lyrics

and baby could u come here pull me closer
im like way too drunk i need a chauffeur
im like oh my chest n oh my lungs hurt
i dont kno why u wanna fight why u want war
instead of holding me down
on the ground i got way too fucking high like just the other night
symbols poppin up inside my head just like some flashing lights
my bro just gut a wood n now he fillin it with some meteorites
im driving home so late n girl i cant see past the headlights
omg im tryna drive so please turn off the headlights
still drinking to forget about the times u made me feel right
n girl im outside
turn on the houselights just let me inside

just let me inside
i need a lullaby
i spark a wood it keep me warm on the cold nights
since she left i cant admit when im not alright
i live a fast life i dont live a safe life
n i thought that i needed u
i couldnt do it myself so ud push me thru
its so dark its so cold now
got no more friends i drink alone now

amiri jacket its ok i gotta stand tall
big bands big jordans imma ball
bro help me out i think im gonna fall
omg im goin off the walls
oh baby wake me up when theres sunshine
cuz right now im not seeing any lights
i thought ab her in the sky on a flight
i thought i couldnt miss her if i live a fast life

n baby could u come here pull me closer
im like way too drunk i need a chauffeur
im like oh my chest n oh my lungs hurt
i dont kno why u wanna fight why u want war
instead of holding me down
on the ground i got way too fucking high like just the other night
symbols poppin up inside my head just like some flashing lights
my bro just gut a wood n now he fillin it with some meteorites
im driving home so late n girl i cant see past the headlights
omg im tryna drive so please turn off the headlights
still drinking to forget about the times u made me feel right
n girl im outside
turn on the houselights just let me inside

headlights [prod. metlast x luffy]

prod. irby

lyrics
im not worth it
i been searching for a purpose

(n i cant go on much longer, cuz im afraid that youll just see me)

i been working
you been lurking
i been hurting
i deserve it
n ur perfect im not worth it
im certain i deserve it
i feel the summer coming gotta run it up
this productivity just part of moving on
i cant talk rn cuz drugs they got me gone
i rlly havent felt myself in so long

forgot ur face cuz its been so long since i saw u last time
n u showed me the light
i was so bright
what happened to my life
i wish that i could tell u but the timings never right
i remember saturday i was barely holding on
when i left that party i was lost in the dark
still feel lost in her arms
i still feel lost in my heart
i still feel lost in my life but i gotta push on
drugs im gone
i just wanna move on
but i cant restart
omg i think im falling down
bury me six feet inside the ground
im tryin even tho i cant get out
i cant believe that u would kick me when im down
moving too fast can we slow it down
im working on loyalty for when she not around
im working on self love for when no ones around
cuz ik one day that no one will be around

n i know its a hard life
i know its a fast life
im tryna do u rite
dont need me in ur life
n i miss the sunlight
oh i miss the sunlight
n i cant go on much longer
im afraid that theyll just see me for who i am
not who i wanna be

i been working
you been lurking
i been hurting
i deserve it
n ur perfect im not worth it
im certain i deserve it
i feel the summer coming gotta run it up
this productivity just part of moving on
i cant talk rn cuz drugs they got me gone
i rlly havent felt myself in so long

my car broke down on the highway (prod. irby)

prod metlast x luffy

lyrics

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

n ill keep taking all these shots until i cant even see
if u dont wanna hurt again girl then u gotta leave
im sorry that i cant do everything you want me to
it kills me inside knowing i cant die for u
greening out throwing up inside the alley
i dont wanna die right now but im not happy
n i know that im the only one that make u happy
but baby imma die alone its such a tragedy
i been losing sleep
got ur scent burned into my sheets
im pouring out smoke when i breathe
i know i cant love but i still wanna see u
i still wanna see u
i dont wanna leave u

