but they don't know nick <3 such a good bar

lyrics

I hope u been well
i hope u eat well
I think I got myself addicted 
to that tree smell
I know u mean well
But I don't need help
I find myself inside this drink
I feel my heart swell 

I'm back on my shit back on the drink
Turn up these cups while I'm lighting up blunts
And I'm all in my job all with the gang
No need to rob either way we get paid
It's something do, blow smoke till I'm blue
And if I've got this time then I'll spend it with u
It's all the time now
i spend it with all the lights out

back on my own i been ready to go
life in the gutter’ll make u miss home
i know i need u
but honey i’ll never admit to
memory shorter whenever i smoke
this isnt healthy oh baby i know
i cant ever leave u
but you’ll probably tell me i need to

but i dont wanna wanna
i been tryin rly hard
n i dont wanna wanna
its gettin harder every day
n i dont wanna wanna
yea u can ask if im ok
i hope im gna b
thats what i wanna b

lover lover
uve always had a knack for placing blame on
others 
others those eyes are shining and shes quite the up and comer
comer
why she always tryna fight its such a bother
bother
placing faith in others

i hope u eat well ft. decks (jolst)

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

s/o sendflowrs, afterlife, n jolst go check them out they deserve it
https://linktr.ee/prod.afterlife
https://instagram.com/prodjolst
https://youtube.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs
lyrics

falls coming soon
n i already knew
i would feel the same
that i did last june
getting drunk n high
im never satisfied
cmon pour me up my love
lets go for a ride
all these knives in my back i cant walk right
do i gotta think about that
look at the brightside
its fine
im still alive
although i dont wanna be
im just waiting for the time youll take my life from me

take ur time with me
baby its so hard to breathe
im hoping when u break my heart u take my life from me
n when i travel thru the dark would u follow me
because the airs getting colder
the airs getting colder
hate being sober
i hate growing older
i lost my composure
n now im falling over
pulled up in a rover
im leaving in a rover
passed out drunk
im bending over
i dont want u lying when ur looking right in my eyes
but how u play the victim if ur gonna be the bad guy
i dont wanna die girl i promise
i wanna stay right here cuz i love this

falls coming soon
n i already knew
i would feel the same
that i did last june
getting drunk n high
im never satisfied
cmon pour me up my love
lets go for a ride
all these knives in my back i cant walk right
do i gotta think about that
look at the brightside
its fine
im still alive
although i dont wanna be
im just waiting for the time youll take my life from me

(sendflowrs)
oh what a mess ive been
sleeping for weeks in this cold hard bed
i cannot breathe when u call again
n my heart it dies when u talk to him
shes holding me in
please let me go
where have u been
im lost all alone
n these woods are so cold
this lake is my home
if u couldnt swim
i would carry the boat
carry the boat
i swim inside this water like its my home
im drowning here please stay awake stay on the phone
i think ill perish here my baby girl
leave me alone

limbo w/ sendflowrs [prod. afterlife x jolst]

no capital letters

prod by caves
completely non profit

lyrics

her brown eyes are warm
n my tired face is worn
my shaky hands are torn
but her brown eyes are warm 

its a quarter past 1 and im high us fuck
im just thinking bout the weekend when my darling comes 
i gotta breathe, let out hatred in black sludge
now its april and im wondering, the fuck is up?
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs
(i need new bed springs) 
voddy n cran rip a bowl n get headspins 
(you bring better things)
ill take the train if u want we should lock in
(lets go, lets lock in)
winter weather just feel like wisconsin 
(wont fold, im all in)

winter weather just feel like wisconsin 
ill take the train if u want we should lock in
winter weather just feel like wisconsin
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs

catching trains again
trekking through the mountain air
this time through the south instead
from her eyes i wipe the hair
double down and vault the stairs
ill be there when no one cares
light my stoag and ponder there
out back with my vacant stare

its a quarter past 1 and im high as fuck
(i need new bed springs)
im just waiting for the weekend when my darling comes
(u bring better things ) (with my vacant stare)
i gotta breathe let the hatred out in black sludge
(lets go, lets lock in)
now its april and im wondering the fuck is up
(wont fold, im all in)
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs 
(ill be there when no ones cares)

im all in

wisconsin (caves)

produced by triple gemini (soundcloud.com/trplgmni)

something else left to say here
i don't know what
everyday left to change pace in the dark
holding out for the first time that we go back straight through
the streetlights from the backseat of the car
and i'm deeper again
i pour it straight and its days gone
you couldn't notice and then (couldn't notice again)
i think i'm losing myself (think i'm losing myself)
and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

do you think its the same thing
or you think that its gone?
cause its only worth saving
if its you that i've got
and i know that the waiting
gets inside of your thoughts
and the time that its taking
makes it feel like its wrong

thought that we'd do it again on the same street
making nightmares out of daydreams
june as cold as my face feels
but its easier when you hate me
i just always thought it was safe here

and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

tell me again how it gets in your head
i'm just leaving its better this way
i'm just a second away
i'm just a second away
what would you call that?

