D3sm1 x0xo

i know i always seem to
make you mad
but u never
showed up
to that party

i know it’s my fault partly
but i invited u
u said that u would show up
i knew that u wouldn’t show up

u said that i have to grow up
and that i always act so childish

it’s all 
it’s all up to u
and u choose everything that i do
it’s everything that u like
nothing that i do
nothing that i do
seems to impress u

u act like everything’s perfect
and don’t mention how i tried
to end it
i just wanna fucking die
slit my throat 
and let me cry

u never mention the slits
on my wrists
i asked u for help
and u laughed in my face
like it’s not so serious
yea it’s not so serious 

now that ur blood is on my hands
i loved to see u suffer
wish i could’ve killed u with my own hands

u act like everything’s perfect
and don’t mention how i tried
to end it
i just wanna fucking die
slit my throat 
and let me cry

im a redpilled loser

b okay

Link: DELETED
Released: 2021-01-06
#suwicideclub 

@15forevr <3

Singles

suwicideclub: 15FOREVR - FAMILIAR

wujek - because i love you girl

(vol. #​1)「Running Out Of Time」


hihihii, more plans 2 be active now 。thx 2 the ppl who support this n the other ppl who have the patience 2 still be here 2day  <3 。1st song from ep will b soon then i'll release the whole thing when i feel satisfied with it, this song n another extra im working on will b included in it 。(dis is mostly filler 2 start things off, the actual ep songs have all my effort put in2 them. dis jus sumthing i made the other day n thot wuz cool lol)

lyrx:

y cant things jus never change oh
y can't things jus stay the same
i feel more worse like everyday
i can't stop crying, my chest hurts
go outside, it's nice 2day
i wanted it 2 rain tho
i can't seem 2 catch a break
i can't slow down
i'll fall out oh

life's 2 fast 
and i need 2 catch up !!!
all my feelings
r boiling up !!!!
i don't wanna feel 
like i'm left behind
i don't want2 b
lost by time !!!

desmi

lifes2fast4miku⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ

(vol. #​2)「A Burden Off My Chest」

ur lips r so sweet
i hold on to ur hands
then we're falling from the sky, i let go

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

right when i met u
the flowers were blooming
and never would i thought
that u would come choose me
i'm on my knees 
and it's just 4 u
and my heart it beats 
when ur in the room
now we're dancing 
in the clouds again
all our memories
just turned to ash

ur lips r so sweet
i hold on to ur hands
then we're falling from the sky, i let go

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

that look in ur eyes
sad and bitter
know that it's okay 2 cry
when i wont be here
all good things must end
i know it's sad but ya it's true
till we meet again
i think the world's way too cruel


ur lips r so sweet
i hold on to ur hands
then we're falling from the sky, i let go

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

why can't this last forever
and ever 
and ever

last✫forever!!!!!

(Bonus Volume #​‎2.5)「I Met You Last Night」@weejk

https://open.spotify.com/track/7B5CYfz6s1J0kQxBTlSSe7?si=64576d37a4044aff

produced by me i made the beat (& miku part)

(wujek:)

fell outta place
then i fell in luv
send another pic cant get enough
girl i need more i need ur touch
why is luv always so tuff

(x2)

girl u fake it all
cant take it no
all that shit u said
cant face it no
now im all alone
crying in my home
all the memories
they fading no

fell outta place
then i fell in luv
send another pic cant get enough
girl i need more i need ur touch
why is luv always so tuff

(x2)

(miku:)

i fell in ur arms,
all u want is my heart...
u can't come near it,
who knows what wud happen ?
u say u luv me,
do u rly mean it ?
1 day u'll leave me,
crying, broken, speechless...

(wujek:)

fell outta place
then i fell in luv
send another pic cant get enough
girl i need more i need ur touch
why is luv always so tuff

(x3)

y is luv alwayz so tuff *ft. wujek & miku*

(vol. #​‎3)「I'm A Half-Failed Magical Girl, But That's Okay!!」

I'm out here
Can you hear me?
Out of breathe
I'm so useless
Right after
I hear your "i.l.y."
Then I can cry

Love it when you say my name
I stand afar, feeling like I'm not enough
Are you proud of me?
Always coming back to you, you're noticing
Sometimes I wish that I knew what you think
Open up your arms
And catch me when I fall
I hope that it's not too late
To fix my heart
This time I won't
Let the world fall apart
This time I won't
Let your wishes come undone

