Can’t grow if the grounds not yet fertile

it's hard

lyrics:
i scribbled symphonies of peace to cope with finding out the truth
worked as needed reaching what middle school me would think was cool
fiddling pens and pencils pensive wasn’t picky with the tool
i’d use for some naive translation of my angst and fragile mood

i can’t afford it now

growing pains replaced with what the bills are like in winter now
since the cold ascended i can’t shake the taste of poetry
phonetically imperfect pretty speech protruding out of me
im cramming syllables to cry of colder temps and picture books
reliving twisted memories romanticizing what it took
to be alive surviving prerip jeans and social trends
extending my insistence on reliving those remember when’s

it’s a fucked up toxic endeavor

middle child needs attention to feel valid who’da guessed it?
choose an evening to feel hollow with my grief i’ve been selective
been a lot of things over the years but never been objective
i’m a passive dude

some would call it sitting fence and when i’m honest i probably would too
at my expense i picked the easiest escape when i could
now im desperate to do something i should

cause there’s something bout finality that scares me
wavered care perpetuated the impression that i’m distant and aware
of ticking hours minutes seconds sticking strictly to my regiment
rejected any message i was yet to learn my lesson
started strong and i accepted that’s enough to use the leverage
and projected progress farther now it’s a little more than hard
to understand i’m on a limit always finish weaker than i started
know how to begin but stutter further in the tempo how ironic

looking in the mirror a song by melmige thank you for listening [prod. eeryskies]

Vails x Skele x The Sound Clown (Kind Regards)
🦋Production: The Sound Clown
🦋Lyrics: Vails x Skele 
🦋Master: Skele 

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Lyrics: 

(Vails)
Ohhh Won’t you send me you regards now 
I’m a better off
You’ve gone laid down all your cards now
You thought I bluffed?
Tried to come off you  for ages 
It never happend 
I went out and burnt the pages
Your diaries empty 
Now the memories are tainted
don’t let go
Of this last breathe that we gone share 
can’t cope to fold 
Oh My life’s a fuckin  nightmare 
You’re in control 
Please won’t you put all of the strings down
So I can mold a better life on my own

(Skele)
You know how bad it hurts…
You sit back, do your worst…
No I won’t bare to cry
I’ll wait for saving…

G-Grip hold of the knife, I hold it so tight 
My knuckles through water, praying I see u tonight 
There’s a leak on my life, I let out a soft side
I want you to be holding me as I die 

(Vails)
Ohhh Won’t you send me you regards now 
I’m a better off
You’ve gone laid down all your cards now
You thought I bluffed?
Tried to come off you  for ages 
It never happend 
I went out and burnt the pages
Your diaries empty 
Now the memories are tainted
don’t let go
Of this last breathe that we gone share 
can’t cope to fold 
Oh My life’s a fuckin  nightmare 
You’re in control 
Please won’t you put all of the strings down
So I can mold a better life on my own

(Skele)
Won’t you send me your regards now
gone laid down all your cards now 
You thought I bluffed 
tried to come off u for ages 
Don’t let go 

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Kind Regards w/ Skele  (Prod. The Sound Clown)

lyrics

Bonded to a soul I couldn’t see, blinding light
Every morning like funeral coz I’d thought she died
Itching off her skin that’s what she wanted in her life,
That’s not alright
You chose a wrong vice

Choose another path I’m not doing these fairytales
Change can’t come abruptly but shits changing anyway
Taken by the winds takes too long to get back in to place
That’s not alright
I’ll stop riding these tides

woahohoh
Been thinking bout my fate
And its not looking great
No I cant travel time
But I been thinking bout it lately, my mind is mostly drained
But this script is still right

Ive been here too long when I said take me
But this body I ain't wanted it quite frankly
She's gone now but she will come around the next day
Still she wont take my soul until I'm empty

