kanas verse is one of the most beautiful things ive heard in my life

produced by tsurreal

I'd say its fine
but i know its not
but im use to that
oh my god
I'd say its fine
but i know its not
but im use to that
oh my god
☆
i would give almost anything
to be with
you just for a day
theres nothing i wouldn't do 
to be comfortable
spitting empty threats to the sky
to the sky
but they dont ever come back
it dont ever answer
it dont ever make sense
it dont ever not hurt
not hurt
the last thing that hurt the worst
was her last words
☆
yeah, her last words
her last words
oh my god
her last words
her...
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
oh, my, god.
☆

imy

her last words

confusion w/ hiraeth (switch)

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

dad can u remember me?

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

i think it’s time, i
finally stay the night 
and you can look your best
it doesn’t matter 
anything to me
i can’t do anything right 
i’ll zip up my lips cus
i don’t wanna lie to you 

so i’ll try, try 
until i cave in
in my sleep 
see familiar faces 
heart gone blue 
need ventilation 
all my bones shake with anticipation 
and you try but you cannot erase it 
time well spent, i be fillin these pages 
with pretty words that i thought would get her
i’m not the same as i was in december

my dreams are trying to kill me (bennykaay)

hearteater w/ skrwd (splashgang)

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

spotify & apple music!

i feel hypocritical 
ive been hanging out at bars a lot
its kinda cool but i hate to think about it cause its fucked up
the fact that i actually kinda find it fun
its like a trampoline for when you feel down
i understand the appeal now 
sing along to the songs that you love
and im zoned out 
for right now i guess its what lifes all about 


i give it a week before im over it 
why the fuck am i here?  dont have money to spend
theres a girl looking at me and i need her to fucking stop, honestly. 
i really hope i dont wake up tomorrow 
cause i dont know how much more i can handle of this problem 
i hope you know that im not having fun at all
id rather be anywhere but here now 
where’s my trampoline? 
bitch i feel down
feel it everywhere 
so i dont think i deserve to go anywhere 
everything you said makes sense now
you had your reasons to peace out 
and i get it 
i just really wish that youd never said it

trampoline (prod. pekarot)

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

prod @fleshgolem x @jolst
mix & mastr @fleshgolem

4th single on alb

lyrics

no name
looking in th mirror see the wrong face 
picking up the shards till i feel something
im a noone but im still something
so what th fuck am i doing here…oneway 

or another im find ima find a fucking 
something 
mayb already found it on this one way
but this line that i been takings a very closed space
im on my own pace

im running dropping seeds in forest
the crowd that ignores. wakes from their break
and they use all their force to take and just break
and i wait and i wait for the day 
they’re the same.

am i sane. am i sane
i grew up how i was supposed but im the one has to change
u make it obvious that im wrong coz u think i live for the pain 
do u not c i hold restrain 
its in the back of ur mind im sure 
but youll still look away

make me why i am then put me to the torch
first a threat but then the threat leads to a fucking war 
its the end of our time coz we form our source
i feel like an alien the way u react. am i speaking morse

contemplating on a fucking porch
look to the sky and u will stay on course
time moves slow when u dont want it to but thats just when find ur force

no name

no name (flesh x jolst)

•ᴥ• 2000
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suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

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