grief

s- v2

@searingthrume @histarkey

everything inside my room i wanna break it
getting tight around my skin just like a face lift
blood wrapped around my wrist like a bracelet
cut up 2 lines imma face it


every single day just feel the same
why am i this way i can feel ur pain
im crying in the rain i feel it in my veins

ive been stuck inside my head for way too long now
been a while since i wrote a fucking song down
kick the bucket hope somebody give a fuck now
i’ve been waiting for the day they put me in the ground

paresthesia // lesions x histarkey

hobo (prod. cwta, kita)

@ihatejugo  +  a little from me
@avexacortexa 1:1 llike no other

so geeked i cant function
bitch dont ask me nothing
i cannot finish something
up that qbz he running
up that qbz where you wrong
762 leave him stump
no no no no no
goddamn
stab this bitch dont care bout nothing
i could hear his heartbeat jumping
up n his house we breaking in n running
regardless how many men
sicario walk in like im cataleya
walk in, netrun
i cant feel a damn thing
primidone in my fucking body in my bloodstream
i cant feel my self
tell that bitch i need u, more than o-dsmt
tell her take rip off her jeans
iv up that O-PCE
10 lines of amphetamine
high off ephenidine
goddamn bitch you cannot
get up on my level
300 black out take his knees
take ur nails and make make me bleed

i look right back, ion give no mind
kill yourself boy u needa die
jiggas got me out my mind
he talking shit i cannot mind
wake up walk like Frankenstein
need more drugs to metabolize

never felt anything, nothing
pop 10 percocets im not even stumbling
girl i cant pick a substance with u
got me stunting, im higher n higher
never found meaning, nothing
tell that boy, yeah i got u something
with a bad white bitch she give her mind
she want more i dont got time
fuck out my face talking dont waste my goddamn time
burn him when he see the heavy carbon in my ride
i dont even pickup my damn line ion even
talk that way i fuck him up
up that rifle if i must
1:1 like no other
dont know who to trust, got my brothers
im so geeked up i cant fathom
its so perfect, while your over
F-17475 in my goddamn mind
so many pills up in my body i feel like no other
my only fear is being sober
bad ass bitch come over
i walk like korshunova or pivarova
fingers deep up in that bitch
told her leave her friends right over
sniffing percs while that bitch over
dont sip codeine that shit weak as fuck

nail me to the fucking ground
i cant feel a fucking thing
i wanted u to drop that lie, u were everything
need to be heavily tranquilized,  just dont rescue me
dont care im not even shy, i cant ever breath
im not waking up if i dont got no more drugs to eat
girl you know i can even tell, that u follow me
lately i dont even give a fuck, cant tell what i think
i feel dead alive cause i made u leave

netrunner  - backlash | like no other  [  jugowickd ]

yellowvVersion

ex·quis·ite
/ekˈskwizət,ˈekˌskwizət,ˈekskwəzət/

From the Earth (prod. Kujo) 𐦍

netrunner - cocaine | mephedrone

beat composed by @chewy @popilization @islandislandislandisland w/ extra from @searingthrume

cover by @searingthrume

lyrics

@islandislandislandisland

I got problems on me what you on about?
all yall fake asf yall do anything for clout
You can’t keep up with me hadda kick you out
You will never get me hadda burn it out
You done fucked up now
Hadda pass up now
Get my racks up now
Look where you at now

I can’t feel shit
All my plans are fake like my emotions
You 2 fkn static
(Go) get you motion
I’m to up in here you will start pulling
Tweaking late at night I can’t fkn cope it
Will you take me back? Yeah I’m hoping
Yeah I’m aching in pain got me rolling
I’m so fkn lost (I’m unspoken)

Let the cancer kill me, let the pain flow,
You will never feel me because we not a whole

lesions @searingthrume

stop steppin on my nerves, i wont take that shit from y'all .
nd my skin already burns, wanna put holes in the wall .
don't even try to ring me, throw my phone up, watch it fall .

[ it's so funny how yu talk .. ]

jus wanna go awol i think.. my brain is singed .
nd everything is sin . nd i'm homesick .
from the same old shit .
nd no matter what i say, they just wont listen .. :/


I got problems on me what you on about?
all yall fake asf yall do anything for clout
You can’t keep up with me hadda kick you out
You will never get me hadda burn it out
You done fucked up now
Hadda pass up now
Get my racks up now
Look where you at now

I can’t feel shit
All my plans are fake like my emotions

D̴̡̪̟̻̰̭̭̘̿̇͜𐏂caying 𐏂go w/ ƨnoiƨɘ⅃ (heroine pop 1sland)

Avexa Cortexa [ Wisdom Research Evolution ] 1:1

prod @searingthrume + additional from me

baby im far gone off that roxy 
my blood need embutrimide
feels just like euthanasia 
your not by my side, never felt so alone
your nails in my skin, never felt so alive
drowning in agony i cant survive

dextromoamoride, glutethimide
burn me with your ciggerettes 
miss that look in your eyes 
girl im so sorry that i made a mess
556s flying through his ass imma make a mess

always seldom, hate my self, filled up with regret
dont care bout anything, idk if u could tell
i might end it all, love it when i fall
imma pop a perc and forget about it all
i cant it feel at all, i understand it all
dipyanone, in my body
god i need her effection, feels like ecstasy
GABAergics freezing all my neurons up in place
dissociative anesthetia, my brain filled with MXPCP 
how these drugs have my body, thats just my ambrosia
walk in that bitch like pivarova, make him fall like korshunova
i cant ever sleep, all i want for us is u to talk to me
762 rip through bone put his ass straight to sleep

wish you could come over
when will all of this be over
dont ever think im sober
all i ever do is mourn her
he gon be on that stretcher cause 
i got that keltec ripping shoulders

netrunner - isolation paranoia | isotonitazene [ lesions miseryprism ]

red dot right between his eyes
i know u fucking lying
too much amphetamine my head spinning
too much primidone bitch im falling through the damn floor
itching like a dope fiend
iv up that etorphine
tell that bitch to tranquilize me
dont act like u know me
mxpcp in my blood
got that fucking primidone in my blood 
nails in my skin baby ts cure my migrains
keltec break his shoulder

netrunner - tranquilize me [ miseryprism ]

[old demo frm a rlly bad time]
produced by @saveme

i don't know how to take that statement
i don't wann become too comfortable, complacent
same old bullshit, no other choice but face it.

lookin in the mirror, i can't make that out
trauma in my spirit, uppin millis, curb the doubt
all alone fo 20 years, i been up in a cloud
nearly drowned me in the water, screamin way too loud
scratches on my body, i've been bleedin out
why tell me how to feel now, are yu real now?
so sick of barkin real loud, bring the place down
need a wayy outtt, need my way outtt

sick of feelin rage as if my skully need too yell
i miss days when i ain't feel like my nerves down in hell
why do yu want away from me? i dwell on this.
i hate a fit, but this rediculous shit wont cease for nothing
worked too hard, now my skin is blooded
emotion overdrawn like we fuckin on nd off
think i'm way too fuckn gone, neurologically i'm rotting away

ComplacencyChainZz prod save me

Avexa Cortexa Pharmeceutical & Biotech Research Facility

Wisdom Research Evolution

|  @avexacortexa
|  @traumacatalyst

1:1

 [  https://miseryprism.bandcamp.com/   ]