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wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

pretty girls (numb)

It’s been a while so something a little more punky for y’all 

Shoutout gaxillic for the amazing beat <3

Love y’all aie🤎


Lyrics:

Splints in my fingertips 
Knee grazed like every other kid
My curiosity has consequences where do I begin
I snuck in your house hit the step and slipped
Woke up your dad and he got pissed
Now I’m playing mr kiss up so I can see you again
If he will let me

I can’t see the trouble I had caused yea
I scared them fair enough 
I was took home in a police escort these entrances suck
You texted me like that was so hot
Kinda bummed out I said thanks a lot 
I’m on house arrest for a whole month

I walked in and your dog started barking at me
Like what do I do and leave me be 
just give it a rest please 
And I don’t wanna wake up your dad
But everything’s loud in your house
He’s not so sleeping beauty now 
In the back of the cop crying nonstop 
Can you let me go

Splints (gaxillic)

We can never restart…

Check out notcursed she’s amazing <3

Lyrics:

AutumnIsEnding (Lovell)
I said if you won’t say it then I’ll save you the way
I really think we need space I’ll go back to my place 
You can tell my mom that we’re okay 
In truth we’ll never speak again and I can do it til we’re like that 
You know how much you meant to her 
But you’re both crying as your bags packed 
And oh the impact you leave as you turn for the front door 
And take your ass back home 

We can never restart you’ve already gone 
The bags all packed in the back of the cab 
And you’re not looking back 
And my mom wants to catch you up 
But you’re not slowing down and now 
I gotta pick up all of the pieces 
Of my own heart as well as my moms 
Cus she loved for what and you gave us up
Due to stress related reasons 

AutumnIsEnding (madison)
You know how much she adored you 
She treat you like a daughter too 
The downfall of falling in love too soon
And you let your true colours show 
And it wasn’t a pretty sight 
It’s awful uncalled for 
I fell out of love with your pretty eyes 
Goodbye goodbye goodbye 
I hope you find the right one in time 

Notcursed 
I'm sorry that i made a mess of this 
I thought i’d be back
To pick up the pieces i left in your home
Didn’t want it to end like that
But you’re hard to let go of
And i wish i did it better than this 
I know it’s not a lot for you to ask
I regret all my choices 
And now when i look back
I see i hurt more people that that
I thought i was better than this

Ok abandon us w/notcursed (kingtheta)

A little seasonal track hope you all enjoy AIE <3￼

Lyrics:

It’s a colder day than any Wisconsin wasn’t ready and Octobers never been so dull 
And we’re at home Swiss miss at the ready bored out my mind yea I said it we got nothing to do 
So I suggest halloweens soon there lets pick our pumpkins up yea you said 
You jumped out the chair sat in the car waiting before i even left 
Heatings on you’re all prepared hurry Lovell 2 beeps I scram
Turn the key took a right then left out the suburban street cul-de-sac 
On the gas til the tank went red it’s on E but we made it there 
Unbothered anyway plodding through the mud in my wellies 
Fell flat on my face you laugh like we’re in for a good day 
Ha ha ha ha ha ha you couldn’t let it go 
Please bae cut me some slack I’m feeling miserable 

Chorus 
Ohh harvest fest we’re here for it 
Your pumpkins mine now were bickering 
Last of the patch were not fast enough 
And your pumpkins not a ball and mine looks kinda crushed 
Oh well oh well no one else to blame but us 
Sadder spells you don’t talk all on the way home 
Maybe next year maybe next year we can get a better one 

Ohhh October soon crept up behind me 
And now I’m really stressed out
I’m panicking so slightly 
My girlfriend wants a pumpkin is it too late it might be 
We hopped in the car 
Keeping our fingers crossed at all times 
We didn’t get far 
If you think your pumpkins bad well just look at mine 
it’s okay it’s totally fine 
You can cuddle up to me watching movies all night 
I got the horror films tell me what you like 
Conjuring 2 that sounds good alright 
American horror story’s kinda boring id rather watch something scary 
That’s why I let you pick and pick you did 
The conjuring kinda scares me 
But here comes the scary part 
I’m climbing under your arms 
You think it’s cute but call me a bitch
Yea that’s me so what

Harvest Fest (saint mike)

Holding your hand by the reservoir….

Lyrics:

Holding your hand by the reservoir 
admiring just how pretty you are 
Even your eyes your nose your hair your lips your head to your toes
I want it all
I can’t get enough
I float away when I feel your touch is this what they call love


I ran into the reservoir after the dog and i got wet
But it was worth it to see you smile I’d do it again 
Then I got lost in your hazel iris
Sunlight tied around your hair
And the butterflies in my stomach never left 
It’s so new to me when you hold my hand I don’t know how to act
Sweating uncontrollably when I call you beautiful I stare at the grass

holding your hand by the reservoir (cobalt)

for j<3

it’s been hard for me to be who i am
i got roots as my feet
telling me where to stand 

and part of me wants thinks it’s all just a plan
with the man up above got me in his hands

it’s been hard for me to build myself back up
play the part for me until all the lucks up
you saw the side of me that nobody could and
now ur calling me 
i wish that you wouodnt


now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed
and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard
but baby im losing control
break and i bend
how did it end?
thought we would make it farther
i never sent all of the texts and it only makes it harder
won’t let you see that part of me it’s all in my brain
and it’s been hard for me to feel cuz i just been so deranged
oh oh oh we gotta get better

 you saw the side of me that nobody else did and
now you’re calling me i wish that you wouldn’t
and now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard but baby im losing control

departed

prod acey
@notcursed :p

(ever)

im useless
im all for playing dead
im wilted    🥀
its complicated

i rub my eyes
while i contemplate it 
apologise
ive grown so complacent

(notcursed)

i dry my eyes
i learnt to erase it
i hide my crys
cus i don’t know how they’d take it
i can’t stay here tonight
my mind has me breaking
countless times
i’ve got to erase it

contemplate w/ notcursed

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

prod by caves <3
master @itsseele
@whosvacant


i see refections at the waterfront
hide my face
dont like who ive become 
know u think
i wont amount to much
i still ruin everything i touch
i still ruin everything i touch.

i wish i was better than this
im tired of thinking im worthless
woah
tired of this fleeting feeling
i look at my reflection 
i dont wanna be here 
coz i ruin everything around me
tear it all down
in anger i ruin my image
burnt images on the ground
never been somewhere so sickening
I RUINED EVERTHING 
I RUIN EVERYTHING
I RUIN EVERYTHING 
I RUIN EVERYTHING

whispers around 
was it something i said 
what should i do 
you were my only friend
if it  where my choice 
id be with u instead
ur eyes full with tear drops 
and mine full of dread 

but youd stick it out though 
if you really cared
its not surprising 
just cause and effect
well was it worth just to feel some regret?
typical im just means to an end

i see refections at the waterfront
hide my face
dont like who ive become 
know u think
i wont amount to much
i still ruin everything i touch
i still ruin everything i touch.

ruin w/ vacant

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

Bark, tree sap and everything in between 
FIND YOUR NOSTALGIA HERE 

Heavily inspired by Midwest emo indie with our own twist 

Enjoy <3

Harvest Fest (saint mike)

AutumnIsEnding

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