this is like one of the best songs that i can actually relate too. ✨

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

prod king theata 
lyrics

me:
last song, so baby keep it playing
my mom been sick of all the playing
iv been playing the part for too long now
i don’t wanna go i just wanna leave my hometown

when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up the phone

hated when i rolled up back then
and i never listened
i just wanna feel you smoke in my lungs
sorry for what happened
baby we were kids then, and iv always been on the run

like can i get up out the 864?
hate this town i don’t wanna live here no more
had me begging i was down on my knees begging please
don’t you walk right out of that door
when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up my phone calls
you don’t pick up the phone x2

spooky: 
you called me a lost cause
then you turned your phone off
iv been in a state of paranoia, feel like a brick wall
you used to be someone i loved 
now you’re just someone i pissed off
you just call me the problem
baby who the fuck got you locked up
iv been waiting round for years for you to tell me i’m the only one
that shit was as real as a folk song
this feel like the last call, at the bar up on long hill
i moved to California but you’re probably there still, uh

i hope the last songs one that you can’t hear
i hope you drive safe ima just steer clear
and growing up is just a cut that you can’t heal
and i know we were kids but why did all of it feel real?
might need a coat, you’re just like a storm 
and the years ain’t kept me dry

last song w/ spookybands

lights over camden
smile on the inside
planting flowers in the dirt on the road back
the parts of yourself that you don't like

but i could tell you, i thought it's obvious
(why does it always speak from the hallways?)
all about you, i wanted all of it
(why does it sound like you pretty often?)

move through the silence (last year)
your feet in the wet grass (can't hear what you say)
where inside this life was i supposed to find the time to make it all last?

years in the making
your hands always shaking
said just to trust you, said it feels amazing
why can't we know that?
why can't i know that?

just bear yourself for somebody else
just to recollect
i guess that there's nothing left
just the way you feel since like like seventeen
do you wonder why?
trying to close my eyes

Camden

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lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

lyrics ⬇️ 

there’s an institution that I been building in my 
Head 
i don’t pay no tuition instead I lay up in my bed
i put my thoughts in submission 
so that I could maybe get rest
life so explicit I hope that I could get the best

time slowed down
and then I look up at the messs
I know now that I was awful like the rest
shouldnt go out I gotta awful lotta doubt
i don’t know crowds but ima look around the town
Oh

yea I don’t know what else to say tho
done it to urself watch the pain grow

ten rows down from the person that could that say so
tough luck now look like you walk on a tight rope
more excuses everyday but who likes that
If I had time to go to waste
then maybe you would be back
Instead I chill at the lake sunny day I relax

and I got away from issues that you stab in my back 

No I can’t back track but I wanna move forward
and I don’t know what happened 
Or what happened before
you would always attack me I would fall on the floor

and this life is ever lasting so I wanan restore
 
all my horrible tendencies go away in the Forrest 
as the leaves fall and the branches crack I’m no longer sore
i watch the rainfall as it pours and I wanan explore
walk through all the fog but ima hide for the storm

are you even really sure that you wanna ignore
every night since the end of us it been a war
problems out the door ever since you cut the cord no no

institution (cxrter x tahtx)

lyrics ⬇️ 

every thing you told me was a lie
you can’t even look me in my eyes no more
once everything I wanted but now I been floor
i been dying from the torch 
i been flying thru the door

miss what we had
everything was perfect 
every night we would laugh
I don’t wanna burn it
cuz I’m honestly attached
god gave me a purpose
and you stabbed me in the back
why’d you do that

brand new mission oh I can't wait to get loaded in
ten more minutes til I'm out there counting dividends
yea
watch me mix it in tell me that there's more to this
before I forfeit, I don't need no more of this
I went to Florida with my family then I told them that
I don't feel much more like family when you give me crap
let me sit up by myself when I'm feeling sad
promise that ill come back i don't mean to make you mad

but never once did you ask me if I’m fine
i been smokin blunts so that I could ease My mind
every night it’s the same
I cant ever go to sleep
all the time try to change
but I never wanna leave

(casperrr)
going dummy at the function  
just so i can fuck shit
nah i can't fuckin function 
with the way u changed so quick
really thought you loved me
but i guess i was mistaken 
they way u kept pushing me back
hiding mthe fact u were taken

used to look up at people
and now most are at my level
all i have left is a house 
that's filled with air and our shadows
you left a hole inside my heart
turned from special to mental
like chaging howl for hollow 
i know it was not accidental

at this point i don't know what family is?
people stop caring about u when u stop being a kid 
i've been alone ever since i was 14 
left to deal with a bunch a shit, i don't know what i did
idk how i made it out
idk what it is
maybe i had more to do
maybe i was born for this
i just hope so cuz otherwise imma quit
life in general cause without music life is boring as shit

forfeit w/ casperrr (tiedforsilver)

lyrics

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

life has a way of spitting u out in the dirt
now im crying with the germs n the worms
n im tweaking cuz i dont kno my own worth
im making music just to let u kno im hurt
the wise man lies
scares me so i close my eyes
n i see my whole life fly by
walking by
i kno its not the same for u
ive given up my whole brain for u
so i cant even think unless u want me to
i think i need a drink to get me in the mood
cuz i dont have no moods
can i see u
i kno that its poison i put myself thru
girl i kno u want the best for me
ill feel the best eventually

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

box (jacob vallen)

for j<3

it’s been hard for me to be who i am
i got roots as my feet
telling me where to stand 

and part of me wants thinks it’s all just a plan
with the man up above got me in his hands

it’s been hard for me to build myself back up
play the part for me until all the lucks up
you saw the side of me that nobody could and
now ur calling me 
i wish that you wouodnt


now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed
and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard
but baby im losing control
break and i bend
how did it end?
thought we would make it farther
i never sent all of the texts and it only makes it harder
won’t let you see that part of me it’s all in my brain
and it’s been hard for me to feel cuz i just been so deranged
oh oh oh we gotta get better

 you saw the side of me that nobody else did and
now you’re calling me i wish that you wouldn’t
and now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard but baby im losing control

departed

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

cxrter, notahero, & backyard beetle - christmas was never this cold (prod. cxrter x tahtx)

produced by ushanka boy
featuring NAVYXOWER (@navyxower)
mixed by navy & epitome
mastered by teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics

well…
i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

those cold lonely nights
drove me to insanity 
i didn’t put up a fight
for you and that drives me crazy 

what the hell was every supposed to do
i didn’t have a clue
this shit left us confused
but that’s okay we’ll work it out
there’s no need to cry now
wipe your tears, i love the sound
of your voice there’s nothing that

could replace you
you’ve always been the one i choose
there’s nothing left for me to lose
so you have to know these feelings are true

NAVY

baby i could do it better yeah i swear to beup at night i see you walking past my house theres plentyplenty times where i need you in my bed with mewhy is life never really even fair to mebring me back to another timeanother era another life  where i can say i feel alirghttime goes by really fast in the nightand when your with the ones you love the most, time just really flysfly carefullyi pray to god ill see you eventaullyi miss everything you said to mei hate goodbyes theyre not meant for me



well, i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

i have someone now w/ NAVYXOWER (ushanka boy)

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