mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

once shining armor

lyrics
rn im so fucked up hope i make it to my bed
its one of those rare moments where i come to accept rest
n i pray u can accept me for who i really am
n ill show u all the thoughts n all the scars inside my head

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

new mistrust from the misuse
after everything im just still confused
i do drugs when i miss u
but i wont let it become an issue
but when im not high my thoughts try to kill me
when i sing u a song hope u forgive me
black tar on my lungs no healing
i dont need love no but it wont kill me
oh but it wont kill me
im writing this song rn n im sad as fuck im hoping u feel me
i still got pain from all my battles scars need u to heal me
im self destructive in my inner thoughts so i conceal me
n i see faces on the drive home
hit me on the iphone
girl just know i love u
im tryna right my wrongs
everything i do is for u dont leave me all alone
i can feel the pressure cracking down on my bones

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

ciroc [prod. branwen]

lyrics

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

she asked to lay on my chest
think she trying to map out my heart before she stab it
if u dont want to start a fire dont play with matches
cuz im not gonna be the one to clean up ashes
baby dont look at my back thats right where the gash is
i dont want to wait a week to see u thats too long
i remember hot nights i would dream on the futon
n i remember way before u baby i would do wrong
n now i stay alive to show u n my two friends my new songs
but how am i still alive i dont even got my two cents i screw up
pretty much everything that i see n i touch
i hope that u dont ever realize im not much
but im trying
im trying

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

kill it with fire (king theta)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

another life w/ lil booj (p. king theta)

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

lyrics

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

so ill kick rocks in my head
i guess
im numb
i think my minds gone

i know im too much sometimes
its all right
im all right
break me till im hollow
and come see me tomorrow
i found conscious inside of the grotto
magic in a cup
im lost in a bottle
drunken sailor
im not drunk right now
just give me some time
give me some time ill be fucked up by the end of the song
ill give you a rhyme that youll like and youll want
this isnt the song that you play in your car
its the type of song you listen to when all hope is lost
youre punching your walls
theyre not picking up calls
im nothing without you baby i cant even walk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk

im so sorry every lyric sounds the same i met you at the party
big brown eyes but you want to be barbie
baby youre so perfect
i dont need anybody else
i dont need anyone else

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

chalk (p. michael harrison)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

lyrics

thought i shouldve stayed inside tonight
but you look like something out of heaven in this candlelight
so i will stay if you let me

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
this town feels so different
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but i havent in a long time

i smile i see her
her missed calls i return
i get drunk and she burns
she loves me i made sure
she said im no fun cuz i stay inside and write songs
but maybe this will be the big one
i will love you till im freezing

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
she said ive been so distant
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but God knows that i havent in a long time

so different (jacob vallen)

lyrics

baby this shit getting so hard
feel like i aint seen you in so long
youre the front page of a book that
i just dont want to let go of
i say all this shit cuz i love you
youre the only one i trust
if you get lonely then come thru
i dont know what else to tell you baby but i been trying
so tell me you love me
all this money in my pants pockets
got them falling down
blowing on some big clouds dont care whos around
amiro getting big clout cuz they love the sound

i pray to God
hope he hears me on earth
we pourin up baby this aint fucking squirt
if he try you shoot him down like im playing nerf
if this dont end up well i tried my best for what its worth
spent 100 on this shirt
spent 120 on this felt
spent 150 on these pants
just to sag and show the belt
ill go to Heaven when i die
fuck hell
amiro showing off
like show and tell
cant you tell

baby this shit getting so hard
feel like i aint seen you in so long
youre the front page of a book that
i just dont want to let go of
i say all this shit cuz i love you
youre the only one i trust
if you get lonely then come thru
i dont know what else to tell you baby but i been trying
so tell me you love me
all this money in my pants pockets
got them falling down
blowing on some big clouds dont care whos around
amiro getting big clout cuz they love the sound

book [prod Alfie Snapped + dami4k + Jayysoul]

(notahero)
your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

it don’t pleasure me to tell
i’m scared of growing older
tears surround my face
right now i wish that i was sober
i wish time could freeze in place
i need some time to think this over
cause i’m scared of everything
but she says that i just need closure

breakfast
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

reminisce
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

i’ll be with you till i’m dead
i know i don’t talk when i’m mad
but i don’t equate it to love lost
i turn it into a folk song

