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lyrics

this road getting too long
got me thinking bout the things that i messed up on
n i wasnt meant to learn
wasnt made for class
make best friends with a whiskey glass
rather hold a cigarette n my babys ass
guess life feels like its moving to fast sometimes

cuz blocking its the only way to heal my head
cuz being numb is better than being dead
n long before u get here ill make the bed
cuz Lord knos me n u need to get some rest
n people telling me to slow down
baby u kno that i dont wanna be alone now
smoking blunts got my lungs feeling old now
u warm me up im not affected by the cold now
n winters here so im feeling all alone now
heart been cold it got thrown out
its nice outside lets just go out
so much pain that i dont even tell u typa shit im happy u dont know about

you wont find me no
im probably a state away by now
in a bar with a whiskey glass in front of me
in a brand new fucking town
n im sorry yea
i aint figured anything out
when i try to get high just to pass the time
and i watch the sun go down
i did some cocaine in colorado
with a girl from san fancisco
she told me shes a ballet dancer
but i dont think she wanna dance to this no
watch me swallow all my friends like pills
i dont think that love exists no
but im traveling on this road here still
and i got no plan to quit no

cuz blocking its the only way to heal my head
cuz being numb is better than being dead
n long before u get here ill make the bed
cuz Lord knos me n u need to get some rest
n people telling me to slow down
baby u kno that i dont wanna be alone now
smoking blunts got my lungs feeling old now
u warm me up im not affected by the cold now
n winters here so im feeling all alone now
heart been cold it got thrown out
its nice outside lets just go out
so much pain that i dont even tell u typa shit im happy u dont know about

road w/ spookybands [prod. beatsbydutchrevz]

s/o @kiddamo
lyrics
i hope that u love me
sometimes i cant even love myself
i want u to fuck me
then ill smoke the cigarettes on the shelf
n take me far away from all the thoughts n all the scary words u said to me
late this summer
oh i just need a friend now
i just need to calm down
i just need to lay down
n take some time to figure out

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

hear the liquor pouring imma fill another cup
cant wake up in the morning without nic inside my lungs
speaking bout all my addictions baby girl ur number one
n now im waiting for ur call
but i dont want to wait anymore
i just want to see ur face some more
come my way whenever ur bored
or ill be all alone
so pick up the phone
cuz i kno that ur home
n whenever we dont talk i feel it hurting my soul
n outside its too cold
so open ur window
like ur rapunzel ill climb up n then the night will unfold
sometimes i wish i was dead
but i dont want to see u upset so ill keep it all in my head
remember when we were friends
i knew u was something special thats why i have no regrets

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

soul shower w/ kiddamo [prod. irby]

lyrics
rn im so fucked up hope i make it to my bed
its one of those rare moments where i come to accept rest
n i pray u can accept me for who i really am
n ill show u all the thoughts n all the scars inside my head

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

new mistrust from the misuse
after everything im just still confused
i do drugs when i miss u
but i wont let it become an issue
but when im not high my thoughts try to kill me
when i sing u a song hope u forgive me
black tar on my lungs no healing
i dont need love no but it wont kill me
oh but it wont kill me
im writing this song rn n im sad as fuck im hoping u feel me
i still got pain from all my battles scars need u to heal me
im self destructive in my inner thoughts so i conceal me
n i see faces on the drive home
hit me on the iphone
girl just know i love u
im tryna right my wrongs
everything i do is for u dont leave me all alone
i can feel the pressure cracking down on my bones

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

ciroc [prod. branwen]

lyrics

a long time ago there was hope in my eyes
but now i just see whats in front of me
n if im not awake can u open my eyes?
n try to make me wake up manually

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

stop talking if this bottles my last drink i wanna make it count
i seem to think better when theres no one around
all i need is a smoke and the sun down
then i can make you proud
kid dont want fame he wants the riches
his wife and not the bitches
drunken swashbuckler im singing to the fishes
n i know when i die no one will listen but the mrs.
like woah
i traded all my friends for some peace of mind
i cant go outside tonight im busy making rhymes
but u dont need to worry baby girl im fine
its just one of those nights

