just finding u and this song, so fucking hard

production+guitars by me & @oakscreen
feat. @heavenindaclouds

why am i so annoying
toxic all the time like i'm poison 
talk down n his corpse will be floating
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 
why does everyone ignore meh
same thing every day its so boring 
idgaf i'm still hoping
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping  

toxic all the time like im poison 

ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 

and im pacin around my room 
cuz i dont kno wat to do
n i thought u were my friend
and u said u loved me 2
i guess true love isn't true
oh my god what should i do
gonna throw up on my shoes (x2)

@heavenindaclouds :
see you staring in the glass with a mean face
i can't see shit i cant see straight now
yea you talkin love we gon' be late now
that's a mistake
i been dealin with shit since i was young 
i'm just tryna have some fun
you could take all this shit back without a gun
you ain't the only one
said you wanted love 
want it all 
but you didn't wanna make a friend 
not at all
you said you taught me lessons taught me more 
i don't really think i get the message anymore
cause ive been thinkin bout love 
is it me or is it trust (x2)
~~
big thank you to oakscreen

stream

coping w/ heavn

i guess i'm homesick

⭐️ lyrics:

Lock myself in my room again
When I'm alone I can play pretend
That you're with me, laying in my bed
I guess some things are better left unsaid
You don't know how much I miss you
What more can I do?
I just wanna kiss you again and again, and again

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm homesick
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Till I can't feel a thing

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Till I can't feel a thing

But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay

But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm homesick
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Til I can't feel a thing

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Til I can't feel a thing

homesick

prod @lynyou @trustt @omgisai
video / visualizer: https://youtu.be/W2jl_vXwRsc

lyrics:
@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@trustt
close my eyes and i still see you there
but i still stay walkin round im the man yea
but you dont really know that yet
so you dont really know a thing about me
runnin round the town with my head fucked up
i cant find my phone think im boutta throw up
i said fuck all your friends and fuck what you heard
yea fuck all your friends they belong in the dirt

closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

need me

[track3]
prod. me

lyrics:

tell me that you love me
i tell my friends that i love them more
tell me that my life will change
destroy me to the core
(just make me feel)
-
upside down 
right side up
cant feel shit 
its been so long
its not enough
not enough
not enough to fix me

[-1]

outline(practice)

[track5]
prod. me

lyrics:

photographs on my doorstep
i don't know, did i misstep?
ima ask do you love me?
it's a trick question
but i couldn't ever tell you
not now
not now
not now, ever
-
(the answer)
you said make a move, this a tryout
so tell me why the fuck i'm out here dried out 
so tell me what the fuck it is you missed out
cuz it seems like an excuse for you to leave now
-
ima fucking break down i'll reset
you don't even know how much i'm upset
i hope that you know that i miss that 
god i hope you fucking know that i miss that.

[+20]

reset

https://www.instagram.com/hiisero/
prod, mixed & mastered by me

it's a cliché
and it comes right back to say
that i'm nothing, it's touché
and it hits me in my face
it's so hard to redecorate

if you tell me a lie
kill me, stab me, throw me in the fire for it
burn me alive,
trust me, all about me i will regurgitate

tell me about it while you cry
its always bark, you never bite
tell me why i should say goodbye
guess ill lie to myself, guess ill lie to myself

its different every time
but i guess it always hurts
no matter if i try
the thought of who i was will hit me

if my art doesn't speak for me
then neither will my mouth
i try to avoid it but i cant
cuz it haunts me, it haunts me

tell me about it while you cry
its always bark, you never bite
tell me why i should say goodbye
guess ill lie to myself, guess ill lie to myself

bark, bite

eternal

A combination of different songs i made during my break.

Hopefully it does not dissapoint:)

Someware Else

luv u
prod & vox by @pandimoosic
vox by me

everything2me w/ pandi

☥ | @cypheracite

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