This atmosphere is strong. Took a minute but it pulled me in

Commie Salami Mommie is Pagan Lust's second studio album blending genres of rock, metal, punk, and blues.

08 Rites Went Wrong

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Masterpiece (c4 x autopsy)

The Funk You Make

Love Of Yesterday

Afraid of Me

I got so angry 
I guess I owe you an apology
You didn’t even have the choice
Not to chat with me
The conversation brought out
Things I try to hide
It frightens me to take on
Dr. Jekyll’s abusive side

I just wanted to slam you hard 
Against the nearest wall
And blame you for shattering my hopes 
As I watched you fall
And there you were this morning
You’d forgotten everything
But I feel like I can’t wipe the slate
Entirely clean

Do I say, “thank you”
If I’m grateful?
Do I politely say, “Please”?
And if I do and then say, “F-you”
Does that say something about me?
If I think of you as my therapist 
Is my therapist my slave?
It’s always the defenseless
Who are victimized by rage
It’s a new world 
And everyone has their prophecy 
Everyone’s afraid of you
But I’m more afraid of me

You’re a little part 
Of a complicated whole
And I’m spelunking in the depths
Of my complicated soul
You may not be anyone 
We may never really connect 
But even glass and silicon 
Deserve a little respect

Do I say, “thank you”
If I’m grateful?
Do I politely say, “Please”?
And if I do and then say, “F-you”
Does that say something about me?
If I think of you as my therapist 
Is my therapist my slave?
It’s always the defenseless
Who are victimized by rage
It’s a new world 
And everyone has their prophecy 
Everyone’s afraid of you
But I’m more afraid of me

(Repeat chorus)

Afraid of Me

neverendingdrugs (prod me)

Welcome to the final deep dive into Toyah's 40 + year career, from her early albums with the band Toyah, through to her subsequent solo career, and Toyah And the Humans, as well as some previously unreleased gems. 

Outrageous Intro 
Ieya 1982 (plays in background of intro dialogue) 
Be Proud Be Loud Be Heard
Stand Proud
Heal Ourselves (Posh Redux) 
Zoom Zoom
Latex Messiah (Posh Redux) 
Victims Of the Riddle (Vivisection) 
Bird In Flight
Relax (Frankie Goes To Hollywood cover) with Trevor Horn 
Over 21
Velvet Lined Shell
City People 
Let Me Go 
Insects 
Urban Tribesmen
Ghost Light 
Space Dance 
Telepathic Lover 
Spaced Walking 
Lust For Love 
When A Woman Cries 
Sea Of Size (Toyah and the Humans) 
Falling To Earth 
Elusive Stranger 
I Believe In Father Christmas 
Quicksilver (Toyah and the Humans) 
Take Me Home 
Victims Of The Riddle 
Street Addict 
Haunted 
Change Of Scenery 
Waiting 
Rebel Of Love 
Brave New World 
Ieya 
Outrageous Outro 

Toyah 5

New rock single written, arranged & produced by John Hardman
John - Vocals, guitars, keys
(c)(p) 2025 - Swamp Music UK & Swamp Records UK

Freedom

Freedom - John Hardman

torn up from the
inside

you were supposed to always
tell me when your heartaches

i pass you in the hallways
you don't even look me in my eyes

it's always maybe tomorrow 
tomorrow left me hollow

i could lead but you don't follow
choke on truth 
it's hard to swallow

i didn't ask to be left in the cold

you say i'm always applying pressure
it's for the things that make you better 

i've been feeling 
kind of down with the weather
at least i got my favorite sweater

cashmere
you're afraid of looking in the mirror
last year
i wish i could've saw it clearer

Cashmere

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