the amount of times i go back to this is inane

this tiny little synth omg 🥺🥺🥺 I just wanna give this little guy a hug

Obsessed with this song. I love it. Been listening on repeat for weeks.

im speechless. i am  genuinely tearing up rn.

(why does love keep letting me down?)

performed, written and produced by me
mixing and mastering by me with help from @ryptage
additional vocals from @blissom and @starsbeforesunrise
screams from @blimeyarts
violin from @taivasa
cover art by @clawsomebeats on twitter

lyrics
there's a feeling in my chest and it won't go away
i see skies and they're all shades of gray
more than anything i want, i just want this to last
i know you don't feel that way
and i'm sorry that i'm not what you want
but i gave it my all and i was never enough
and i miss you to death but that don't mean anything
"if you wanna go then i'll be okay"
but now its all gonna break.

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away.

let me waste away
i can't even stand to look you in the face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't know how i'm gonna get out

shouldn't get too attached, but i can't help it
i see stars and it hurts to admit
that just like every single one, you're a part of the past
i know you don't feel it
i'll be waiting for someone to hold
like a blanket keeping me from cold
i've been spilling my guts on the pavement
and all that i'm left to do is crawl into my shell
and now it's all gonna break

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down i just get kicked to the curb
don't understand why i ever even tried.

let me waste away
don't remember the last time that i've seen your face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't care if i ever get out

i've been lost in the dark
you're all i have
you're all i've got
and there's no way
nothing i can do to get you to stay by my side
why do i always waste my time waiting for another mistake?
if i just caught in the waves?

is it too late to say that i'm not okay
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down oh i'll just lay in the dirt
don't understand.

i won't waste away
i'll just yell at the clouds until i'm blue in the face
left in the dust but i'm breathing
it's the least i can do just to deal with you leaving.
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if you're reading this, this song isn't about you. you know who you are.

dust.

hi
she/it
@evil-bitches-inc
@dogcatdog
@gh3band

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