lyrics:
damn its been so long
ive been like sleeping every day man i feel so gone
i pack my wood and then i breathe until im so numb
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them
that fire burning on the wood look like a totem
if he was dissing on my bros we had to roll up
the things u said to me was venom like a cobra
im sorry baby i cant talk rn im so gone
they told me i should eat my greens id rather

i cannot deal with this
might aim at my head with a 40 clip
n i shouldve known u werent innocent
i dont understand not a little bit
i cannot keep going im sick of this
she told me pull up so im getting in
she told me im good n im getting rich
but at the end of the day im still sick of this
fucked on my bro now he dead to me
funny how u turn a friend to an enemy
funny how i keep on going no matter the pain no matter the amount of hennessey
might just make me a new melody
u gave me no hospitality
girl u just gave me hostility
doubt my ability
i crack a bottle n drink it
i cant feel nothing guess thats my ability

ive been like sleeping every day man i feel so gone
i pack my wood and then i breathe until im so numb
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them
that fire burning on the wood look like a totem
if he was dissing on my bros we had to roll up
the things u said to me was venom like a cobra
im sorry baby i cant talk rn im so gone
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them

i thought i told him, he been getting no love
im getting no love they eating my soul up
i cannot focus
with all these drugs in my brain i feel like im going insane
fucking my pain up
i been fucking my brain up
only know my name yea u dont know my pain yea yea
how could they change up for some pussy u not day one
n u not gang bruh u mean nothing to me u changed up

totem (prod. JabariOnTheBeat x Shah Major x Vs1lito)

lyrics

and baby could u come here pull me closer
im like way too drunk i need a chauffeur
im like oh my chest n oh my lungs hurt
i dont kno why u wanna fight why u want war
instead of holding me down
on the ground i got way too fucking high like just the other night
symbols poppin up inside my head just like some flashing lights
my bro just gut a wood n now he fillin it with some meteorites
im driving home so late n girl i cant see past the headlights
omg im tryna drive so please turn off the headlights
still drinking to forget about the times u made me feel right
n girl im outside
turn on the houselights just let me inside

just let me inside
i need a lullaby
i spark a wood it keep me warm on the cold nights
since she left i cant admit when im not alright
i live a fast life i dont live a safe life
n i thought that i needed u
i couldnt do it myself so ud push me thru
its so dark its so cold now
got no more friends i drink alone now

amiri jacket its ok i gotta stand tall
big bands big jordans imma ball
bro help me out i think im gonna fall
omg im goin off the walls
oh baby wake me up when theres sunshine
cuz right now im not seeing any lights
i thought ab her in the sky on a flight
i thought i couldnt miss her if i live a fast life

n baby could u come here pull me closer
im like way too drunk i need a chauffeur
im like oh my chest n oh my lungs hurt
i dont kno why u wanna fight why u want war
instead of holding me down
on the ground i got way too fucking high like just the other night
symbols poppin up inside my head just like some flashing lights
my bro just gut a wood n now he fillin it with some meteorites
im driving home so late n girl i cant see past the headlights
omg im tryna drive so please turn off the headlights
still drinking to forget about the times u made me feel right
n girl im outside
turn on the houselights just let me inside

headlights [prod. metlast x luffy]

prod. irby

lyrics
im not worth it
i been searching for a purpose

(n i cant go on much longer, cuz im afraid that youll just see me)

i been working
you been lurking
i been hurting
i deserve it
n ur perfect im not worth it
im certain i deserve it
i feel the summer coming gotta run it up
this productivity just part of moving on
i cant talk rn cuz drugs they got me gone
i rlly havent felt myself in so long

forgot ur face cuz its been so long since i saw u last time
n u showed me the light
i was so bright
what happened to my life
i wish that i could tell u but the timings never right
i remember saturday i was barely holding on
when i left that party i was lost in the dark
still feel lost in her arms
i still feel lost in my heart
i still feel lost in my life but i gotta push on
drugs im gone
i just wanna move on
but i cant restart
omg i think im falling down
bury me six feet inside the ground
im tryin even tho i cant get out
i cant believe that u would kick me when im down
moving too fast can we slow it down
im working on loyalty for when she not around
im working on self love for when no ones around
cuz ik one day that no one will be around