(greenwood)
if im nothing to me
who could i be for you
i just want to be here
i know that you don't want to

sorry about the fog
its the wine and the street pens
i just need to stop
we don't talk about the reasons
think i fell apart 
hear you talk when you're sleeping
everything is good and it's safe and it's easy

there's colour in your face and water on your skin
and thoughts inside my head to ruin your life again
disconnected from the body that i'm living in
i dont remember much of anything
to give me peace in Copeland
its not been easy coping
love you the more i'm told it
i know you'd never know it

just stay another night
i'm sick of sleeping on my side
and waking up alone and faking it 
scared of death like why we play with it



(notahero)

your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

parking fees w/ greenwood (nathanp)

lyrics 

she far away i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

she said im wrong and i dont care how u feel
with some of that shit u said girl truthfully idk how to feel
drank half the bottle last night i think i got guts of steel
substantial dilemma i forgot what is real
im sleeping in the back of the fucking car
i cant wait till u come home
i fell in love with who u are
but u said im someone you dont know
im finally happy ill seal this memory in a photo
id walk thru fire to get u a ring like i am frodo
i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for u
cuz lately i been tryna lay low
its too late at night
and im not even drunk
i dont want to fight
this lifes not even fun
its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

payphone (mackk)

ty amo

lyrics
 
with those beautiful eyes i’m wondering how u see
with that shit u said on sunday wondering how u sleep
and the more i smoke i feel this kush push me in my seat
and the longer that we fight i feel the less we agree on
and u think that i’m a star
i got my hands in my pockets
u got your hands in ur hair
u know there’s no way u can stop this
i’m not rlly there
can’t tell if i’m even talking
but i rlly care
it’s been that way since i started

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

i hate when you look away
open up those sunny eyes when the skies are gray
get so lost when i take walks in your iris maze
just don't forget my microphone when you throw me away
there's so many roads
and where they go i don't know
i hope you dig a little hole for me inside of your soul
cupids nice with a bow
he hit my heart with arrows
and they all point right to you
they point right to you

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

clementine w/ kiddamo (king theta)

lyrics

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think is for the best if you let this run its course
yea cuz everything has a purpose and im safe i swore
that id keep myself away from harm no matter what
even if its not what i want
told myself that id protect you from all pain
even if thats me sometimes
im stepping through mines
you dont like the person laying next to you right now
baby you dont gotta lie
but i love you id give up anything for you
that includes getting high
i could die right now in the place im in
with my head rested on your thigh
right here where i lie
im drowning trapped under ice
and her soft words become a foreign language
this time of night
and her butterflies turn to pure anguish
when i have to say goodbye
you really are my best friend
ill love you till i die
and ill love you till the very end
but im just happy you're here for the ride

cuz those lazy days dont feel so lazy at all
with you and my friends here i promise that i wont fall
turn the beer into a natural disaster make a tornado waterfall
but still you aint picking my calls up
cuz i aint been sober in a while
me and this drink like best friends
but he hates me im just in denial
remember back in the day
in the back of the car i was smoking on white owls
yea im a night owl
i just need a night out
think i just need a quick break so this cigarette feel like a timeout
maybe i just need to lie down
or maybe i just need to go outside
but this blunt knock me out like a takedown
you gotta crouch down just to see my eyes
she really want to know where i am now
maybe ill come see you if i got time
and i really wish i couldve been your lighthouse
maybe i did help you in different life
i really cant tell where i am now
but grey smoke covers up purple skies
and even when the studio close down
ill still love you till the day i
oh i cry blood
i cry tears of joy
i cry tears for you

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think its for the best if you let this run its course

my best friend (jacob vallen)

lyrics

just to let you know imma fuck this up again
i hope you dont change your mind
and all those times i ignored you, my love
its just cuz i was high
and as september comes to an end
im thankful now, more than ever
i look at this beautiful life that we have made with each other
i hope this never ends

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

build it up
break it down
its the end of the world in a few days
is this something we can fix in a few days
i had a little bit to drink and now i feel great
i had something on my mind but i think i forgot it
i hit up the plug and then i go and make a deposit
cuz lately i been fucked up everytime im writing these sonnets
i get high then i get drunk then i go and run it like sonic
the distrokid check came in im getting coins like im sonic
she love me more than i love myself think its kind of ironic
ive been burning bridges from the fires you started
and ive been making wishes everytime night is star-lit
theres secrets being shared between me and the  scarlett
its making money on the web kind of like charlotte
a white pill in the morning before its even started
but baby everything i do is for you-