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

double shot of my favorite vodka [prod. metlast x luffy]

s/o NAVYXOWER

lyrics

ok it seems like we wont get along
thats fine cuz im working better when im alone
im on the road
u kno that ill still be here in the morning
i been taking drugs now im soaring
u dont love me anymore im not important
lil baby cut me off without a warning

now im better alone
its been hard for me to see me
like everybody else say they see me
hold up let me roll another evergreen
crack a bottle its the only thing that help me
she be throwing me the cake like im starving
she kno im broken she kno that im learning
she kno im lost when the sun comes down
girl i promise i wont let u down
to be honest i dont wanna be around

(NAVYXOWER)

i dont wanna be around anymore
in the morning i keep going on my phone
asking questions every night that i get home, oh, oh
i dont wanna die anymore
i wish i could've said that last year
rollin my tea i was feeling like shit
i didnt know where to go in my business
i just wanna keep on listening
keeping tabs on my witness
i just wish it always sound the same
ill make a hundred songs and only one is gonna stay
i wish i had more times inside my morning just to make

(notahero)

now im better alone
its been hard for me to see me
like everybody else say they see me

she got mad telling me hero kiss my teeth
head still hurting from the nicotine
yea its killing my lungs but it help me breathe
i still got some alcohol on my jeans
wonder if they hear me call please help me
lost in the night, you kno i still cant sleep
got ur scent on my shirt n now its on my sheets
n all that i ask is that u please save me

in the morning (feat. NAVYXOWER)(prod. Sundwn)

stupid bitch

lyrics

in the back of the coupe im just sliding
i dont fuck with that girl cuz she lying
i just greened out now im fucking dying
throwing up my guts out n im crying
new drip looking sharp like a fucking trident
new drugs omg i might fucking die yea
i dont kno u please stay out my fucking life yea
i dont owe u shit except a fucking fight yea
im so fucking drunk right now
might pass out
on the fucking ground
u were laughing about me look who laughing now
they was fucking dubbing me look who dubbing now
all the smoke destroy my lungs so im coughing now
imma stunt until im dead in a coffin now

he was talking shit to me so we lay him down
so we lay him down
n we spinning round
yea we spinning round mary go round
i dont kno u
n i really dont wanna try to get to kno u
old bitch in the past damn like thats some old news
new bitch hit my phone like can u let me blow u
old friends hit my phone like dam im so below u
n once u show your true self people try to control u
thats why i just stay numb
having fun
smoking som
i dont know what im smoking on
but im gone
who the fuck she think she talking to like that
imma dub
havent felt my face in so long
or my heart

in the back of the coupe im just sliding
i dont fuck with that girl cuz she lying
i just greened out now im fucking dying
throwing up my guts out n im crying
new drip looking sharp like a fucking trident
new drugs omg i might fucking die yea
i dont kno u please stay out my fucking life yea
i dont owe u shit except a fucking fight yea
im so fucking drunk right now
might pass out
on the fucking ground
u were laughing about me look who laughing now
they was fucking dubbing me look who dubbing now
all the smoke destroy my lungs so im coughing now
imma stunt until im dead in a coffin now

s/o ebheat

evil eyes (prod. ebheat)

s/o kiddamo and jabarionthebeat
lyrics:
open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

but i dont like me
cuz i like it toxic baby it excites me
she wanna piss me off i told her ass to bite me
if i say i love u dont take that shit lightly
oh no
countless nights that i spend on my phone
fuck around message these hoes
told her pull up on the low
she smell my cologne
im taking her to bed make her moan
private hell its a good time
party all night with the demons up in my mind
grab the henny sit it right next to the white lines
now im falling to the ground cuz im too high
im lost but i found the drugs
now

open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

do u rlly like me
now im sitting alone
on my phone
im wondering where the hell r u
right now
like right now
baby can u feed me drugs right now

i been dying in the sunlight
babe i wanna love u i dont ever wanna fight
rlly cant help it that these drugs treat me right
i say im sorry mom as i die
this a private hell
this a private hell
custom built for myself
put the drugs on top of the shelf
rlly gotta stop hurting myself

private hell w/ KiddAmo[prod. jabarionthebeat]

