THERE'S TIME I DON'T THINK I REALLY FEEL I'M ALIVE

shizu you gon have 1 trillion plays one day

produced by decks

completely non profit

loveless 'til I die.

lyrics 

when I dream I see ur features
layered on the reapers
I just see ur face everywhere I go
I let her gut me like a creature
bourbon on my sneakers
only spilt my drink as she stole my soul

when I dream I see ur features
layered on the reapers
I just see ur face everywhere I go
I let her gut me like a creature
bourbon on my sneakers
only spilt my drink as she stole my soul

me and my boys we put down litres 
drinking til' our teeth hurt
we were born with addict carved in our bones
and when I dream I see ur features
layered on the reapers
I just see ur face everywhere I go

I'm a silhouette
of a tree in a storm
smoking cigarettes
got a couple thou
plan on saving it 
I been working hard
I been feeling it
n u just filling in
n I'm just mixing in
I worked 60 hours this week
n I'm still singing it
if that's not living it
then who knows what it is
work towards a future 
tho I do not plan on seeing it

when I dream I see ur features
layered on the reapers
I just see ur face everywhere I go
I let her gut me like a creature
bourbon on my sneakers
only spilt my drink as she stole my soul

me and my boys we put down litres 
drinking til' our teeth hurt
we were born with addict carved in our bones
and when I dream I see ur features
layered on the reapers
I just see ur face everywhere I go


layered (decks)

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

prodbylxcid

https://youtube.com/@prodbylxcid

i need the beamer, i need the wagon 
and i need the porsche 
money it comes real quick 
but leaves just as fast when u take a loss
girl keep hitting my phone
she need me now
i carry a cost 
whip straight thru LC im hittin up graff 
and buyin the lot 
pinewood in my cup
i’m pourin it up
i cherry the drops 
i can’t hold shit down 
i’m sorry my girl
i travel a lot 
i got expensive tastes
i ran in the spot 
and took out the crop 
im on my elden ring
i run up on opps
and slaughter the boss 
slaughter the boss 
i 
i’m sippin on care+ high up
don’t talk shit you’re a liar
throw b’s only smoke fire 
pull up all black attire
strider, not from the shire
send 10k, hit my wire 
you’re bait don’t hit my line up
you’re bait don’t hit my line 

and i’ve been running 
to the money 
these guys try so hard  
tryna be gully
i’m pourin care+
sipping on honey 
please don’t come round me
tryna be funny 

cus i, i i, 
look back at life 
sometimes i cry
like oh my god i 
got by those many times 
i had to hustle by 
got greazy
i’m not tryin 
moncleezy 
have to buy it 
stay sleezy 
i’m not lying 
GTeezy
big supplyin
real platinum 
emerald, diamonds
switch watches 
when i’m flying 
dream big 
and u can buy it 
some man are broke and healthy 
some man are rich and dying 
45 i had to fry him
big wren otn gliding ✈️

ELDEN RING

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

(casperrr)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

posted, outside with extendos 
big bag, full of greens not no lettuce
in the stu with the homies good fellas
still sad but at least im feelin better

why u screamin whatchu fuckin mean 
i need real love not no rom of teens
i know im young but i was never a kid
nowadays im finding it hard 2 live

so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

(1fern)
talk shit & youre headed out the window
don't talk to me, you are not my kin-folk
2 9s yeah, we always hold akimbo
got your girl & she acting like a nympho

when i speak you respond on demand
empty ashtrays, fill em up again
so fucked up, i can't even stand
but she still askin me what's the plan

when i wake up, i'm feeling so lifeless
swear to God, i been feeling like a flight risk
can't speak cuz I feel like my brain broke
spending money on some green and a bespoke

seeing stars, even when i close my eyelids
all alone when the party subsided
i been lost & i know i been misguided
i don't really know where my fucking mind is