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

i hope this never ends (miercoles)

lyrics

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
you call it poison i call it an antidote
i hate to see your scars unfold
and you think youre all alone

but im here for you my love
you just sit there while i smoke in my yard
ill try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

i hope i dont stay this way
she had the nerve to tell me that ive changed
everything has lost its color
you can see it
even my fucking eyes turned grey
you made my fucking whole life change
from the first day i saw your face
you know you have my favorite face
you know that id do anything for you
now im on the road
but the citys dark
i think i should really be sleeping
said youd call me if you need me
but i dont think you really mean it
i been waiting for a long time
just for some type of some way
to help you
i love you
always

nowadays this room dont feel like a home
youre calling it poison i call it an antidote
ill wait until youre finally home
and you think youre all alone
but im here for you
drunk outside smoking with you
try to keep it together while im falling apart
early this fall

imhereforyou (jacob vallen)

lyrics
i just need one reply
forgot how much i smoked and now im too high
i go out back to smoke and make my lungs cry
need a new picture for the song im looking to the sky
im outside just taking pictures of the fucking sky
she want me to tell her im not like other guys
truth is baby im just like those other guys
everytime i let you down
youre like this happens every time
i wont lie

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

you said that you wanna see the right
me im sorry but my life is like a light beam
its way too fast you can see it for a second like its lighting
when i change the subject oh it gets so frightening
and then you wonder why theres so much in my life im hiding
everybody thinks the stuff they think so uninviting
and i cant even try my best they think that im not trying
and i cant take it when they think that i been lying
now days got my heart vacant hear it when im sighing
why u wrote me up a ticket idk what i am signing
maybe if i fix it then youll come around to like me
and if not then ill run away and ill find peace
i been tryin hard to fix it up with everything i got
its been goin wrong lemme take another shot
missin every shot but gettin closer to spot
now yea im locked down

nine shots
yea thats nine to much for a monday night
i work hard and dont pick up so we can be alright
everything i love just slips away
thats why i hold u tight
im not that good with my words
so excuse me while i write
just took ten hits off this bowl
feel like i just got a strike
whats the reason you dont like me
its not on sight its unsightly
she said all this shit is unlike me

monday night w/ brecken (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out if ur the one cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

said its my first drink this week
she mad it just turned sunday
im rolling some shit look like bayleaf
think you should come over to my place
dont know why you stressing out
baby you got all my love
ill pour some liquor out
this shit made my brain turn numb
i still smoke a lot but im smoking less than last year
i dont talk a lot cuz im rapping more this past year
she said i have a way with my words
trying my best but im feeling the worst
i see the crows and i know its a curse
i see the crows and i know its an omen
my body young but i drink like an old man
they think im lame cuz i rap bout emotions
i made a wave now theyre sick from the motion
seasick just throwing up in the ocean
you can call me if you need it
ill be here just sipping potions

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out this shit cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

everlasting (p. under the maple tree)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

lyrics
wake up from a dream
i wish i was still inside of
and you act mean to me
i think thats what im so afraid of
nobody told me the end of the world would look so dull
cotton mouth and a microphone
i need a rope cause my heads so far gone
and ive just given up

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry
and i dont got no trust for anybody else but you

my head is moving faster than my body
and im not listening to anything that you tell me
a promise, a whisper
just tell me that you love me
wish i was a kid again
you can find me somewhere over the valley
petrified in amber
dont know why youre still angry
if i could remember then id tell you im sorry
im just going through it
and i wish i was a kid again

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry

purgatory (under the maple tree)

lyrics

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i’m slurring words on this beat but i’ll redo it when im sober
i got my drink on the rocks but im so high they look like boulders
she too familiar with crying i told her lean up on my shoulder
it gets worse every night but i feel better when i hold her
if i don’t fear death how the fuck i’m so scared of growing older
she said baby lay you’re head back let the blunt smolder
i spilled slime all on my jeans uh huh
end of the week and im off of this hybrid imma tweak uh huh
girl the suns bouta set
i realize you’re upset
but what’s one night, to an eternity without you and i
when i turn ghost you’re the only thing keeping me alive yea
you’re keeping me alive yea
look i been up half the night
this drink been freezing my mouth who put that bitch on ice
she said she like me cuz im cute but im nice
you hate i manufactured armor round my heart like a knight
i used to white pill in the morning wash it down with some sprite
swear all this shit feels unimportant when i’m thinking bout my life
slow down hero you playing with you’re life
im tryna leave a part of me here im recording every night
it’s a slippery slope cuz i found myself here again
slimey creatures crawl up on my bed
and fill my brain with pictures of sin
it’s a parasite
so can you stay the night
fighting for my life
i fear for my life
watch your beautiful face pass me by