s/o epitomeoffailure
lyrics

notahero:

how come every time im watching my steps
i keep on losing my rest
oh i think im better off dead
i keep catching my breath

i feel like u dont care anymore im sorry
its been many years since ive had anybody
its crazy how ur words shoot me down like the army
and im just forced to run and hide away in a hearbeat
remember everything that u said
never falling out of love i guess
had to fix up my heart and digest
that u dont love me no more
vomit falling on the floor
liquor running thru my pours
sweating thru my fucking shorts
are u high rn like bitch of course
im just waiting for the reup

epitiomeoffailure:

im holding my breath till i see the end
its good for me to know that ur not my friend
its hard for me to breathe when my wounds wont mend
and now im waiting for u to come back to me
but i know that thats not a possibility
i break my back just for u to show me some sympathy
and dont wait for me
and dont pray for me
but i know that im just history
in your eyes
so say goodbye
to this life

notahero:

how come every time im watching my steps
i keep on losing my rest
oh i think im better off dead
i keep catching my breath

catching my breath w/ Epitomeoffailure (prod. dead spyro x 2001)

lyrics
the last breath in my chest
i still feel u even at my best
n still we do drugs n thats fine now
but the point of it all is to try to get thru this alone

please just save me
cuz i am under attack
i cant believe i thought u were better than
any other person inside of my life
baby thats why i been drinking tonight
i dont wanna feel u anymore
i dont wanna see ur face no more
drown ur ghost out with the fucking bottle baby
i guess this night will make or break me

n all this liquor go right to my head oh my God
she said baby r u sure cuz thats a lot
i know what im doing bitch
i hated my life like way before u were a part of it ong
n i aint had no drink so my bro gon fill me up
n u aint take nothing from my life except my trust
n i dont feel nothing still this bitch gon try to feel me up
rolling that big blunt ash fall on the ground n just turn to dust

but still we keep living in this fairytale world
one where we though away our lives for some girls
so we drink some more n then we sit there broken
if these problems make us stronger how come im an addict
how come im an addict
fall apart when u turn me on
okay i kinda like when u break my heart
so ill always pick up when u call
lil bitch im geeked right now so i cant even talk
my heads just in the clouds but i dont wanna talk to u anyway
waking up its a rainy day
lil bitch had broke my heart
but i dont wanna heart like anyway
relentless
in my head
i still feel u in my bed
when i take my last breath
i promise ill be happy that im finally getting rest
n all these drugs aint never gonna work
cuz they remind me bout the time i was in the dirt
but still i pour it up n it just make my stomach hurt
these dark green leaves i just mix it with some purpp

n all this liquor go right to my head oh my God
she said baby r u sure cuz thats a lot
i know what im doing bitch
i hated my life like way before u were a part of it ong
n i aint had no drink so my bro gon fill me up
n u aint take nothing from my life except my trust
n i dont feel nothing still this bitch gon try to feel me up
rolling that big blunt ash fall on the ground n just turn to dust

dr0wn (prod. Branwen)

s/o sendflowrs, afterlife, n jolst go check them out they deserve it
https://linktr.ee/prod.afterlife
https://instagram.com/prodjolst
https://youtube.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs
lyrics

falls coming soon
n i already knew
i would feel the same
that i did last june
getting drunk n high
im never satisfied
cmon pour me up my love
lets go for a ride
all these knives in my back i cant walk right
do i gotta think about that
look at the brightside
its fine
im still alive
although i dont wanna be
im just waiting for the time youll take my life from me

take ur time with me
baby its so hard to breathe
im hoping when u break my heart u take my life from me
n when i travel thru the dark would u follow me
because the airs getting colder
the airs getting colder
hate being sober
i hate growing older
i lost my composure
n now im falling over
pulled up in a rover
im leaving in a rover
passed out drunk
im bending over
i dont want u lying when ur looking right in my eyes
but how u play the victim if ur gonna be the bad guy
i dont wanna die girl i promise
i wanna stay right here cuz i love this

falls coming soon
n i already knew
i would feel the same
that i did last june
getting drunk n high
im never satisfied
cmon pour me up my love
lets go for a ride
all these knives in my back i cant walk right
do i gotta think about that
look at the brightside
its fine
im still alive
although i dont wanna be
im just waiting for the time youll take my life from me