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

drunken sailors shanty (jacob vallen)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

s/o @kiddamo
u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

frost bite covers my soul
i dont wanna be alone
it gets cold
when ur not at home
but i get so much warmer when u are close
yea it breaks me to pieces n i cant believe it
i dont kno why u always say that im tweaking
i hope im not right cuz then youll end up leaving
dont wanna put u in the past baby girl im speeding
monsters are creeping
i hear the floor boards creeking
tears dry no more weeping

u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

i really wouldve died for u tho
damn
i never should of cried for u hoe
so tell me why
why i wasted all of my time
i want to light up
see my past burn aways in the fire
no relief when i respire
thats all that i desire
i hate these people think id rather be a loner
im smoking weed until the end cuz im a stoner
like im saul silver

n she said u should call me when ur sober
but thats not in my plans baby girl
my words just getting slower
ill still be here when ur older
rhinestone love shining like the solar
dont wanna be sad anymore
i stopped smoking
dont hit the dab cart anymore
i dont got no friends anymore
i just drink alone
i dont wanna be here anymore

long gone 2 w/kiddamo (kaydo)

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its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

she asked to lay on my chest
think she trying to map out my heart before she stab it
if u dont want to start a fire dont play with matches
cuz im not gonna be the one to clean up ashes
baby dont look at my back thats right where the gash is
i dont want to wait a week to see u thats too long
i remember hot nights i would dream on the futon
n i remember way before u baby i would do wrong
n now i stay alive to show u n my two friends my new songs
but how am i still alive i dont even got my two cents i screw up
pretty much everything that i see n i touch
i hope that u dont ever realize im not much
but im trying
im trying

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

kill it with fire (king theta)

i dont think u understand
what i meant when i said that theres parts i want to fix
i was talking bout myself cuz i saw me turning out different than this
kiss ur lips
fight for the hell of it
be content for a little bit
shes an angel
she fell from the sky
n ur arms feel like heaven where i lie
its a beautiful place to die

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

i dont think u understand 
give in to ur every demand 
i dont think u understand 
give it all the energy i have 
i feel it inside
cast it aside
our feet in the grass
think i turned to a ghost
i would stay by you when it hurt most
a swing n a miss
man was i ever close?
been on my mind i dont know if it shows
i dont think u understand
give in to ur every demand
i dont think u understand

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

fel w/ evergarden (nathan p)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

another life w/ lil booj (p. king theta)

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

lyrics

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

so ill kick rocks in my head
i guess
im numb
i think my minds gone

i know im too much sometimes
its all right
im all right
break me till im hollow
and come see me tomorrow
i found conscious inside of the grotto
magic in a cup
im lost in a bottle
drunken sailor
im not drunk right now
just give me some time
give me some time ill be fucked up by the end of the song
ill give you a rhyme that youll like and youll want
this isnt the song that you play in your car
its the type of song you listen to when all hope is lost
youre punching your walls
theyre not picking up calls
im nothing without you baby i cant even walk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk

im so sorry every lyric sounds the same i met you at the party
big brown eyes but you want to be barbie
baby youre so perfect
i dont need anybody else
i dont need anyone else

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

chalk (p. michael harrison)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

ty carter

lyrics

way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

it feels like you love me more when im going away
just look me in my eyes and tell me im okay
ill call you when im home so you know im okay
i could lose everything but id still keep my faith
i stopped smoking but i still keep them just incase
i wish i had some wings so i could fly away
way above the clouds
i wish i knew what i was doing instead of asking how
and im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
i was driving by myself im seeing a face in the fog
im supposed to be a man
but im just crying at a photo once again
and im obsessing over shit ill never get again
time moves fast i guess


way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

youre the rainbows and the sunshine
i can feel you in when the wind blows and you pass by
i can see youre face in everything
all sides
i need you to surround me till the day i die

as i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see you
smiling, shining
look how you did so well
and the day that i go
will be the day that you go
and girl im broken
i dont have a purpose
i dropped a song for you i hope that you heard it on your own
cuz baby this ones new and i just made it last night
i know they all sound the same to you
ive given up pieces of my brain for you
you know im trying to hold you tight when the night comes
but i feel you in my bones and my weak lungs

as i watch the storm pass 2 (cxrter)

lyrics

thought i shouldve stayed inside tonight
but you look like something out of heaven in this candlelight
so i will stay if you let me

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
this town feels so different
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but i havent in a long time

i smile i see her
her missed calls i return
i get drunk and she burns
she loves me i made sure
she said im no fun cuz i stay inside and write songs
but maybe this will be the big one
i will love you till im freezing