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i'll hit you when im back (under the maple tree)

lyrics

i wouldnt mind it if you stayed another night
it tends to get lonely around this time
and i wouldnt be surprised if my body just gave up one of these days
think i got it coming anyway
so why dont you just light those incense
theres something in this room i dont talk about
and its driving me out of my fucking head
but i just cant get the words out
its not halloween but this mask that i have on is starting to scare me
ill die in my dreams if you move on so im just hoping that you spare me

days filled with green smoke slowly move along
hear you whisper in my ear, nick please keep holding on
i know that youd cry if i cry so i never cry around you
if tonight i die ill die happy knowing that i found you

underdog movie intro scene (miercoles)

lyrics

im outside
i’m like where the hell you been
i’ll slide
wondering how the hell you been
are you alright
buckle up and put your head back
i’ll play you my new song
i hope that you like it

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

i ain’t see you in so long
but i promise i been working hard stack money on my phone
i don’t talk that much so i barf up words on top these songs
im quiet in the back of the party sipping white claw and patron
just stay with me for a few days help me figure out what the fuck i’m on
baby this big boy shit
i can’t rest im too grown
my back breaking and i can’t find my eyes cuz they too low
my demons like rubrics cube lately
id figure it out but i don’t know

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

she love me too much to remind me that this happens every time
u know i been having trouble staying inside the lines
a little swervy i been drinking every night
it’s like im celebrating not wanting to be alive
my body a temple i can’t turn into a shrine
can’t snuff my flame out before i even find the light
i don’t know how the hell i been am i alright
a couple drinks and autotune and call it a night

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

shrine (under the maple tree)

do you know how long its supposed to snow for
i cant see anything more than twenty feet in front of me
and if we die in this snow storm
well i dont want to think about it
put your hand on my heart feel my heart beat
i dont know if its still there can you check for me
but i know who you are and youre lovely
i know who you are and youre lovely
ive been lost here for a long time
and the sun here doesnt come up after night
was a painful process when my heart turned into bronzite
and i feel it everyday but i wish that i didnt

go to sleep now she said
itll all be over in the morning
dont fear for the road ahead
for every hero has his journey

but im notahero and i just cant stand for this
im on the battle ground
metal gauntlets on my wrist
i pray before the battle
know im taking fathers from their kids
they bring the archers out
as arrows shower down
my dying thought is of you
i think ill die on this hill
with several arrows in my back
and a big bastard sword covered in blood
what the fuck
im sworn through chivalry but ill die not enough
i feel these trees spread their roots through my guts
i feel my heart turn back on by your love
i dig my sword inside the ground and stand back up
guess she wont have it any other way
so ill live to fight another day

a hero's journey (p. ryan kelly)

i got something on the way
pray for my brothers hope we all gon' be okay
ill come back but can you meet me halfway
she said dont go life could be great
im moving so slow off of this drink
but time slows when i see you
and you think i would leave you
why the hell would i leave you
why the hell would i

i aint feel it all the same way
and i feel like we aint speak in like a couple days
and we could be that couple that just drives away
im getting sick of this town
im getting sick of the frown that you make when i make another mistake yea
throw me down to the ground when my whole world is quaking
think im reviving my heart just to break it
just look me in my eyes when you resusitate it
give me cpr
pour out my heart
i hope that you like it
i hope that you like it
yea all these love songs been for you but these raps been for me
i smoke stinky im still wondering how i smell so clean
bootcut jeans im with my posse all my guys on me
top shelf hit like its designer, tastes like burberry

i got something on the way
pray for my brothers hope we all gon' be okay
ill come back but can you meet me halfway
she said dont go life could be great
im moving so slow off of this drink
but time slows when i see you
and you think i would leave you
why the hell would i leave you
why the hell would i

am i hurt i cant feel it
she scared imma do something stupid
baby i got a good thing going
you dont gotta worry
i know it makes you nervous when im home alone
and for that im sorry
she holds me
and rips those violent images out of my eyelids
i swear i sleep better when youre next to me
im nowhere
im nothing
my cold hands
are shaking
im a monster
in monsters clothing
but ill try to forget it
just like you told me to

life could be great (p. under the maple tree)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

if i ask you for another just say no
ill forgive you in the morning
i dont wanna embarrass myself like i did last year on my birthday
its hard finding friends now that im old
everybodys at their real jobs
while im having trouble falling asleep if i dont have anything in my system
and i love you
so much that i hate everything else
and i know ill feel better tomorrow but thats like a million years from now

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

hope i drink enough tonight that im excited about tomorrow
i drove home less sober than i shouldve been
in hopes that you would follow
i think of everything in life
and why its still so hard to fit in
if we dont have to much time why does it move so fast when im blinking

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

estate sale (p. acey)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

i could fuck up our whole entire night
and tomorrow ill turn back to ice
just hope by then that youre doing fine
and my visions back from blurry
but theres nothing else to do alone in jersey