(sendflowrs)
oh what a mess ive been
sleeping for weeks in this cold hard bed
i cannot breathe when u call again
n my heart it dies when u talk to him
shes holding me in
please let me go
where have u been
im lost all alone
n these woods are so cold
this lake is my home
if u couldnt swim
i would carry the boat
carry the boat
i swim inside this water like its my home
im drowning here please stay awake stay on the phone
i think ill perish here my baby girl
leave me alone

limbo w/ sendflowrs [prod. afterlife x jolst]

lyrics

they sleeping on me catching zzz
kiss me before i leave
just hit me one more time
im so high up cant even feel my body
just tryna find some space to climb
just know i love u baby until i die
ill go to heaven after suicide
ill be with u i just gotta find some time
pour me up
i cant stand on my own
its been hard for me to grow
for so long
no idea what to do when the night comes
melodies come
with every word from your tounge
i hear the angels song

they really dont care about my lifestyle
snakes in the grass now im fearing the reptiles
broke my heart into pieces im dodging projectiles
now i feel like a wardrobe im switching all my styles
now i lost everyone to the clout so i dont want it
alien technology im flying in a starship
starship

they sleeping on me catching zzz
kiss me before i leave
just hit me one more time
im so high up cant even feel my body
just tryna find some space to climb
just know i love u baby until i die
ill go to heaven after suicide
ill be with u i just gotta find some time
pour me up
i cant stand on my own
its been hard for me to grow
for so long
no idea what to do when the night comes
melodies come
with every word from your tounge
i hear the angels song

nautica [prod. Rubbish + Punk]

big thank u to @spookybands and beatsbydutchrevz
https://soundcloud.com/spookybands
https://soundcloud.com/dutchrevz

lyrics

this road getting too long
got me thinking bout the things that i messed up on
n i wasnt meant to learn
wasnt made for class
make best friends with a whiskey glass
rather hold a cigarette n my babys ass
guess life feels like its moving to fast sometimes

cuz blocking its the only way to heal my head
cuz being numb is better than being dead
n long before u get here ill make the bed
cuz Lord knos me n u need to get some rest
n people telling me to slow down
baby u kno that i dont wanna be alone now
smoking blunts got my lungs feeling old now
u warm me up im not affected by the cold now
n winters here so im feeling all alone now
heart been cold it got thrown out
its nice outside lets just go out
so much pain that i dont even tell u typa shit im happy u dont know about

you wont find me no
im probably a state away by now
in a bar with a whiskey glass in front of me
in a brand new fucking town
n im sorry yea
i aint figured anything out
when i try to get high just to pass the time
and i watch the sun go down
i did some cocaine in colorado
with a girl from san fancisco
she told me shes a ballet dancer
but i dont think she wanna dance to this no
watch me swallow all my friends like pills
i dont think that love exists no
but im traveling on this road here still
and i got no plan to quit no

cuz blocking its the only way to heal my head
cuz being numb is better than being dead
n long before u get here ill make the bed
cuz Lord knos me n u need to get some rest
n people telling me to slow down
baby u kno that i dont wanna be alone now
smoking blunts got my lungs feeling old now
u warm me up im not affected by the cold now
n winters here so im feeling all alone now
heart been cold it got thrown out
its nice outside lets just go out
so much pain that i dont even tell u typa shit im happy u dont know about

road w/ spookybands [prod. beatsbydutchrevz]

