I  Hate You, Don't Leave Me is an original composition about Borderline Personality Disorder and the thoughts that go through their mind. It's an interesting song, as Csillo Alexandra wanted to illustrate the struggle while having some faith in it. She decided to take inspiration from Demi Lovato's song as she explores this as well.
lyrics
I feel like I'm falling through space,
No one to catch me, I'm losing my place,
One minute I love you, the next it's a fight,
I can't control it, can't make it right.

Pushing you close, then pushing away,
I need you to stay, can't make you stay,
A heart that's broke, still beating fast,
Caught in a moment, that I know won't last.

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

I see you walking, I'm pulling you near,
Then in a heartbeat, I'm drowning in fear.
My heads a hurricane, spinning around,
One day I'm floating, the next I'm going down.

Loving you's like, chasing a ghost
I'm afraid of the things, that I want the most
I push to protect, what I don't want to lose
Caught in the battle, I never got to choose

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

Can't trust my own mind, it's a prison, a lie,
I need you to love me, just don't ask me why,
I'm fire and rain, I'm love and I'm pain,
I swear I'll get better, just don't walk away.

I hate you, don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, you're all I've got,
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me.

I hate you don't leave me, I'm scared to be free,
I love you; I need you, I don't want to leave,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm afraid to be me,
I love you; I need you, please don't leave me.

Please don't leave me.

I Hate You Don't Leave Me

Eclipsed is my original composition written for an independent film based off of Enders Game. Sadly, the film did not take off but the music I got to keep! :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Eclipsed (The Cinematic Version)

Western is an original movie soundtrack that I wrote for an independent film. The music was used for the trailer. It is in the style of a spaghetti western. Very fun project!

Western (The Cinematic Version)

Tidal Wave is the first song I ever fully produced on a MacBook air from 2014. I wanted to write a song that sounded like Florence and Machine's Queen of Peace, so this is what I came up with :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Tidal Wave (The Soundtrack Version)

Sacrifice is a mistake original. I didn't know when recording the audio (first time recording a real piano) the reverb was turned all the way up. It created this affect to it and I think it came out really cool!

Sacrifice (The Piano Version)

A Mask on the Outside is a track about autism and having to mask.

A Mask on the Outside

control

I Mask on the Outside is an #autismawareness and #mentalhealth song about masking in order to cope.

I Mask on the Outside (The Mastered Version)

Control (The Mastered Version)

FairyTale (The Mastered Version)

Dedicated to my grandmother who passed away a year ago.

I Love You More

Title: True Colors
Verse 1 Today the weight came crashing down Sad songs playing, I’m just spinning around You showed your face without disguise Laughed when I stood and met your eyes Called me a liar, manipulative, cold From you, it cut deeper than gold I thought you were someone I could trust But glass can shatter with just one touch
Chorus If I told you everything I’ve been holding inside Would you hear my voice, or just let it die? Like the song on repeat, I’m fading away End of the story, nothing left to say True colors bleed when the lights go down Guess I’m better off without you now
Verse 2 I knew your anger would rise like flame No matter the truth, you’d play the same game But still I hoped you’d see the lie See I was only on your side Now you’re tangled in someone’s disguise I can’t save you, I can’t try I was right to build my walls And I’m glad I walked out of it all
Chorus If I told you everything I’ve been holding inside Would you hear my voice, or just let it die? Like the song on repeat, I’m fading away End of the story, nothing left to say True colors bleed when the lights go down Guess I’m better off without you now

True Colors

In Between is one of my most powerful instrumentals I wrote. It's about being stuck in the in between and finding what you are truly destined for. 

In Between (The Instrumental Version)

Shadows of the Night is a very dark cinematic piece I wrote about 8 months ago. While it originally was a lyrical piece, I have found that the emotion is better left without words. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I had writing it. 

Shadows of the Night (The Cinematic Version)

Hope the Cinematic Version is a movie score all about needing to find hope and finding the light in the darkest of times. I hope you enjoy. 

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I am a singer-songwriter who loves creating music that is impactful and has a deeper meaning

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