n i know its a hard life
i know its a fast life
im tryna do u rite
dont need me in ur life
n i miss the sunlight
oh i miss the sunlight
n i cant go on much longer
im afraid that theyll just see me for who i am
not who i wanna be

i been working
you been lurking
i been hurting
i deserve it
n ur perfect im not worth it
im certain i deserve it
i feel the summer coming gotta run it up
this productivity just part of moving on
i cant talk rn cuz drugs they got me gone
i rlly havent felt myself in so long

my car broke down on the highway (prod. irby)

prod metlast x luffy

lyrics

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

n ill keep taking all these shots until i cant even see
if u dont wanna hurt again girl then u gotta leave
im sorry that i cant do everything you want me to
it kills me inside knowing i cant die for u
greening out throwing up inside the alley
i dont wanna die right now but im not happy
n i know that im the only one that make u happy
but baby imma die alone its such a tragedy
i been losing sleep
got ur scent burned into my sheets
im pouring out smoke when i breathe
i know i cant love but i still wanna see u
i still wanna see u
i dont wanna leave u

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

double shot of my favorite vodka [prod. metlast x luffy]

s/o NAVYXOWER

lyrics

ok it seems like we wont get along
thats fine cuz im working better when im alone
im on the road
u kno that ill still be here in the morning
i been taking drugs now im soaring
u dont love me anymore im not important
lil baby cut me off without a warning

now im better alone
its been hard for me to see me
like everybody else say they see me
hold up let me roll another evergreen
crack a bottle its the only thing that help me
she be throwing me the cake like im starving
she kno im broken she kno that im learning
she kno im lost when the sun comes down
girl i promise i wont let u down
to be honest i dont wanna be around

(NAVYXOWER)

i dont wanna be around anymore
in the morning i keep going on my phone
asking questions every night that i get home, oh, oh
i dont wanna die anymore
i wish i could've said that last year
rollin my tea i was feeling like shit
i didnt know where to go in my business
i just wanna keep on listening
keeping tabs on my witness
i just wish it always sound the same
ill make a hundred songs and only one is gonna stay
i wish i had more times inside my morning just to make

(notahero)

now im better alone
its been hard for me to see me
like everybody else say they see me

she got mad telling me hero kiss my teeth
head still hurting from the nicotine
yea its killing my lungs but it help me breathe
i still got some alcohol on my jeans
wonder if they hear me call please help me
lost in the night, you kno i still cant sleep
got ur scent on my shirt n now its on my sheets
n all that i ask is that u please save me

in the morning (feat. NAVYXOWER)(prod. Sundwn)

stupid bitch

lyrics

in the back of the coupe im just sliding
i dont fuck with that girl cuz she lying
i just greened out now im fucking dying
throwing up my guts out n im crying
new drip looking sharp like a fucking trident
new drugs omg i might fucking die yea
i dont kno u please stay out my fucking life yea
i dont owe u shit except a fucking fight yea
im so fucking drunk right now
might pass out
on the fucking ground
u were laughing about me look who laughing now
they was fucking dubbing me look who dubbing now
all the smoke destroy my lungs so im coughing now
imma stunt until im dead in a coffin now

he was talking shit to me so we lay him down
so we lay him down
n we spinning round
yea we spinning round mary go round
i dont kno u
n i really dont wanna try to get to kno u
old bitch in the past damn like thats some old news
new bitch hit my phone like can u let me blow u
old friends hit my phone like dam im so below u
n once u show your true self people try to control u
thats why i just stay numb
having fun
smoking som
i dont know what im smoking on
but im gone
who the fuck she think she talking to like that
imma dub
havent felt my face in so long
or my heart

in the back of the coupe im just sliding
i dont fuck with that girl cuz she lying
i just greened out now im fucking dying
throwing up my guts out n im crying
new drip looking sharp like a fucking trident
new drugs omg i might fucking die yea
i dont kno u please stay out my fucking life yea
i dont owe u shit except a fucking fight yea
im so fucking drunk right now
might pass out
on the fucking ground
u were laughing about me look who laughing now
they was fucking dubbing me look who dubbing now
all the smoke destroy my lungs so im coughing now
imma stunt until im dead in a coffin now