prod. https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer
lyrics

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

n u dont kno a thing ab me do u
im not looking in ur eyes baby i can see thru u
whats a demon in disguise when u show it the truth
all my problems get defied when i enter the booth
n if i had to live my whole life as a recluse
id ask for u n Gods forgiveness while im tying the noose
i dream about the day i wake up see my face on the news
im daydreaming bout u baby love the way u seduce
its a long way down so i guess ill hold my breath
i got fighter pilots n generals calling orders in my head
n even tho the knifes taken out
im still taking damage from the arrow head
i think i need a break from swimming in the deep
take a walk in the shallow end

idk

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

raindrops pouring out
baby can u hear me out
i like to listen to the sounds of the street when the sun goes down
i listen to the sounds of their feet when they play it loud
felt the smile creeping up baby cuz im drunk rn
i cant even lie i feel better when i cant see
cuz all my thoughts seem to stand still when im dizzy
take a ride with me we can sip plenty
all these headlights r blending in with the city

arrow head [prod. sorrowbringer]

s/o @kiddamo
lyrics
i hope that u love me
sometimes i cant even love myself
i want u to fuck me
then ill smoke the cigarettes on the shelf
n take me far away from all the thoughts n all the scary words u said to me
late this summer
oh i just need a friend now
i just need to calm down
i just need to lay down
n take some time to figure out

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

hear the liquor pouring imma fill another cup
cant wake up in the morning without nic inside my lungs
speaking bout all my addictions baby girl ur number one
n now im waiting for ur call
but i dont want to wait anymore
i just want to see ur face some more
come my way whenever ur bored
or ill be all alone
so pick up the phone
cuz i kno that ur home
n whenever we dont talk i feel it hurting my soul
n outside its too cold
so open ur window
like ur rapunzel ill climb up n then the night will unfold
sometimes i wish i was dead
but i dont want to see u upset so ill keep it all in my head
remember when we were friends
i knew u was something special thats why i have no regrets

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

soul shower w/ kiddamo [prod. irby]

lyrics
rn im so fucked up hope i make it to my bed
its one of those rare moments where i come to accept rest
n i pray u can accept me for who i really am
n ill show u all the thoughts n all the scars inside my head

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

new mistrust from the misuse
after everything im just still confused
i do drugs when i miss u
but i wont let it become an issue
but when im not high my thoughts try to kill me
when i sing u a song hope u forgive me
black tar on my lungs no healing
i dont need love no but it wont kill me
oh but it wont kill me
im writing this song rn n im sad as fuck im hoping u feel me
i still got pain from all my battles scars need u to heal me
im self destructive in my inner thoughts so i conceal me
n i see faces on the drive home
hit me on the iphone
girl just know i love u
im tryna right my wrongs
everything i do is for u dont leave me all alone
i can feel the pressure cracking down on my bones

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

ciroc [prod. branwen]

lyrics

a long time ago there was hope in my eyes
but now i just see whats in front of me
n if im not awake can u open my eyes?
n try to make me wake up manually

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

stop talking if this bottles my last drink i wanna make it count
i seem to think better when theres no one around
all i need is a smoke and the sun down
then i can make you proud
kid dont want fame he wants the riches
his wife and not the bitches
drunken swashbuckler im singing to the fishes
n i know when i die no one will listen but the mrs.
like woah
i traded all my friends for some peace of mind
i cant go outside tonight im busy making rhymes
but u dont need to worry baby girl im fine
its just one of those nights

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

drunken sailors shanty (jacob vallen)

s/o my brother https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

lyrics

i never been smart
dont worry bout me bae u got a good heart
i kno i will love u till my times gone
n no we dont got time to think about the time lost

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

im seeing violence when i close my eyelids
n we may struggle towards the end but death is silent
n she love asking why im drinking like a pirate
but when its all broken down
its just a science

