Bleeding thoughts

https://twitter.com/lilpeep
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM

@lil_peep

lil peep - lil kennedy [prod. nedarb]

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

you begin to grow

produced by @killedmyself

coping

never,forever. - to be you

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

i live in my head
until the day that im dead

produced by @killedmyself

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/24567910939/jouska

jouska

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

spotify.

i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

i havent played guitar in two and a half months
this was recorded on an iphone mic
on the third take

its really bad but i wrote it and singing it makes me feel a little better

album out now

it hurts (trash)

sick of singing about you (it's not working)

much love to @mrsadchill for premiering this on youtube <3

sample credits go to Eiro Nareth
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOR-iqlcedb8VMnax37m3MQ/featured

sad chill

california dreaming pt 2

i just wanna stop feeling so sick

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

blackheartemoji

spotify

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its just not fair

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

no fair

Lyrics

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Tired of this, tired of that
What does she see in me? My heart is black
Walk out of class and I go to a stall and I cry
When I have a panic attack

But nobody knows about that
Cause I don't feel close enough to open up
My day has already turned bad
17 minuets ago just woke up

I don't blame God for not coming from Heaven to save us
Cause we don't deserve a damn thing
How could we go to a place thats supposed to be perfect
We cant even learn how to change

Use your brain, we're all the same
Only together can we get through pain
Too many people give up on their dreams
Too many people give all for some fame

Mom can you stop asking what happend to all of my friends
I don't even know
This is my world, don't try to get in
I don't want anyone getting too close

Not even you, not even her
Not even me cause I'm not even sure
I kept it real, but you never were

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Waking up, space I'm taking up
Late school work, I'm not making up
Might be fucking up but I don't care enough
Cause the love I need ain't there enough

Suck it up, stop giving up
You little stupid fuck, why don't you give a fuck?
Life is fucking tough, road's fucking rough
Stop tripping out and quit tearing up

Let me in it's been too long
I'm sick of this, I'm sick of songs
This is not where we belong
Leave him behind and take me along

I don't like that normal shit
I fucking hate that formal shit
I like my abnormalness
Cant we just come to an armistice

If I don't tell you how I feel don't assume that you know how I feel
If I tell you that I'm depressed don't you tell me that shit isnt real

me, i'm pain. | Produced by unknxwn.

@ivrii

Lyrics

Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up again
I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end
The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking
I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me

You promised that you'd never leave me
I told you this wouldn't be easy
I gave you my heart
When you gave it back, it wasn't beating

Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again
Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative
Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight
No, not tonight, I would rather die

Than to live in this world with the way that I feel
I miss the old days, when everything was okay

Why can't I be okay?
Why can't I just feel good?
Slipping back to old ways
Just to fucking feel good
I'm a fucking waste of space
Never did a thing good
Music is the only way
I can let this shit out
I don't like to open up
It's not like you can help out
I tried to let a person in
Look how that shit turned out
Fucking up my lungs again
Smoke until I burnout
Lesson wasn't learned before
Lesson won't be learned now

sedative. (w/ ivri) | Produced by ocean

i wrote this song over the last two days i had with my dad before he died. i love and miss you so much, rest easy... you don't have to suffer anymore

fuck parkinson's disease.

[lyrics]
you couldn't speak 
the last time I saw you
I swear that broke my heart

always had so much to say
Laying there in pain
And silence must be so damn hard

And i don’t know if you notice i’m here
I wonder if you hear me
Eyes are wide open
Locked on the ceiling

Sounds like sandpaper
Scrapes when you’re breathing
And i wish that i could ask you...

how do live with it?
How do you cope with all this pain?
When you’re running out of reasons
You should even stay

And how do you live with it?
How do you make it day to day
When everything good
Has long since
Faded away

You don’t have to hurt no more it’s okay



I’ll never forget 
The moment our eyes met
And you knew that i was here

And i’ve never seen you so happy,
So sad, and so thankful
To see me clearly 

And your jaw was trembling
Your hand in mine clenching
Just trying to say something

I pulled myself close
And in whispers like smoke
You told me that you loved me 

please tell me how do you live with this?
How can you tell me it’ll be okay?
When you’re sick and dying
Can’t even cry
Cause you can’t move your face?

So how do you live with it?
How do you hold on to hope for change,
When your trapped inside a body that’s
Wasting away

You don’t have to hurt no more,
It’s okay

i love you dad, it's okay

not worth saving

with @cloudhighcomeup
produced by @prodbybrody

lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-alive-lyrics

alive (ft. cloudhighcomeup)

Lyrics

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

Fallin' I'm fallin'
Why do my demons keep callin'?
No matter what key I try or I turn
Everytime I try start I keep stallin'

I can't move on
I'm fuckin' stuck in this rerun
I don't like pills but I need one
I lost my heart now I need one

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

nightfall. | Produced by tundrabeats

produced by @lilsadeyes and @nversad

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and now i've someone that truly fucking cares
doesn't look the other way when i'm alone or in despair
doesn't act like i'm the reason that my parents wouldn't cope
with the fact that i'm a loser so they left me on my own

she won't leave me in the smoke
when i'm sad alone or broke
she gon keep me on my toes
she gon hold me hella close

she gon be there in the end
when i'm lyin in my bed
she gon tell me how she love me
she could never play pretend

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and my heart fuckin' bursts
when i'm lookin' at her
she's the one that i need
she's the one i deserve

she's the reason i breathe
she's the reason i heal
she's the one that i want
and that's just how i feel

stick n pokes

Lyrics

Broke as shit, I just wish that I could cope a bit
I'm sick and tired of hoping this life will get better
I'm over it
I'll drown in my tears, and forever fear
Letting another person get near
The last of a heart that I have
I'm trippin' out and not off of a tab
But I wish that I was, I hate when I'm sober
I love being buzzed, I wish it was over
I'll always have some kind of chip on my shoulder
Even if I loved her I still wouldnt show her

You only care for me when it's too late
I don't want friends cause everybody's fake
I'm already broken, so stop adding weight
I'm fading away and I'm starting to shake
Life is a bitch so fuck it
I'm tired of all of the fuck shit
I'll start not giving a fuck quick
This life is nothing but tough shit
You can't put me together I'm too far apart
Black in my lungs & black in my heart
Don't ask me to save you, don't know where I'd start
The knife in my back is so fucking sharp

I'm a piece of shit & I know that shit
The girl who broke my heart? I don't know the bitch
Yeah I care a lot but you won't notice it
Cause you can't break my heart if I don't open it
I'm a locked up, dying, low life
I'm living it wrong, so taking it's right
And the sunlight fucking so bright
Don't wanna make plans, I'm staying inside
I'm making a song, I'm up all night long
This shit do more than you ever done
For me so it's peace to most people I know
Ain't ask you stay so I think you should go

lowlife. | Produced by unknxwn.

Lyrics

I feel like I fucked up my own life
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm wrong or right
I feel as if the dark beholds a stronger light
Cause my soul has gone into a dark place
Life is no fun when you're stuck in one place
I hate lookin' in the mirror with the same face
All the better times behind me and I can't chase
I might give up, not like you can fight fate

Am I really just a waste? I don't really know
I wanna change but I can't, don't know where to go
Only feel when I break, I like feeling low
I keep in all the hate I don't know how to show
I'm not happy on the inside
Forgot what it's like to feel alive
Inside my head that's filled with lies
I think I'd be better if I just died

Bleeding thoughts

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