this song makes me so emotional bro, fr when that end part kicks in i get teary eyed every time

need more releases from you bro 😭😭😭 god im so in love with ur music

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

prod. sunshowers

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else?! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away!, stay away!,
theres something thats been off today..
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days.
i cant see any how else
no way.. !
people tell me how else

i know this isn't, and i know youre kidding
you took!,-
damn near everything i had to barely call myself
i cant stand myself! <3
drowning in myself! < / 3
I DONT NEED NO HELP!
thats what i told myse-e-elf. . ...

ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ǝɯ llǝʇ ǝsɐǝld
ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ʎuɐ ǝǝs ʇuɐɔ ᴉ
to get out of this mess,
to get out of my head,
i think i just need rest..

i cant see any how else
...
people tell me how else
...
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week. .

yh, yh,
get away, GET AWAY,
I really fucking h*te this place!
im changing up my day today,
and i know it wont change anything at all♡..
i try, i guess, but who am i?
fuck all the complications,
read the text, now my heart's racing!
hideaway, hideaway, yh :c
its time to question everything, yh!! ;c
dont turn back now,
you can slow down,
smoke that roach now,
blow that smoke out,
to clear my mind drought,
set the sun out..

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away, stay away,
theres something thats been off today
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days
no, way..

last week

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

go away (sorrow bringer)

Lyrics

wishing on stars every night
cosmic the light from your eyes
it hurts so much when we say goodbye
But i know were better with time

and if i could hold you tonight
I know that id be alright
And Id know that im still alive

Id know that i

And if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

and if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright 
know im alive

you’re best alone for the week
Cos i know you’re fed up with me
You say “its fine watchyu mean”
But i think your lying to me

And if i 
Could hold you tonight
id be alright
id know im still alive

Oh if i
Hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

alive (theoptimist)

dedicated to my grandmother

Lyrics: 

i can feel my chest cave now 
it’s hard to breathe when my body’s layin face down
let me know 
when the decision you’ve been hidin in your mind becomes actionable 
and this feels like my last good night in a while
i’ll grab the brand new spark out the fire 
and i hope the x-rays come back clean
cause i don’t wanna explain what it means

when my cavities won’t open right
while i lay in bed just barely graspin at life 
i want you to make the decision 
cause i don’t think that i couldn’t lie

i can feel my chest cave now 
it’s hard to breathe when my body’s layin face down
let me know 
when the decision you’ve been hidin in your mind becomes actionable 
and this feels like my last good night in a while
i’ll grab the brand new spark out the fire 
and i hope the x-rays come back clean
cause i don’t wanna explain what it means

[ do not fear death
death always at our side
when we show fear 
it jumps at us faster than light
but when we do not show fear
it casts its eye on us gently ]

i don’t feel right
but i’m alright
i don’t wanna make you worry when i know you can’t say a thing 
just keep me company
hold me while i breathe
at least while i still can
cause i know that even when you don’t say it i know that you love me
and i know that i won’t be there for you but i promise that i’m always
right next to you

i can feel my chest cave now 
it’s hard to breathe when my body’s layin face down
let me know 
when the decision you’ve been hidin in your mind becomes actionable 
and this feels like my last good night in a while
i’ll grab the brand new spark out the fire 
and i hope the x-rays come back clean
cause i don’t wanna tell you that it’s only weeks

coughin (raspo)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

check out evergardens music..
evergarden - https://soundcloud.com/evergardens

also check out aceys beats on YT - https://www.youtube.com/@prodacey

lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

lyrics ⬇️ 

it never happened like I thought 
oh no
all alone until I rot
they gon pick apart my bones
I don’t need another slot
jus to fill a stupid spot and then screw up on the plot
ima roll up with with dawgs don’t you tell me I should stop
you don’t know what’s goin on. 
yea it’s not ur job

there’s opportunities everywhere 
i could keep going on
but I cut like silverware 
so now days I don’t want you to stare
i wish that we got along
but we’re not a perfect pair

yea why can’t you see way beyond the pier
i don’t appreciate all of the pressure here

it’s catching up to me
i think they want me dead
do they want me here
or do they want me there instead

I tried to show I want you less
cuz that’s the truth
Then you treat me like a pest
but don’t tell me what I do

what’s new
it’s an issue 
how I’m lost
with out you

i never the kind of cost
shoulda thought this through
cuz you ripped all of my wants and needs in two

what’s the obvious answer?
i don’t need you 
fake it with laughter 
but how can they prove
I can’t wait til after ik what to do
and I hope that she’s flattered when she hears the news

beyond the pier w/ decks (flesh x jolst)

no tricks up my sleeve w/ spookybands (king theta)

lyrics//

{halfhearted}
see the rain coming down and i wonder why,
why you took me out the game and you’re switching sides?
we both know we’ve been here before
put a knife in my back, pull me off the floor

they don’t know where i’m going
got a winter coat wrist froze from the snowing
you were how i cope 
i don’t need an oxycontin 
but when you let me go lonely roads i found hope in

used to get so lost in your eyes, now they haunt me
heard you found some other guy, but he’s not me
hope you have a wonderful life
i hope you have a wonderful life 

you can try the best that you can 
i’m still standing
heard he put a rock on your hand
that’s outstanding 
i don’t have no words left to say but i’m sorry
he can put a smile on your face, i’m still calling

it’s a long and winding road
and the ropes they got me choking
wrapped around my throat
with the words we left unspoken
you can try the best that you can i’m still standing
i heard he put a rock on your hand


{Greenwood}
off the side of the shipwreck
tracing in the sand what we did best
it's just hard when you live less
than i did this time last year and i miss it

moments encased but i feel this place like a prison
yeah you said that you're the same but we did shit that he didn't
couldn't talk to your parents i know they think that i'm different 
i'm just going through the motions, i thought this one was bigger

there's a wrong way to tell you
on a park bench in Bayview, i let the waves through
wrong way to tell you
i just hope that it happens again

maybe i triple up my output
started selling theses beats
put like most of it aside to buy you shit that you need
yeah i heard he's on some primo shit with cash he could waste
just to buy you shit you want i wish that i could relate

i heard he put a rock on your hand w/ Greenwood [wisssery & cxrter]

Lyrics: 

Get up
Get out
Gotta make a change
Take control
It's time to rearrange
In this life
No one else will save you
Gotta put yourself and your dreams ahead

Work hard
Hustle every single day

No excuses
Ain't no time to play
Be your own hero
You're the only one
Take care of yourself
Don't rely on anyone

Wake up
Rise up
And face the sun
Embrace the challenges
Let go of what's done
Protect your heart
Guard your mind
Leave the negativity and doubts behind

No excuses
Ain't no time to play
Be your own hero
You're the only one
Take care of yourself
Don't rely on anyone

Piano instrumental


No excuses
Ain't no time to play
Be your own hero
You're the only one
Take care of yourself
Don't rely on anyone

No excuses
Be your own hero

Be Your Own Hero

rock bottom

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as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

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