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

its all a little late
and im not sure how much time has passed
im sorry to cancel our dinner date
but girl this high's been kicking my ass
trees shaking
and i cant find my car keys
and i dont even want to go outside to smoke this cigarette
and i kiss your chest
with smoky breath
and i dont have much left
but ill give you my eyes
maybe then youll see what i see
and i would die
for somebody to be able to help me

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

alone in jersey (p. ryan kelly)

lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

amber w/ skele (p. acey)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics
"whered you go?"
well i dont want to alarm you
but ive been feeling awful baby
and i know the things i said were painful words to you
i just been feeling awful
i think youre all that i have left
i been working so i can give so much to you
now i dont sound so terrible
but i make myself sound better than i really am
its human nature baby girl who are we
were not different from the people living over seas
i dont know you and you dont know me
i cant really sing did you know that
i just fuck up over and over
till eventually i sound like someone youd wanna listen to
i really hope you like it
youre a fighter jet baby im the pilot
youre a treasure chest baby im a pirate
i spent years here now all my armors rusted
i got this fucking devil on my shoulder telling me to trust him
and you cant relate
open my heart baby tell me to stay
crease in my shoes lines in my face
tell me ill be fine baby lie to my face
swear this shit been eating me up i got a lot on my plate
but i wont be leaving anytime soon i got a lot more to say

once shining armor (p. acey)

lyrics

pink purse
i swear i never meant to make your feelings hurt
i swear ill sail the seven seas if i could make it work
im really glad you look your best today, i feel the worst

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july
so thats the best thing that i could ever look at its so
my hands trembling and my body shaking out of controol
its something well understand when were old
can you help me open up the door im tryna get out of the cold

I’m pulling up it’s warmer inside the car
take this drive with me and stare at the stars
the man i used to be i left his ass at the bar
going through these changes it feels new to me
like who are we?
21 years old the world feels new to me
talking bout the things i did it feels like yo ass is shooting me
you killed that part of me
blank slate i don’t even know who to be
just show me a sign that you’re really there
just show me a sign that you really care
talking about my memories like you were really there
like are you aware of what this shit really feels like
i was scared to fall asleep without the glock nine
baby come a little closer every nights a cold night
don’t know how long it takes to find us but we’ll find it on our own time
find it on our own time

it could be worse i could be layin in the hospital
or laying in the dirt with all my family and my friends gone
it could be 10 times worse but i don’t recognize a thing
think they could tell that it hurt
when i lost you i went to sleep
cuz if im sleepin theres a chance that i could see you still
if im dreamin theres a chance that i could feel it still
might be walkin in a trap but i dont even care
i would rather see what happens when i get there
i miss your attitude and somehow that cold stare
gimme bad news but you fix with no hardware
well i hate to be the bearer of bad news
but i cant fix this i think that we met our doom
i can see the floor give out beneath our feet as we speak now
rocks fall from the ceiling bury me into the ground
cant tell if your kidding but your fillin me with doubt
and i hate how it sounds
i hate the sound of your car starting up to leave
i cant make these thoughts leave i wish that you could see
wish that you could see everything that i had done in thought of you and me

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july

still in it w/ kiddamo & brecken (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

ive never been good enough at anything else
but i can finish this cigarette faster than you blink
i wont go to sleep id rather watch tv
and youre
youre much prettier than you know
and im too loud for my own good
but im not worried about that yet im too busy packing my bags cause
im thinking bout leaving tonight
and i guess ill stop in the morning to see how far i drove
is anyone out there on the east coast?
im on the west side
im wasting the best years of my life
i think a part of myself died
and ever since then ive been tongue tied

i know she likes my hoarse voice
theres been a frog in my throat for the past what felt like three years
i joke im building a barn
and every morning when the rooster crows im like i gotta get out of here
mundane mixed up with blood and tears
im forgetting my best friend
and i drink him instead of facing my fears
just tonight
can i enjoy the simple things
get on the wagon and just ride
i been tryna get over a couple things

and ive never been good at anything
but im alright at loving you
and im the king of making excuses
so tell me what do i gotta do
youre much prettier than you know
and im too loud for my own good
but im not worried about that yet im to busy packing my bags cause
im thinking bout leaving tonight
and i guess ill stop in the morning to see how far i drove
is anyone out there on the east coast?
im on the west side
these supposed to be the best years of my life
i think a part of myself died
and ever since then ive been tongue tied

im thinking bout leaving tonight
and i guess ill stop in the morning to see how far i drove
is anyone out there on the east coast?
im on the west side
im wasting the best years of my life
i think a part of myself died

im left handed whats your superpower (p. jacob vallen)

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