(ford)
give me guidence
everyday im breaking down in the quiet
will it ever go away im steady crying
when u lie u overtaking got me dying
so indecisive
said im priceless then u say im violent
girl im trying
i dont gotta hide it
perfect timing
still wont stop the whining
so im reliant on the pain thru all the shining
but it make sense
all the times u broke me down n made me reset
made me realize all the cries were never silent
everything u ever said was only pretend
for no reason
i did my best to make sure u knew that i felt
every feeling in the world when i fell down
ill move away
go to town
find a new crowd
youd see what love was all about if u stick around
i know the truth now
it was over from the start
u a rebound
u could never reach my heart
such a let down
why is life so gd hard is this even allowed
is this even allowed

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

death is silent w/ brecken (jacob vallen)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

s/o @kiddamo
u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

frost bite covers my soul
i dont wanna be alone
it gets cold
when ur not at home
but i get so much warmer when u are close
yea it breaks me to pieces n i cant believe it
i dont kno why u always say that im tweaking
i hope im not right cuz then youll end up leaving
dont wanna put u in the past baby girl im speeding
monsters are creeping
i hear the floor boards creeking
tears dry no more weeping

u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

i really wouldve died for u tho
damn
i never should of cried for u hoe
so tell me why
why i wasted all of my time
i want to light up
see my past burn aways in the fire
no relief when i respire
thats all that i desire
i hate these people think id rather be a loner
im smoking weed until the end cuz im a stoner
like im saul silver

n she said u should call me when ur sober
but thats not in my plans baby girl
my words just getting slower
ill still be here when ur older
rhinestone love shining like the solar
dont wanna be sad anymore
i stopped smoking
dont hit the dab cart anymore
i dont got no friends anymore
i just drink alone
i dont wanna be here anymore

long gone 2 w/kiddamo (kaydo)

lyrics

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

life has a way of spitting u out in the dirt
now im crying with the germs n the worms
n im tweaking cuz i dont kno my own worth
im making music just to let u kno im hurt
the wise man lies
scares me so i close my eyes
n i see my whole life fly by
walking by
i kno its not the same for u
ive given up my whole brain for u
so i cant even think unless u want me to
i think i need a drink to get me in the mood
cuz i dont have no moods
can i see u
i kno that its poison i put myself thru
girl i kno u want the best for me
ill feel the best eventually

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

box (jacob vallen)

i got too many pics on my line
i got too many thoughts on my mind baby
we dont see the same now i feel blind
i been making songs just to pass time baby
she dont want me singing like that
she dont want me feeling like that
baby i got scars on my back
i got weed in my lap
i got ur head in my lap
the whole room claps when i snap
but im gonna cry when i get back
i will cry when i get back
baby i cant call u if its night time
please dont let me hold u back if its not the right time
we only live once so i want u to have a nice life
every time we argue feel like im the one to break ice
i dont live the same life
bae i dont expect u to save mine
if tonights my last night u kno imma pray right
baby ill be okay u dont gotta stay like
im a grownup these things shouldnt waste time
i spend hundreds on programs to perfect the voice lines
but u say i sound best when i sing on car rides
i think its ironic how the only way that i can say my thoughts to u
are all in my files
i got lyrics for miles
void in personality
i fill it with style
angel numbers showing up
im waiting for the angels arrival
n i been crying so much lately feel like a child
havent seen u in a while

withdrawal broke my conscious
slowing up
pouring up
five missed calls im fucking up
all these texts ive been stalling
im sorry
its not u baby
its me
sometimes i feel like i can see the future
every day that i dont record i feel like a loser
i dont like people so i make money off my computer
catch me in the back of the party sipping shooters
i been trying to make some shit that sound newer
but every single thing i make just sounds the same it never ends
i kno life is beautiful but all i see is streets from my window
feel alone in a room full of people

blind  (p. Elvix)

lyrics

its been a long time
been a long time since i thought of myself
i only think of u
im staying safe for u

i need a pouch for my gums
i need a patch for my lungs
i need a clamp for my toungue baby
i need a shield for my bones
when u call on my phone
its either a fight or its love baby

this the type of weather to make u do something youd regret
please dont take my picture cuz i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best u are
i may not be 100 but ive come this far
restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
u got it go ahead take my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i really feel strongly even tho i dont express it