read through the texts, do you wonder instead
why i'm making it easy again?
i'm just a second away
saw how it ends when you stay
and i wish we could fall back

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

Somewhere Else (prod. triple gemini)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer
lyrics

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

n u dont kno a thing ab me do u
im not looking in ur eyes baby i can see thru u
whats a demon in disguise when u show it the truth
all my problems get defied when i enter the booth
n if i had to live my whole life as a recluse
id ask for u n Gods forgiveness while im tying the noose
i dream about the day i wake up see my face on the news
im daydreaming bout u baby love the way u seduce
its a long way down so i guess ill hold my breath
i got fighter pilots n generals calling orders in my head
n even tho the knifes taken out
im still taking damage from the arrow head
i think i need a break from swimming in the deep
take a walk in the shallow end

idk

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

raindrops pouring out
baby can u hear me out
i like to listen to the sounds of the street when the sun goes down
i listen to the sounds of their feet when they play it loud
felt the smile creeping up baby cuz im drunk rn
i cant even lie i feel better when i cant see
cuz all my thoughts seem to stand still when im dizzy
take a ride with me we can sip plenty
all these headlights r blending in with the city

arrow head [prod. sorrowbringer]

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

s/o @kiddamo
lyrics
i hope that u love me
sometimes i cant even love myself
i want u to fuck me
then ill smoke the cigarettes on the shelf
n take me far away from all the thoughts n all the scary words u said to me
late this summer
oh i just need a friend now
i just need to calm down
i just need to lay down
n take some time to figure out

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

hear the liquor pouring imma fill another cup
cant wake up in the morning without nic inside my lungs
speaking bout all my addictions baby girl ur number one
n now im waiting for ur call
but i dont want to wait anymore
i just want to see ur face some more
come my way whenever ur bored
or ill be all alone
so pick up the phone
cuz i kno that ur home
n whenever we dont talk i feel it hurting my soul
n outside its too cold
so open ur window
like ur rapunzel ill climb up n then the night will unfold
sometimes i wish i was dead
but i dont want to see u upset so ill keep it all in my head
remember when we were friends
i knew u was something special thats why i have no regrets

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

soul shower w/ kiddamo [prod. irby]

a trace of me
spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
at anytime in any form you please

maybe we take enough to miss the signs
i couldn't handle another night
held in your prescence in coastal light
glimpse of your life its been all of mine
i take it in and i come to life
i make a move like its justified 
fuck it all up for the hundreth time
travel your thoughts and its hard to find

spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
when you come home its easier to breathe

i wonder how its different second time
funny how it changes in your mind
stumble through the wreckage of your life
numb yourself to make it out alive

all that you are
just as all that i want
find me closing the door 
see me turning it off

something wasn't funny but i could not change like
i've been outside in a fucked up brain
felt so much that i could not say
when it gets this dark never goes away
i start getting tired of it
all in my thoughts its just siphoning
all of my life im inside of it
we should have died but its fine its only me

spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
when you come home its easier to breathe

but i would take it back now if i could
tuning out my senses just enough
and yeah i know we all think way too much
searching for a trace of what it was

By the Sea

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

(prod. wisssery)

can we see each other one more time
your face in my mind
my heart racing fast as you sit by my side
oh i miss this
i wish time sticks to this

oh, you can be the one 
you dont need to run
ive been feeling numb
you got me stunned oh x2

its the way your flip your round me
little things like staring at me 
i didnt wanna fall inlove
but i guess thats how i see things
need to steady my breathing
i wanted this to be the last time
i cant help my feelings

so what do i do
where do we go from here
i dont wanna end this in tears
i see everything clear - now

love is a drug to me
addictive its not a want  a need
with you its different 
i give submission to ya

im falling to the ground
im falling down hard
if i see u with someone else
it'll hurt like hell
am i hard to understand
just look at my hands love
im shaking
aint no going back now

oh, you can be the one 
you dont need to run
ive been feeling numb
you got me stunned oh x4

i've been feeling numb (wisssery)

rock bottom

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