s/o ebheat

evil eyes (prod. ebheat)

s/o kiddamo and jabarionthebeat
lyrics:
open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

but i dont like me
cuz i like it toxic baby it excites me
she wanna piss me off i told her ass to bite me
if i say i love u dont take that shit lightly
oh no
countless nights that i spend on my phone
fuck around message these hoes
told her pull up on the low
she smell my cologne
im taking her to bed make her moan
private hell its a good time
party all night with the demons up in my mind
grab the henny sit it right next to the white lines
now im falling to the ground cuz im too high
im lost but i found the drugs
now

open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

do u rlly like me
now im sitting alone
on my phone
im wondering where the hell r u
right now
like right now
baby can u feed me drugs right now

i been dying in the sunlight
babe i wanna love u i dont ever wanna fight
rlly cant help it that these drugs treat me right
i say im sorry mom as i die
this a private hell
this a private hell
custom built for myself
put the drugs on top of the shelf
rlly gotta stop hurting myself

private hell w/ KiddAmo[prod. jabarionthebeat]

s/o epitomeoffailure
lyrics

notahero:

how come every time im watching my steps
i keep on losing my rest
oh i think im better off dead
i keep catching my breath

i feel like u dont care anymore im sorry
its been many years since ive had anybody
its crazy how ur words shoot me down like the army
and im just forced to run and hide away in a hearbeat
remember everything that u said
never falling out of love i guess
had to fix up my heart and digest
that u dont love me no more
vomit falling on the floor
liquor running thru my pours
sweating thru my fucking shorts
are u high rn like bitch of course
im just waiting for the reup

epitiomeoffailure:

im holding my breath till i see the end
its good for me to know that ur not my friend
its hard for me to breathe when my wounds wont mend
and now im waiting for u to come back to me
but i know that thats not a possibility
i break my back just for u to show me some sympathy
and dont wait for me
and dont pray for me
but i know that im just history
in your eyes
so say goodbye
to this life

notahero:

how come every time im watching my steps
i keep on losing my rest
oh i think im better off dead
i keep catching my breath

catching my breath w/ Epitomeoffailure (prod. dead spyro x 2001)

@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

@strivemusicau
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(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up 

(strivesad)
I miss the stars and symphonies
My racing heart and pretty things
fell apart into my memories
So can we

taste it all it’s bittersweet
It’s me and her the remedy
it’s me and her that perfectly fit with the way that we’re living

The weak sleeps as she weeps through the wasted mental
state of mind while I’m wasting time it’s either now or the afterlife
and there’s a thousand ways of saying that I really tried 
I keep to myself almost every night 

I thought that you would notice
from the fake smiles on my photos
lack of seretonin I hope it comes back so I can focus on
the things I knew that got away
The pain my mind is suffering
I wish to see more better days
and focus on recovering

I’m holding onto to hope and
All the things that help me cope with
all the stress will keep me smoking
bacco cause the stress has got me going
flowing back into my old habits
I hate the fact I’m slowly sink into my old mattress

(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up

Thousand Ways w/ strivesad. [+ flesh x pekarot]

prod. https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer
lyrics

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

n u dont kno a thing ab me do u
im not looking in ur eyes baby i can see thru u
whats a demon in disguise when u show it the truth
all my problems get defied when i enter the booth
n if i had to live my whole life as a recluse
id ask for u n Gods forgiveness while im tying the noose
i dream about the day i wake up see my face on the news
im daydreaming bout u baby love the way u seduce
its a long way down so i guess ill hold my breath
i got fighter pilots n generals calling orders in my head
n even tho the knifes taken out
im still taking damage from the arrow head
i think i need a break from swimming in the deep
take a walk in the shallow end

idk

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

raindrops pouring out
baby can u hear me out
i like to listen to the sounds of the street when the sun goes down
i listen to the sounds of their feet when they play it loud
felt the smile creeping up baby cuz im drunk rn
i cant even lie i feel better when i cant see
cuz all my thoughts seem to stand still when im dizzy
take a ride with me we can sip plenty
all these headlights r blending in with the city

arrow head [prod. sorrowbringer]

rock bottom

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