(casperrr + 1fern)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help

duality w/1fern (reijiro)

single off upcoming alb w/ @fleshgolem
music video out now 

produced by @taylor x @fleshgolem
mix & mastrd by @fleshgolem

lyrics

it’s uncertain
expressive on the good i’m not that person
purpose, look at me in my eyes tell me it’s working
keep searching for moments that ain’t in reach know ur not perfect anymore
coz it’s all just from ur lense 
u gotta seek deep in the source

we fighting the time
but fuck all the ticking don’t worry ur mine
functioning fine
tipping off wine
trips for the flicks 
don’t u worry bout dimes

deeping the trips on monday 
don’t get to see but i’m texting on runway
so it’s cool
going to this one place
it’s cool we might freeze it’s a long break
oh and the view
brains just a dumb maze
right on the brink every week then new phase
opens up
call it dumb luck 
but it’d be the same every path i was fucked

right from the start
a bruise on my heart
my brain never helped coz it had its own scars
developed like sars
like moving to mars
there was no escape 
just a suffering star

humble in past
now belief i’m off far
now need it consistent coz it can get dark
oh trust me it’s dark
still sits right next me but without could i right all these bars

this ain’t a gimic 
i’m writing these lyrics 
a book that won’t finish 
in this life time, no

you’re taking our pictures
i’m writing our scriptures 
we’re climbing these pillars
this is our life

so we should love it now
live it down
ill then pass the torch to those feeing drowned
swimming round
circle bound
hear me out, hear me out

i want change i’ll soon change my sound
i want to leave the dirt different ground
i’ll pave a way for those looking down 
i know where i’m at, i know where i’m bound

uh uh 
i need a lie down 
you see this life that i’m living
through, sound waves and vintage filtered pictures
but make no mistake oh
this message wont break mold

i could never tell u that i’m home 
id rather spent nights on the road
walking outside of the lines alone
and they’ll say you’re outta control 

objective so confusing 
still find my self cruising
this adventure so amusing
want for you
the best is all that i want for you not what i know

what i know
what i know
yeah i would talk more but i’d rather just see the seeds grow
 
i cant show u what i could do if i believed in myself more coz i already do

nothin to prove 
but nothing to lose
the setup is fucked but what can you do 
except choose
theres no wrong but thats up to you

our adventure

our adventure (taylor morgan x flesh) music video link in bio

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@fleshgolem
h0pe u enjoy <3
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lyr1cs:

u couldn’t make it up
i couldn’t if i tried
n i been stayin up
i wanna make it by
if i could grant 1 wish
i’d be right by ur side
look at the positives
i swear to god i’ll try

when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

sun sets on the east coast when i’m
breaking away from pressure
mess with the sheets, don’t bother me
(its not like i have a choice)
digress, all the details piling up
tell me its not forever
test: all my patience, what the fuck?
(you know that you have a choice)

so when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
(you know that you have a choice)
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table
(you know that you have a choice)

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

bird's eye [flesh]

spotify & apple music!

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

w1th0ut 4 tr4c3
v13wf1nd3r
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@jolst & @toobears
ft. @fantasycamp
art: @ejcarrmusic
ep soon...
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lyrics:

(decks)
i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

trail of tears where i lay
set to rinse and decay
i confess what i say isn't real
my image is homemade
but baby, we’re falling out
i can’t say how
lets live for now
i'm trying to see this out
i won’t look now
we’re upside down

i don't know how i got here
one step too far ur gone
i wish i had an answer

i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

(fantasy camp)
i'm looking out
but i can't seem to find you wherever i go
where are you now?
been a wreck since the night that you left me alone
so where you at? come and stay by my side
i won't forget all the nights that you cried
but you're the one that i need and can't find
now i'm falling behind
so can you save me? be my baby
goin crazy without you lately
maybe i'll just hit your phone and try to remind you
wherever i go, I can't find you

without a trace

viewfinder (ft. fantasy camp) [jolst x toobears]

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

she does what you never did
you don't know how hard it is
to wake up alone
if it's over it's funny it still makes you cold
when you know

that you couldn't step away
in hopes that a memory
of something you need, would ignite from the first thing
that i thought was real but it's not

and i said i'd wait for you
in silence and in solitude
if it can't get better
there's darkness ahead
but it's safer together
i'm gone

shake at the thought of you
i still think a lot of you
of things that you said
feel at home with the worst things i keep for myself

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
so i don't trust a fucking thing
the nicest face could do the same
i think about it everyday
i wish i never let you in

make it quick i'm still here waiting
lost my mind way back in Salem 
all at once you've only been all i want

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
wait for the day that your body decays
just to hear that they love you
cause they never will

Snow Cabin

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, guardin, atlas, noname

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

shizukesa.

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