I'm out here
Can you hear me?
Out of breathe
I'm so useless
Right after
I hear your "i.l.y."
Then I can cry
You hate me
Just maybe?
Don't blame me
I Just overthink
After all I'm dreaming
In this world
I call "Make Believe"

everytime​‎ :​‎ after 鹿目まどか (vol. #3)

(Off-Screen)「Yandere Arcade Club」@amecandy

https://open.spotify.com/track/4gZ48SQzyJn5vVIW2nNacN?si=9e84e359e0c94dd2

(miku:)

cut cut cut i
cut cut cut i
cut my heart
and cut urs too

i love love love
ur blood blood blood
i wear ur body
cuz its cute i

cut cut cut i
cut cut cut i
bleed rose red
i think it's cool u

love love love my
blood blood blood i
stab my body
just for u

razors make me drool
i know i should seek help
but everytime i do
they never have a clue yeah

razors make me drool
i know i should seek help
but everytime i do
they never have a clue yeah

i cut cut cut
i cut cut cut
i cut my heart
and cut urs too

i love love love
ur blood blood blood
i wear ur body
cuz its cute i

cut cut cut i
cut cut cut i
bleed rose red
i think it's cool u

love love love my
blood blood blood i
stab my body
just for u

(ame:)

you've been in my mind as of lately
all i want its driving me crazy
you've been in my mind as of lately
all i want its driving me crazy
and i dont know what to do 
my heart aches when im around u
what else is there to do?
love smothering me till i turn blue

in my dreams in my dreams
ur the only one i need
in ur dreams in ur dreams
can i b ur yandere?

breaking down my sanity
are my feelings fleeting?
can u help my ache heart stop me frum bleeding?

cut cut cut i
cut cut cut i
cut my heart
and cut urs too

i love love love
ur blood blood blood
i wear ur body
cuz its cute

(miku:)

i cut cut cut
i cut cut cut
i bleed rose red
i think it's cool u

love love love my
blood blood blood i
stab my body
just for u

If you found this note in a small wooden box with a heart on it, then *congratulations!* You are probably the first person to read this. I didn’t really plan on sharing this with anybody, but for some reason I think it’s exciting that somebody out there, a complete stranger, will come across this note and read my story. Someone I will never meet, sharing such a personal bond with me. I’m fascinated that either one of us could die - even as soon as tomorrow - with the other being completely clueless to the fact. To you, my entire life is within this note, and so I will live for as long as your memory can carry me. Writing this, I’m wondering if that makes you feel fascinated or violated. It’s so exciting.

cut my heart :3 #DDLC (ft. amecandy x miku)

(vol. #​‎4evr)「Am I In Reality Or Am I Insanity?」

https://open.spotify.com/track/36Hr8dnUPs266hdeieAUs6?si=fde9561544fc47ee

kanojo2kanojo///totono.___ 1/4

lyrics:

give u what u want
u can take it all away right from me
give me all ur secrets
& tell me that u luv me
cuddle in my arms
can u promise u won't ever leave me?
don't betray my trust
i don't wanna see u cheating

could YOU ignore
that girl just for once ???
don't crawl back 2 HER
when i'm right here ...
it's only ME, you, and YOU
i'm the one YOU need !!!!
in this pretend world
i'm all YOU want !!!!!

lost inside delusions
trusts me & it's her mistake
never had solutions
found her crying in the rain
i can wipe my tears
me & her, we're not the same
staring in the mirror
with a grin across my face

don't say my name
u'll bring me my flowers
i've had enough
of ur games
now it's time for mine

give u what u want
u can take it all away right from me
give me all ur secrets
& tell me that u luv me
cuddle in my arms
can u promise u won't ever leave me?
don't betray my trust
i don't wanna see u cheating

could YOU ignore
that girl just for once ???
don't crawl back 2 HER
when i'm right here ...
it's only ME, you, and YOU
i'm the one YOU need !!!!
in this pretend world
i'm all YOU want !!!!!

kanojo_2_kanojo ~ bring ME flowers (vol. #4evr)

(Off-Screen)「Nothing Ever Happens Here Anways...」

https://open.spotify.com/track/6iYwx9CfyyrRMaVEa0GX68?si=d829574bf39a4242

school days, wrong story... ////rena/kotonoha?

lyrics:

(L: u took my luv, used that
R: ur pretty hair, all black
L: went2 ur house, sit back
R: i used2 feel attached)

my eyes on u, so sad
ur pretty hair, all black
we used to walk, hold hands

i used to feel - attached

u took my luv, used that
i took my knife, went back
to ur house, sit back

close the door - relax

when i'm done with u
i'm done with me

we weren't meant to be
i'm so sorry

i got pushed to shame
and now u bleed

this seems to be the end
of "love" stories

Can I ask you one thing?
I loved you....
But did you feel the same?
You hurt me...
I just wanted something-
Between us...
But all this hatred told me-
"It's worthless..."