so much for a first verse
i dont save face tryna stay safe save me in the dirt
got ur head down inside the sand only take it out when u lurk
i gotta find a new style nothing works
im drunk can we go home baby
i need to find peace in my self but i cant
i need to find peace in my self but i cant

this the type of weather make u do something youll regret
i cant take my picture
i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best that u think u are
amazing how i came this far
im restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
i think its time that u wrote my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i know i have trouble showing my love
thats why i make these songs for u

deadmanwalking (p. michael harrison)

lyrics

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

she asked to lay on my chest
think she trying to map out my heart before she stab it
if u dont want to start a fire dont play with matches
cuz im not gonna be the one to clean up ashes
baby dont look at my back thats right where the gash is
i dont want to wait a week to see u thats too long
i remember hot nights i would dream on the futon
n i remember way before u baby i would do wrong
n now i stay alive to show u n my two friends my new songs
but how am i still alive i dont even got my two cents i screw up
pretty much everything that i see n i touch
i hope that u dont ever realize im not much
but im trying
im trying

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

kill it with fire (king theta)

s/o my buddy @brecken
lyrics
power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i gave it up but its stressing me out
u in her dms but im in her house
said she in love with the way that i shout
its the way that i sound
just bring me back to the ground
i got heavy eyes
i dont call nowhere home
but im comfy inside of her thighs

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i wish that u could kno how every night u make me feel
i dont buckle up when im in my whip but i steer
yea u make me fear
was it ever real or was it all just a lie
but i cant take it anymore
is there any surprise
i was down on the floor
n u looked me in my eyes
u said its all gonna be fine
i said i hope its alright
i guess ill stay here tonight
i guess its one more delight
its okay if u dont want me back
just kno that ill be here forever
its okay if u stab me in my back
baby girl ur messing with my temper

power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

calling my bluff w/ brecken (cløud x heyrick)

prod. idly blare
lyrics

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

i miss smoking tobacco
i gave u my gun with no ammo
just to see what u would do if one day i let go
u pulled the trigger back n hurt me little by little
its fucked up but nowadays dont sleep at all
im paranoid that one day u wont catch my fall
i kno its all my fault
but i gotta finish what i started
i dont even like recording make me sick to my stomach
i dont like what i make
n i dont like how u say that u like what i make
happy birthday
hope u got what u wanted
so happy
but i continue falling

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

your eyes can actually shoot lasers if you try hard enough (idly blare)

i dont think u understand
what i meant when i said that theres parts i want to fix
i was talking bout myself cuz i saw me turning out different than this
kiss ur lips
fight for the hell of it
be content for a little bit
shes an angel
she fell from the sky
n ur arms feel like heaven where i lie
its a beautiful place to die

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

i dont think u understand 
give in to ur every demand 
i dont think u understand 
give it all the energy i have 
i feel it inside
cast it aside
our feet in the grass
think i turned to a ghost
i would stay by you when it hurt most
a swing n a miss
man was i ever close?
been on my mind i dont know if it shows
i dont think u understand
give in to ur every demand
i dont think u understand

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

fel w/ evergarden (nathan p)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

another life w/ lil booj (p. king theta)

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

lyrics

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

so ill kick rocks in my head
i guess
im numb
i think my minds gone

i know im too much sometimes
its all right
im all right
break me till im hollow
and come see me tomorrow
i found conscious inside of the grotto
magic in a cup
im lost in a bottle
drunken sailor
im not drunk right now
just give me some time
give me some time ill be fucked up by the end of the song
ill give you a rhyme that youll like and youll want
this isnt the song that you play in your car
its the type of song you listen to when all hope is lost
youre punching your walls
theyre not picking up calls
im nothing without you baby i cant even walk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk

im so sorry every lyric sounds the same i met you at the party
big brown eyes but you want to be barbie
baby youre so perfect
i dont need anybody else
i dont need anyone else

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

chalk (p. michael harrison)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

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