uploading the instrumental because im an insecure little freak and people might not wanna hear my voice... or maybe just appreciate all the work that went into the track or something REASONABLE like that

fix me!! (instrumental)

A song about getting so overwhelmed at a loud ass party/concert/rave to the point you want to cut your fucking ears off. Was originally gonna have lyrics but I figured out that they wouldn't work well...

DEAFEN

A story about a horror 
A double column eyesore
A damaged good as pictured 
Store-bought, glad you picked her, with 
the gift left on your doorstep
rewarding you, infected
Invisible, you think that 
Until you start seeing it

When you met last night
You put her to bed 
It stole your sight 
And fed her regret
And every time
You’re left looking down 
And if it’s bright
You turn her around 

Oh

A story about a horror 
A double column eyesore
A damaged good as pictured 
Store-bought, glad you picked her, with the nowhere where it comes from
Was that there yesterday?
… there’s no explaining 
Be what you want she’s failing 

When you met last night
You put her to bed 
It stole your sight
And fed her regret
And every time
You’re left looking down 
And if it’s bright
You turn her around 

(You saw me in my bedroom, ••• and ••• scattered on the •••. ••• the spaces in between •••. I had lied that •••, so why won’t you say •••?)

She found you late last night
You took her to bed 
It burned your eyes 
A thing she regrets 
Her God hates it 
You say it’s okay
But you feel sick
You’re running away

eyesore

visualizer: https://youtu.be/3KLhgNfb1Ng

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World Explodes Behind U

a song about falling through the walls of the house you live in


(hey)
(not real)
(i can't see)
(can't escape)

i can't escape
i'm buried in the grain
a ghost in a cage 
gone without a trace
i can't say i've won
i'll never understand
i didn't bleed enough
i don't know where i am
two-faced mask
it's the the way that i feel
your voice is in my head telling me im not real
i can't say i've woni'll never understandi didn't bleed enoughi don't know where i am
again, again
i don't know where iam
can't recognize the faces in the palms of my hands

Looking in the mirror for the real me
Looking in your eyes you see mine bleeding
Shifting spilling out like a fever dream
It closes like a door and you forget me

Floating in a sky below a basement
I'm feeling an emotion, I can't name it
Tearing, ripping, through all your faces
Games I'm playing feeding off my sapience
Never have I thought "I'm gonna miss you"
I'll never want you dead, I want a breakthrough
I wanna fix my body, yea there's that too
I wanna find a method to forget you
Looking in the mirror for the real meLooking in your eyes you see mine bleedingShifting spilling out like a fever dreamIt closes like a door and you forget me

out of bounds

Originally released June 28th, 2023

Credit to my good friend Max for the amazing cover art!

A-side samples:
Say It Ain't So - Weezer
Amen, Brother - The Winstons
Hacker - Death Grips
Cumbia De Sal - Cumbias En Moog
Bocchi The Rock!
Zombies On Your Lawn - Laura Shigihara

B-side samples:
Myself but not telling which song >:3c
Ink Me Up - Splatoon
Naomi Y. - Dog Noise Sample Pack
Shayy
Nocture Op. 9 No. 2 - Chopin

Flowers For Beijing （北京花）

Lyrics:
Maybe one day
I'll be there
Maybe one day
I'll see it

One day
I'll find peace
Maybe one day
I'll find you there

Maybe one day
It's so far
Maybe one day
You'll see me

One day
I'll find peace
Maybe one day
But not today

Don't know what to do, I guess I'll move a little closer to your
Body, warm oasis, but it can't ever be warmer than my
Stomach, or the pit inside it, open up and tear away my
Arrogance, my everything, I'm guilty and I confess but I


Originally released August 13, 2024

Maybe One Day

A slow and fast song I made about a house burning down and someone who will never exist

(Oh my goodness, thanks for coming!)

Sometimes I ask, are my memories straight?
I’ve been confused since the day I went away
I know that time has passed, but has it passed today?
I’m here with you anyway

I watch you fade into the smoke 
If you’ll recover, I’ll never know 
I want to see you smiling on the other side
But you think you’re buried alive 

And I know what you wanna say
“We’re a family of addicts”
That’s how it goes
Ugh, that’s so like you
It’s all a joke to you
It’s all a fucking joke

Ugh
1, 2, 3, 4
You slam the gas, the rain shines in the sky
We can’t breathe til the fire finally dies
Watching streetlights pass,
I’m glad I’m free, for now 
Your house continues burning down

And as we drive your eyes are wide
(You’re asleep at the wheel, that’s how it seems)
I think of times I was by your side 
(I remember their memory like a dream)
You burn away and start again,
(You’re not the one who dropped the match)
Though, there is nothing below your skin anymore, no
(So please, just don’t forget)

(Good night!)

for a friend i'll never meet

me if i was a 30min mix of songs i like

i am a person(?) who likes making stuff here is my music

World Explodes Behind U

JNPR STYX