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
she said ive been so distant
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but God knows that i havent in a long time

so different (jacob vallen)

thank u kaydo

lyrics

half hour later i’m gone
told u i wouldn’t take long
the shit half y’all do is so wrong
if this was back then girl you would get stoned for that
i’m drunk won’t bite my tongue
blackout been my lung
frostbite had bit my heart and ever since then nothing felt more wrong then that
would it kill u to just talk to me
i know u wanna fight a little more but you should never let pettiness outweigh honesty
if u don’t hear from me for the next ten days don’t send them after me
imma be right here in the same spot
working on the same project
bout a kid who lost all his friends
tryna be the best man so i keep my hands down
cut my head off, end the shambles
put my head down on the mantle
long way down if i fall down now imma crashout like i’m rambo
guns a blazing for u baby u kno that i’m ten fold
if they try u michael myers on them big knife fuck em up

why do i feel so wrong
i don’t wake up feeling terrible
but by night i feel so terrible
i can’t end it now it would be too terrible

i’ve seen millions of faces
but something about urs sticks out
i find your smile contagious
people in and out of my life so fast
it’s like they racing
but all my bros stay solid we locked in like laces
pray they all gon make it
no don’t wait for nothing
pour medicine
cook all night
i know it don’t make u proud but when i drink i feel alright
i know u want me to talk to u but none of this shit you’ll like
i get stressed too often
its exhausting
wish i had an off switch

offswitch (kaydo)

produced by michael harrison
thank u amo

lyrics

and if im to die tomorrow will you cry at my wake
ill be okay
i hope you know forever is longer than you think
i lost my mind
cause i cant do anything
i cant live a normal life without you
the sky wont be blue
she get mad at everything that i do
but its all for you
and i dont have a purpose at all
but i hide it with the music and the photos on my wall
and my body is falling apart
theres blood out my nose
and my lungs got tar
oh and she gon' cover up her phone in the car
i wish it didnt hurt so bad but imma play the part
oh ill give you my eyes ill give you my heart
oh please just stay forever i will make another song for you my love

if forever really means forever
then why do i see us not lasting at all
but the warmth that you give my cold heart
is just enough for me to ignore it all
i cant help but feel like you wont ever stay
in bed i would curl up
oh if we can make this last another day
then i would give you the world
can i kiss you if the mood is right
we can fall in love another night
if i see you again
as i close the shades to hide the light
i contemplate if i should write another love song again
i dont even feel alive
channel all my negativity through the focusrite
its so late at night
love is blind so i will never see
except your image right in front of me
ill never learn my right from wrongs
ill write another love song

if we can make this last another day
than i would give you the world
im nothing if you choose not to stay
im the string to your pearls

my last love song w/ kiddamo (michael harrison)

produced by jacob vallen

lyrics

i havent been myself and im sorry
but i could never hurt you because doing so would kill me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
but i will lift you up until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

well i often think of those nights-
well really early morning when id lay on the beach with you
i took one hell of a beating since then but i made it out
im just as surprised as you
i still think true love is a silly word
but its what were closest too
protect me cause im losing myself and my senses
but im coming to
baby ive been praying for you and your family
october really fucked me up, but december killed me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
ill lift you up
until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

plants (jacob vallen)

produced by jacob vallen

lyrics

on my desk theres two lighters and a picture of us
i look at it everytime i sing so i know just what im singing for
i smoked too much
i get asthma attacks everytime that i wake up
she said baby sorry bout the makeup
its okay ill put it in the wash we can stay up
anything to spend some more time
cause i dont got time anymore
i been trying to get used to living with the choices that i made
cause i dont like living with myself
its something that im praying for
i pray i pray i pray

can you call me when u wake up
call me when u hear this
hope you hear it more than once
i been trying to get away
but ever since i quit its been calling out my name
my mind can be a confusing place
think of you as my happy place
i dont want no change baby
but nowadays i dont do much
nowadays i work so hard
i hope that its all for something
im kissing your hand in public
the same hands that rip me apart
but i wanna try
i wanna wake up happy that im still alive
i wanna go back to belmar and look at the sky
baby i keep having dreams where i fucking die
then

i get asthma attacks everytime that i wake up
she said baby sorry bout the makeup
its okay ill put it in the wash we can stay up
anything to spend some more time
cause i dont got time anymore
i been trying to get used to living with the choices that i made
cause i dont like living with myself
its something that im praying for
i pray i pray

asthma (jacob vallen)

lyrics

just stay inside
i dont want you to die
in my heart
and in my life youre always mine
im so selfish it makes me hard to love
im still haunted by memories i cant touch
and that cigarette was almost just too much
it reminded me of the night i fell in love

oh i stopped smoking six months ago

but i could use a smoke right now i got shit that you dont know
and youll never know
try to understand but you wont
i just had something to take the edge off
mama told me theres nothing good about being a slack off
its hard to try when i feel everything but nothing at all
she asked whats wrong i told her baby thats all
i couldnt expand on it
dont want her to get frazzled

oh dont worry about me baby im fine

i just need another drink to help me get through the night
thats my life
thats my life
still scared to live
but im slowly losing the fucking fear to die
thats my life

