Blonde Bimbo

you're on the phone 
with someone who doesn't know 
about your soul and how it 
can't be held by flesh and bone 
and i guess that's fine 
i would never want you to 
stop your life 
but when i saw you both 
with your shoulders touching 
sitting so close 

i knew i'd hold on to this feeling 
i'd hold on to anything at all 
was it my fault 
because i easily confused you 
for someone who would hold my hand 
when things got hard 
when things got dark 
because oh my god 
when they get dark 
they get so dark 

you were always a shitty friend 
and you would leave when i got sick 
you never called me on my birthday 
i want to call you on your birthday 
so i'll hold on to this feeling 
i'll hold on to this hate 
for as long as i need 
for it to help me

learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism

teenage hurt

A Different Age

In A Year Of 13 Moons

Alabama

Way Out Here

see myself in a screen
wasting days, counting weeks
getting more familiar with how you speak
while you're away from me
but i don't want to say goodbye
because it's safer when i'm by your side
i want to be near you
like i'm meant to

but hey
i think it's going to be alright
when we're sleeping and i'm by your side
i want to learn to fly
but it's safer when i stay inside

i want you
but the monster
won't let me
escape here

by your side

if u wanna stay

Lonely 
Why do you get so lonely 
Its only when I'm not around 
And it happens all the time 
It happens all the time 
It happens all the time 
So kill yourself 

Honey 
I hate to see you cry 
Its only when I stager by 
And it happens all the time 
It happens all the time 
It happens all the time 
So kill yourself

2013

Under the Influence

I feel nervous every day of my life 
It gets worse the longer I'm alive 
Nothing feels right 
For no reason 
I don't understand 
Why you're leaving 

Is it real is it all just in my mind 
Will I be this way until I die 
Nothing feels right 
But I'm trying 
I don't understand 
Why you're crying

In A Year Of 13 Moons

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