end of love (and hate?) #whentheycry竜宮 レナ

https://open.spotify.com/track/7jD8KJWWEnicZlvcZ6vvOo?si=eec1e450e45646c3

prod me w/ @1zakuro & @odihu

she's outside and wants me dead
reassured her times and times and
out for blood, she wants my head
i don't understand what made her mad
throwing fits and causing wrecks
is it really my fault that she's so sad?
self destruction she's a mess
i gotta get far and leave her yeah


oh darling look my way
unless u want ur life to pay
cos ive been wanting u for so long
and u didnt even know
run away in spite
wanna make u mine
wasting all my time
ive had enough
murder on my mind
wanna end ur life
wanna fill a pint
with ur blood

youre always in my head
i love how u look dead

she's outside and wants me dead
reassured her times and times and
out for blood, she wants my head
i don't understand what made her mad
throwing fits and causing wrecks
is it really my fault that she's so sad?
self destruction she's a mess
i gotta get far and leave her yeah

i dont understand why are you so mad
you make everything seem so sad
dont understand why u cant take me back
well thats too bad
cause ur out for blood and u want my head
and its so sad that u want me dead
i miss the scars that are  on ur legs 
i miss you so much comeback i beg


i wanna hold u in my hands
i just wanna be your man
so much shit i regret i said
punching the wall till my hands turn red

come back to me
come back to me
dont be so sad
come back to me 
comeback to me
why are u so mad
cause ur out for blood and u want my head
love u so much but u want me dead
i dont know where it all went wrong
just pls come back

she wants me dead (ft. zakuro & odihu)

im so sick 

walls look like ripped scabs
i cant take the slits back
cut cut cut 
man i wanted that bitch bad
my nose runs yea im feeling like a zombie
so fucked up still no one will call me
so much love still no one will love me
i'll buy drugs nd become a junkie

i need money i need money
want money and drugs popstar junkie
my face is lumpy think im infected 
my heart is worth nothing please deflate it 
please deflate it please deflate it 
end me now i dont wanna face it
worthless future
i cant take it 
or change it or change it

asdfasdfasdf
sdafasdfasdfasdf

rich junkie ima zombie popstar
pull up w dat strap im feelin like a rockstar
inna lot noddin off of a xanny bar
mix sum lean wit dat bitch boy im on mars
beat a nigga ass why u pressin on me
bitch so bad rockin pink dcs
man im melanated chocolate color reeses 
niggas peep da swag n they wanna b me

wanna be me but i dont wanna be myself
pull up w dem studs on me yea that bb belt 
coke bag exploded
yea im snortin out my pocket now 
slit slit slit yea i feel so invincible 
fell in love with my blood fell in love with my beans
twin noddin off inna club off ketamine
l l like why wont no one like me


noble junkie prod me

@bloodsekai beat

i know u wont hold me close
u could go yea i just hope
dreams come true yea i'll b two
cuz being one gives me this mood

nobody cares 
nothing is fair
i hate my hair
i hate my wear
they always stare 
i am aware
i am alone
im on my own

i know u wont
if u think dont
good intentions
just uncapable
i want to give
reasons to live
i want to live
lets coexist

breaking my heart
fate tears me apart
fate tears me apart
2x

i know u wont hold me close
u could go yea i just hope
dreams come true yea i'll b two
cuz being one gives me this mood
i want to say i love u i love u 

nothing feels right i dont know what i want anymore

In these songs lies no mask, no sweetened tale — only the weight of bonds that twist, the stories that demand obedience, and the long shadow of love that confuses itself with control. Greyborn stands at the edge of inheritance, where loyalty can become a leash, and where silence is wielded as law.

This is not music of vengeance, but of clarity. It is the slow recognition that devotion without choice is not love, and that respect without freedom is only theater. Each track is a reckoning with the voices that claimed to shape him, and the quiet refusal to keep carrying what corrodes.

For those who were told gratitude means servitude, for those who learned that blood can bind tighter than truth — these songs are your mirror. They speak of fire endured, of rivers carving through stone, of a man who will honor what was true, but refuse what was false.

Not a farewell. Not a curse. A testament:
to keep the light,
to drop the chains,
to let go.

everytime‎ :‎ after 鹿目まどか (vol. #3)

desmi ꒰ა❤︎໒꒱

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