5am (miercoles)

lyrics

baby this shit getting so hard
feel like i aint seen you in so long
youre the front page of a book that
i just dont want to let go of
i say all this shit cuz i love you
youre the only one i trust
if you get lonely then come thru
i dont know what else to tell you baby but i been trying
so tell me you love me
all this money in my pants pockets
got them falling down
blowing on some big clouds dont care whos around
amiro getting big clout cuz they love the sound

i pray to God
hope he hears me on earth
we pourin up baby this aint fucking squirt
if he try you shoot him down like im playing nerf
if this dont end up well i tried my best for what its worth
spent 100 on this shirt
spent 120 on this felt
spent 150 on these pants
just to sag and show the belt
ill go to Heaven when i die
fuck hell
amiro showing off
like show and tell
cant you tell

baby this shit getting so hard
feel like i aint seen you in so long
youre the front page of a book that
i just dont want to let go of
i say all this shit cuz i love you
youre the only one i trust
if you get lonely then come thru
i dont know what else to tell you baby but i been trying
so tell me you love me
all this money in my pants pockets
got them falling down
blowing on some big clouds dont care whos around
amiro getting big clout cuz they love the sound

book [prod Alfie Snapped + dami4k + Jayysoul]

(notahero)
your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

it don’t pleasure me to tell
i’m scared of growing older
tears surround my face
right now i wish that i was sober
i wish time could freeze in place
i need some time to think this over
cause i’m scared of everything
but she says that i just need closure

breakfast
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

reminisce
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

i’ll be with you till i’m dead
i know i don’t talk when i’m mad
but i don’t equate it to love lost
i turn it into a folk song

(greenwood)
if im nothing to me
who could i be for you
i just want to be here
i know that you don't want to

sorry about the fog
its the wine and the street pens
i just need to stop
we don't talk about the reasons
think i fell apart 
hear you talk when you're sleeping
everything is good and it's safe and it's easy

there's colour in your face and water on your skin
and thoughts inside my head to ruin your life again
disconnected from the body that i'm living in
i dont remember much of anything
to give me peace in Copeland
its not been easy coping
love you the more i'm told it
i know you'd never know it

just stay another night
i'm sick of sleeping on my side
and waking up alone and faking it 
scared of death like why we play with it



(notahero)

your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

parking fees w/ greenwood (nathanp)

lyrics 

she far away i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

she said im wrong and i dont care how u feel
with some of that shit u said girl truthfully idk how to feel
drank half the bottle last night i think i got guts of steel
substantial dilemma i forgot what is real
im sleeping in the back of the fucking car
i cant wait till u come home
i fell in love with who u are
but u said im someone you dont know
im finally happy ill seal this memory in a photo
id walk thru fire to get u a ring like i am frodo
i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for u
cuz lately i been tryna lay low
its too late at night
and im not even drunk
i dont want to fight
this lifes not even fun
its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

payphone (mackk)

ty amo

lyrics
 
with those beautiful eyes i’m wondering how u see
with that shit u said on sunday wondering how u sleep
and the more i smoke i feel this kush push me in my seat
and the longer that we fight i feel the less we agree on
and u think that i’m a star
i got my hands in my pockets
u got your hands in ur hair
u know there’s no way u can stop this
i’m not rlly there
can’t tell if i’m even talking
but i rlly care
it’s been that way since i started

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

i hate when you look away
open up those sunny eyes when the skies are gray
get so lost when i take walks in your iris maze
just don't forget my microphone when you throw me away
there's so many roads
and where they go i don't know
i hope you dig a little hole for me inside of your soul
cupids nice with a bow
he hit my heart with arrows
and they all point right to you
they point right to you

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

clementine w/ kiddamo (king theta)

lyrics

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think is for the best if you let this run its course
yea cuz everything has a purpose and im safe i swore
that id keep myself away from harm no matter what
even if its not what i want
told myself that id protect you from all pain
even if thats me sometimes
im stepping through mines
you dont like the person laying next to you right now
baby you dont gotta lie
but i love you id give up anything for you
that includes getting high
i could die right now in the place im in
with my head rested on your thigh
right here where i lie
im drowning trapped under ice
and her soft words become a foreign language
this time of night
and her butterflies turn to pure anguish
when i have to say goodbye
you really are my best friend
ill love you till i die
and ill love you till the very end
but im just happy you're here for the ride

cuz those lazy days dont feel so lazy at all
with you and my friends here i promise that i wont fall
turn the beer into a natural disaster make a tornado waterfall
but still you aint picking my calls up
cuz i aint been sober in a while
me and this drink like best friends
but he hates me im just in denial
remember back in the day
in the back of the car i was smoking on white owls
yea im a night owl
i just need a night out
think i just need a quick break so this cigarette feel like a timeout
maybe i just need to lie down
or maybe i just need to go outside
but this blunt knock me out like a takedown
you gotta crouch down just to see my eyes
she really want to know where i am now
maybe ill come see you if i got time
and i really wish i couldve been your lighthouse
maybe i did help you in different life
i really cant tell where i am now
but grey smoke covers up purple skies
and even when the studio close down
ill still love you till the day i
oh i cry blood
i cry tears of joy
i cry tears for you

