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Читает Стихи Н. Гумилева

The girl answer to the man lesson

Lyrics:
I stayed.
I just don’t know who stayed.

I lived alone for years and years,
Long before you said my name.
I learned how not to ask for help,
How to wear silence like a frame.

They told me what I could be useful for,
Taught my hands before my heart.
I don’t know where the girl ends
And where the weapon starts.

You looked at me like I was real,
Not trained, not measured, not assigned.
Now I’m standing in the quiet
Trying to remember what you saw in mine.

You said, stay human.
I’m trying.

what I am without you.
what I’m meant to be.
A weapon, a girl, or something broken
Holding onto your memory.

If I let go, I disappear.
If I hold on, I can breathe.
So I’ll stay here, stay human 
If you’re still here inside of me.

They ask me what I stand for now,
Who I answer to, who I serve.
I freeze like I forgot the words
For things I was never allowed to learn.

You never told me who to be,
You just showed me how to feel.
That’s harder than following orders 
That’s harder than being steel.

Some nights I hear your voice still calm,
Not saving me, just near.
Saying, “You don’t need to know yet.
You’re allowed to still be here.”

If I was only ever shaped to survive,
And never taught what living means,
Can I still become someone
Or was I always in-between?

I don’t know what I am without you.
I dont know what I’m not anymore.
I’m not empty. I’m not owned.
I’m not just what I was before.

If staying human means remembering
The way you looked at me,
Then I’ll carry that until I learn
Who I’m allowed to be.

If I’m still breathing…
Then you didn’t leave.

What Am I Without You

Booklet: https://eklektikaberlin.com/files/1387300/seduction-control-and-misbelief-booklet.pdf

“Alchemist” portrays a scammer who weaponises humanity’s oldest desire—the longing for transformation—by presenting himself as a modern miracle-maker, offering elixirs and secrets that promise renewal, healing, and transcendence. The song reveals how easily people, driven by pain or hope, can be drawn into illusions that sound scientific, mystical, or spiritually elevated, and how the scammer exploits that vulnerability with theatrical confidence. The imagery of gold, fire, vials, and crucibles reflects both ancient alchemical symbolism and contemporary pseudoscience, showing that the scammer’s power comes not from magic but from the ability to manipulate belief. Ultimately, the song describes the emotional fallout: the victims left with nothing but broken promises and the lingering shame of having trusted a dream that was always designed to deceive.

The Alchemist Scam: Miracle Cures, Modern Magic, and the Enduring Psychology of Transformation Fraud
For as long as human beings have suffered, they have dreamed of shortcuts to transformation. Alchemists once promised to turn lead into gold, distil immortality from vapours, and manipulate the hidden forces of nature. Though the laboratories have changed and the vials have been replaced by slick digital ads, the alchemist’s promise endures. Today’s “alchemist scam” is less about medieval furnaces and more about wellness influencers, biotech impostors, crypto-gurus, and miracle-cure entrepreneurs who exploit the same ancient desire: the longing to become more than we are with minimal effort. It is the oldest fraud in a new costume.

Modern alchemists succeed by selling transformation without process. They promise weight loss without discipline, wealth without risk, rejuvenation without time, healing without medical evidence. Their language draws directly from the symbolic vocabulary of old alchemy—purification, transmutation, rebirth—but is reframed in the glossy jargon of the 21st century: “cellular reset,” “quantum detox,” “bio-harmonic realignment,” “algorithmic abundance.” These phrases are no less mystical than the alchemical diagrams of the Middle Ages; they simply appear scientific enough to bypass critical judgment.

What makes the alchemist scam particularly potent is its ability to collapse emotional, spiritual, and scientific needs into a single seductive narrative. Victims are not merely purchasing a product; they are buying a new self, one freed from insecurity, illness, debt, or invisibility. The scammer becomes a modern-day sage, offering access to forbidden knowledge. Just as medieval alchemists guarded their “secrets” in coded manuscripts, contemporary fraudsters use paywalled online courses, pseudo-scientific white papers, and staged testimonials to create an aura of exclusivity. Scarcity becomes legitimacy.

Financially, the alchemist scam is highly adaptive. It appears in the form of miracle supplements, anti-aging tonics, “quantum healing” devices, crypto-alchemists promising wealth transmutation, and coaching programs promising spiritual ascension for a fee. Psychologically, the strategy remains constant: elevate the victim’s hope to the point where critical thinking feels like betrayal of possibility. The victim imagines transformation so vividly that they become complicit in the illusion.


ALCHEMIST (Scam 8)

"Not Missing You" captures the raw denial of heartbreak in an 80s power ballad style, echoing themes of longing from John Waite's classic. The narrator insists they're over their ex, but verses reveal inner turmoil through stormy imagery, frozen hearts, and inescapable memories, building to explosive choruses where truth breaks through. A vulnerable bridge and extended solos amplify the emotional catharsis of pretending not to miss someone who still haunts every thought. 


Lyrics[Verse 1]
I look in the mirror, tell myself I'm fine
Acting like the pain's just a shadow behind
But every quiet moment pulls you back to me
Whispering your name in the dead of the night

[Pre-Chorus]
I swear I'm moving on, no chains hold me tight
But deep down I know, you're still burning bright

[Chorus]
I'm not missing you, no, not at all
Though the world's gone cold since you took that fall
Heart's frozen over, but it beats for you
I'm not missing you... but God, it's true
I'm missing you


[Verse 2]
Storm clouds are raging, tearing up the sky
Echoes of your laughter, they won't say goodbye
I pretend I'm stronger, standing on my own
But every road I walk leads me back home

[Pre-Chorus]
Deny it to the world, paint on my smile
Yet miles between us stretch on for a while

[Chorus]
I'm not missing you, no, not at all
Though the world's gone cold since you took that fall
Heart's frozen over, but it beats for you
I'm not missing you... but God, it's true
I'm missing you

[Bridge]
And if I could turn back, rewrite the end
Pull you from the distance, make the hurt mend
But lies I keep telling can't hide the fire
You're gone, but the longing never tires

[Chorus Reprise]
I'm not missing you... (not missing you)
No, not at all... (not at all)
But every heartbeat screams what I can't say
I'm missing you every damn day[Interlude]

[Verse 3]
Pictures on the wall, I should throw away
Memories like shadows, they just fade to gray
I tell my reflection, "You're over the ache"
But dawn breaks open, and my resolve breaks

[Pre-Chorus]
Powerless in silence, cut off from your light
Longing pulls me under through the endless night

[Chorus]
I'm not missing you, no, not at all
Though the world's gone cold since you took that fall
Heart's frozen over, but it beats for you
I'm not missing you... but God, it's true
I'm missing you[Instrumental]

[Verse 4]
One more empty evening, chasing ghosts alone
Voices in the wind call you back to my bones
I built these walls high, to keep the truth out
But cracks let the feelings spill without a doubt

[Outro]
I'm not missing you... (fading echoes)
No, not at all... (whispers)
Heart's frozen... beats for you...
I'm missing you...

© 2025 Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.  
Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. Do not reproduce, distribute, or adapt without explicit permission.

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