Till I'm empty,
Id pick up all my shit and dip if I didn't hav this death key
A blade she holding lefty
She prepped the night but then she just went on and left me
Oh it hurts more than when its threatening

long nites

long nites. (jolst x keyblade808.7)

lyrics ⬇️

its not a problem til we wake up
botlles everywhere it’s dangerous 
you got tears all on ur make up
but i dont wanna hear whats made up

you been telling me some lies
 and i dont wanna live a life
where everything is made up
tnink we gotta make a change up
like
truth be told if you mess with a light bulb
then the darkness shakes you
you wont see no rearveiw

never thought so light of someone 
also thought youd be here in a month
all alone yea you dont hit me up
I been checkin on your profile like i dont see no one

Maybe this means that i lost now
every other app i look at i been blocked now
yea
i just hope you know what i had i been thru
ii been missin you like very night i miss you
I do

(notahero)

i’ve been sending u signals telepathically girl
can u hear them right before u fall asleep
i think everybody starts out as good
but i can see the evil that’s been shared by u and me
roll down the window i can’t breathe
i won’t partake in this hotbox
i’m certain
and u blow out
now there’s a wall of fog so i can’t see u
and this february, i could fall apart
and my eyes green to gray
they’re so heavy but
that’s what happens when ur messing with a lightbulb
i told her baby girl some things are better untold
i’ll see u soon girl don’t u realize it’s a cycle
and at the end of it she’ll say that i look better with my eyes closed

broken light bulbs w/ notahero & halfhearted (cxrter x vito)

cedar street w/ evergarden

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

lyrics

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

so ill kick rocks in my head
i guess
im numb
i think my minds gone

i know im too much sometimes
its all right
im all right
break me till im hollow
and come see me tomorrow
i found conscious inside of the grotto
magic in a cup
im lost in a bottle
drunken sailor
im not drunk right now
just give me some time
give me some time ill be fucked up by the end of the song
ill give you a rhyme that youll like and youll want
this isnt the song that you play in your car
its the type of song you listen to when all hope is lost
youre punching your walls
theyre not picking up calls
im nothing without you baby i cant even walk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk

im so sorry every lyric sounds the same i met you at the party
big brown eyes but you want to be barbie
baby youre so perfect
i dont need anybody else
i dont need anyone else

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

chalk (p. michael harrison)

p nova chance
co-prod me

im sick of the arguing
repeat myself loads
i cannot see myself in your shoes
i gave my heart to love you the most
what do i get in return i think nothing
you are just another you the same
but you keep repeating in my brain
nothing really satisifies
but no one really gets me like you do

you are bad for me
you are bad
i say blasphemy
hate to see you sad
nothing seems to be the way i want
telling you everytime you're the one i love
i want nothing but your love
i want nothing but your love
wanna feel something
like damn you
she said "what you wanting" 
girl i tried to tell you

ive been feeling total shit
im way out of touch
when your in a good mood
you say "come my way love"
if you wanted my heart i can give it to you
if you wanted my love you can get it too
but you want none of that
thinking bout the times
that we shared with each other
damn i nearly cried
im so confused with myself
ive been singing lullabies to myself

and oh
falling for the wrong one

im sick of the arguing
repeat myself loads
i cannot see myself in your shoe
i gave my heart to love you the most
what do i get in return i think nothing
you are just another you the same
but you keep repeating in my brain
nothing really satisifies
but no one really gets me like you do

like you do
(you are bad for me)
like you do
(oh your bad for me)
like you do
(oh your bad for me)

lullabies

long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play yhe victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

winter cold tells me something thay i dont know
wind chill on my heart sub zero word to homie nick i tried but not a hero 
tried to make a list but i left it up in reno
i don’t know whats gotten into you but i cant help but wonder why you lost our love 
i know im not enough x2

yeah i know its hard x2


long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play the victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

guess i couldn’t be your man
3 years gone now i dont know who i am
but i know its hard
but i know its hard

flesh [sorrow bringer]

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

~2300~
@itsbrvski

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