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think its for the best if you let this run its course

my best friend (jacob vallen)

lyrics

just to let you know imma fuck this up again
i hope you dont change your mind
and all those times i ignored you, my love
its just cuz i was high
and as september comes to an end
im thankful now, more than ever
i look at this beautiful life that we have made with each other
i hope this never ends

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

build it up
break it down
its the end of the world in a few days
is this something we can fix in a few days
i had a little bit to drink and now i feel great
i had something on my mind but i think i forgot it
i hit up the plug and then i go and make a deposit
cuz lately i been fucked up everytime im writing these sonnets
i get high then i get drunk then i go and run it like sonic
the distrokid check came in im getting coins like im sonic
she love me more than i love myself think its kind of ironic
ive been burning bridges from the fires you started
and ive been making wishes everytime night is star-lit
theres secrets being shared between me and the  scarlett
its making money on the web kind of like charlotte
a white pill in the morning before its even started
but baby everything i do is for you-

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

i hope this never ends (miercoles)

lyrics

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
you call it poison i call it an antidote
i hate to see your scars unfold
and you think youre all alone

but im here for you my love
you just sit there while i smoke in my yard
ill try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

i hope i dont stay this way
she had the nerve to tell me that ive changed
everything has lost its color
you can see it
even my fucking eyes turned grey
you made my fucking whole life change
from the first day i saw your face
you know you have my favorite face
you know that id do anything for you
now im on the road
but the citys dark
i think i should really be sleeping
said youd call me if you need me
but i dont think you really mean it
i been waiting for a long time
just for some type of some way
to help you
i love you
always

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
youre calling it poison i call it an antidote
ill wait until youre finally home
and you think youre all alone
but im here for you
drunk outside smoking with you
try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

imhereforyou (jacob vallen)

lyrics
i just need one reply
forgot how much i smoked and now im too high
i go out back to smoke and make my lungs cry
need a new picture for the song im looking to the sky
im outside just taking pictures of the fucking sky
she want me to tell her im not like other guys
truth is baby im just like those other guys
everytime i let you down
youre like this happens every time
i wont lie

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

you said that you wanna see the right
me im sorry but my life is like a light beam
its way too fast you can see it for a second like its lighting
when i change the subject oh it gets so frightening
and then you wonder why theres so much in my life im hiding
everybody thinks the stuff they think so uninviting
and i cant even try my best they think that im not trying
and i cant take it when they think that i been lying
now days got my heart vacant hear it when im sighing
why u wrote me up a ticket idk what i am signing
maybe if i fix it then youll come around to like me
and if not then ill run away and ill find peace
i been tryin hard to fix it up with everything i got
its been goin wrong lemme take another shot
missin every shot but gettin closer to spot
now yea im locked down

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

monday night w/ brecken (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out if ur the one cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

said its my first drink this week
she mad it just turned sunday
im rolling some shit look like bayleaf
think you should come over to my place
dont know why you stressing out
baby you got all my love
ill pour some liquor out
this shit made my brain turn numb
i still smoke a lot but im smoking less than last year
i dont talk a lot cuz im rapping more this past year
she said i have a way with my words
trying my best but im feeling the worst
i see the crows and i know its a curse
i see the crows and i know its an omen
my body young but i drink like an old man
they think im lame cuz i rap bout emotions
i made a wave now theyre sick from the motion
seasick just throwing up in the ocean
you can call me if you need it
ill be here just sipping potions

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out this shit cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

everlasting (p. under the maple tree)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

lyrics
wake up from a dream
i wish i was still inside of
and you act mean to me
i think thats what im so afraid of
nobody told me the end of the world would look so dull
cotton mouth and a microphone
i need a rope cause my heads so far gone
and ive just given up

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry
and i dont got no trust for anybody else but you

my head is moving faster than my body
and im not listening to anything that you tell me
a promise, a whisper
just tell me that you love me
wish i was a kid again
you can find me somewhere over the valley
petrified in amber
dont know why youre still angry
if i could remember then id tell you im sorry
im just going through it
and i wish i was a kid again

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry

purgatory (under the maple tree)

rock bottom

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