Daniel downing

Daniel’s stuff

if god gave me a time machine
i would take back everything
i know you would
i know you would to
i know you would
i know you would

people used to talk to me
til i said please don't bother me
i have regrets
i miss my friends too
i have regrets
i miss my friends

wish you could be close to me
but this is who i chose to be
my throat gets wet
then i forget you
my throat gets wet
then i forget

close to me

hiding now is just a part of me
I can't give a sincere apology
climbing up just to fall honestly
gets me so scared that I just wanna leave
oh give anything to break from you
no I can't sit back and wait for you

dark cloud always hanging over me
i'd run but it just keeps on following
finding out who I'm supposed to be
the rain keeps washing it away from me
oh my heart doesn't know what to do
no I can't control my ache for you

hiding // finding

I've been thinking' bout you
feels like something that I once knew
find me something to do
past and present it always flew

do you think about me
theres a vision that I can't see
I remember sixteen
chest was thumping' now I can't breathe

got me under your thumb
I keep sippin' my brain gets numb
you just tell me i'm dumb
mind keeps slippin'
what have I done

you make me feel so young
makes me realize what i've become
got this taste on my tongue
I keep sippin' my brain gets numb

let it be get strong
let it be in my heart again
lie to me and take off
pardon me if I make friends

but you know
theres a better way to make amends

take you to a dark room
and bring you in to the light again
make your move to make do
and fall apart all over again

and I know
I keep playing games with your head

let it be get strong
let it be in my heart again
lie to me and take off
pardon me if I make friends
take you to a dark room
and bring you in to the light again
make your move to make do
and fall apart all over again

but you know
both you and I will remain friends

let it be

I was blistered by a day dream
Saw it comin up sun comin up
Only trust you if you taste me
Go and soak it up gone sock it up
Only workin when you’re lazy
Go on fuck it up gone fuck it up
Only love you when you hate me
Go on suck it up gone suck it up

Make your bed and
You won’t regret it
Feed your fetish
Test your lettuce
Take your pen and
You write a sentence 
Lose your head in
Devil’s lettuce

Eyes dancing in a moon beam
Stars lighting up start lining up
Never wanted you to use me
Never had enough never high enough

Make your bed and
You won’t regret it
Feed your fetish
Test your lettuce
Take your pen and
You write a sentence 
Lose your head in
Devil’s lettuce

daydream

hey why you bother
your element
check 'em to their slaughter
you never meant
to be another
irrelevent
face
hey where you going
thats the wrong way
this is why you're blowing
another thursday
drinking 'stead of working
like you're thirsty
taste
all the glory
its just another
good morning
oh brother
am I boring
is it just a
waste

you know the right words to say
but you try to fight it anyway
you had it all wrong in your mind
You had it all wrong all the time
they're taking you away
that part of you is gone
was it still there
has it been all along

that part of you is gone

art by instagram: jonathan_swinney

oh honey
when you look at me with those eyes
i know i'm not the one that you like
i guess i'll just disappear
oh baby
i've fallen so hard that it hurts
and now i'm recycling words
i tried but i wasn't clear

i guess i'm not
special

i thought that we were solid
i was stuck in one place
but every time you touched me
you seemed further away
now it feels like i am drowning
i see past the waves
like a particle in motion
i'm needing some space

i guess i'm not
special

oh honey
when you look at me with those eyes
i know i’m not the one that you like
i guess i'll just disappear

special

cuttin’ out
feelin’ weird on the way down
layin’ round
coughin’ up only way out
sinkin’ sound
waters hot feelin’ cold now
fix me up 
fix me up 
feels like i’ll die
tuck me in
lift my chin
maybe i’ll cry

hot feelin'

it takes time
don't go following the line
it's in your mind
creativity is kind

how could you be so dumb and not see
you can be anything you wanna be
forget the pressures of society
finally free

in a bind
what you hurrying to find
it takes pride
don't go worrying this time

free your mind
creativity is kind
yeah it's alright
don't go following the line

how could you be so dumb and not see
you can be anything you wanna be
forget the pressures of society
finally free

u can be anything

feeling like a demon in a nightmare
don't like what i'm saying
and i don't care
staring at the ceiling
when i lie there
don't like where i'm staying
wanna die there
why i always wanna be 
fucked up
why won't all these voices
just shut up
why they always acting like they
love us
making all these choices when i'm
fucked up

don't wanna live like this
don't wanna live

fkdup

what is love
baby don’t hurt me
driving two ways
on all the one way streets
pieces of me 
in everyone you meet
complicating
which version i want to be
warmth in your voice
when you’re talking to me
i’ll still be your dog
when i’m barking up trees
staring too deep
when you’re bruising your knees
just wanted a hug
from the people that i pleased
knowing enough
that i should swallow the key
looking above 
but it don’t put me at ease

you are the pain
in contemplation 
you are the joy
in masturbation
you are my peace
and my frustration
you are my work
and my vacation 
i still don’t know 
just what i’m chasing
and i run fast
but not escaping
you trust your gut
and grow complacent 
what you have done
there’s no erasing
yeah this is life
you’re talking to me
my heads not right
you’re still talking to me
enjoy the show
like life’s a movie
you’ll never know
what you are losing

u can be anything

daniel downing