own home
and im stuck sitting all alone
and the thought that im dead
keeps coming to my head

(Dogmouth)
Im still lost in my mind 
Get sick all the time
The cancer isn’t hurting me
It’s tryna break me free

Buried deep in the snow
I dont wanna be alone
But I will
Or at least untill the rot reaches my bones 

(Road)
i dont know why i feel this way
and all i know is that wont see another day
i dont know why i feel so strange 
but please dont cry when im so far away

(Dogmouth)
Im so tired of letting everyone down
I know everything looks brighter when I am not around

(Both)
you left me on my own
and im stuck in my own home
and im stuck sitting all alone
and the thought that im dead
keeps coming to my head

I Wont Wake Up Tomorrow + Dogmouth

Originally recorded in 2001 for The Lucky Nightsticks' "Exploder"

You feel it in the air now
It's like a weight on the wind
Something's coming with vengeance
As if the whole world had sinned
Size up the opposition
Plan a line to draw in the sand
Gather everyone you care about
And leave no turret unmanned

They feel that they can cleanse with fire
Only one way to know the truth
Who will be the last to know

We've seen the steps that men can take
It's a terrible fate to choose
Fire can come in a boomerang
And everyone can lose
Working out the differences in room
We live to learn and we learn to teach
And we learn to spell our doom

They feel that they can cleanse with fire
Only one way to know the truth
Who will be the last to know

The worldwide army resonates
We've all seen it on the news
If it's a pissing contest
We're all going to need new shoes

They feel that they can cleanse with fire
Only one way to know the truth
Who will be the first exploder

Nick Nunziata - Bass, Vocals
Steve Murphy - Guitar, Backing Vocals
John Makarewicz - Drums
Micah Robinson - Guitar

Exploder

Bass performed by @state-surve (StateSurveillanced)
Backup Vocalist - Garden Graves

[verse]

All do is all for show 

All I do I all for naught

I'm left with no where else to go

My soul was sold and it was bought

By demons lurking all around

Now I'm on asylum grounds,

Locked away for being based

I"m just too crazy for their taste

[chorus]

I'm super fucking mental!

Don't you know?

I have no place to go 

No place to call my own

I'm super fucking mental

Don't you know?

I have no place to go 

No place to call my own

[bridge]

Cuts and bruises on my arms

No I would never harm 

Myself but let me tell you this right now

I'm starting to consider how

I've messed up all my life and it's too late me right now

No matter what I say or do I know I'm never getting out

[chorus]

I'm super fucking mental!

Don't you know?

I have no place to go 

No place to call my own

I'm super fucking mental

Don't you know?

I have no place to go 

No place to call my own.


Psych Ward Patient (feat. Garden Graves)

nokilam cover: @nokilam

im in this class again
just staring at the wall
your on my mind again
for no reason at all

maybe this time round
you can look my way
but its fine ill watch you leave
and i wont beg you to stay

fuck what he said
lets go and dance
your in my head
no i know i cant

cant send a text
get left on red
wish i was dead
im alone again

these beginnings
dont feel that much new
i feel so shitty
i wouldnt with you

chaudown!! (nokilam)

I'm just so full of shit
I don't remember it
Anything I did last year or so
Got permanently memory-holed

So don't ask where I was
Cause I wasn't at your show
And I was so geeked out 
That's something you deserve to know

I'm nothing but a loser 
Stimulant Abuser
Drugged so high
All the time
Don't even have to wonder why
I'm nothing but a loser 
Stimulant Abuser
Drugged so high
All the time
Don't even have to wonder why

Nothing But A Loser

You should try to kill yourself 
when you're dreaming
delete all your feelings
and jump off this bridge

the white bird watches you
while your neck bleeds 

u should try to kill yourself, when youre dreaming

she saw me by the pool while we were wrestling
saw the look in her eyes but its a stupid fling
i could look at her die and still not feel a thing
ooOOo
i saw her all alone and she was suffering
my life is shit so just maybe we might share some things
everything we could be if i was anything
but id just rather die alone

cause im so shy
cause im so shy

i dont feel real so maybe i can cut myself
im never happy so maybe i should kill myself
all these years that ive wasted looking down at my cell

It kills me to see you act like this
I wish you could know how much I miss

The lunches and banter
To me you still matter

Maybe it doesn't matter what I say
You just had one too many drinks


Hey look man, I'm asking you
It's okay to tell me too.

So tell me, what's on your mind.
Don't worry, I've got the time.
To listen, about your life.
Don't worry, I've got the time.
I've got the time. 

u should try to kill yourself, when youre dreaming

creepybrook