delusional disorder

I need direction for all of my callousing
Standing, screaming that "the time is now"
Spend your money when you're rich in a way you don't need
A bare perfection all of the way down
I need substance, spit me out into the street
You're heavy, almost continually
You can take it but you better give it back to me
Spend your week searching for a way out

I need direction, feet first into me
Where do you find yourself when you are out?
I dive in quick then I stand in the wind until I'm clean
I owe you everything until now
I need substance, give me a time and place
Seed my everything until I'm sound
Nothing is worth it unless you stay put when it's set free
You are perfection all of the way down
You're my perfection all of the way down

I could be anything that you want
I wouldn't mind if you handed me a loaded gun
Crack a smile while you turn the safety off
I'll destroy anything that you want me to
Help me try and understand what you're going through
Crack the door as you turn yourself away

Direction (Mat Kerekes Cover)

this is what growing up sounds like

hard to breathe (Ft. OUT$YDERR)

the stress and the juul, they can never mix well.

Spotify <3

i don't miss u, I think im just drunk w/ sendflowrs & beecher

answer...

featuring @stationsix
produced by @deadbeatteen & ciel

[ciel]
i’m always running my mouth
and never thinking of you
not good at thinking it through
don’t want this fear to consume
the thoughts in my head
i’m fucking trying my best
i know you don’t think i am
but there’s a lot in my chest

and you don’t know
these feelings like i do
i swear this pain is nothing new
and you don’t know
when i’m with you i feel the most
it’s time i face the holy ghost

[tbb]
i'm so sorry it's not perfect anymore
but i'm holding on to how i hurt before
and i'm sorry it's not how it used to be
i can't help you, i can barely help me
try harder, i know it's all that i can give
my martyr, i'll bury myself just to let you live

[ciel]
and you don’t know
these feelings like i do
i swear this pain is nothing new
and you don’t know
when i’m with you i feel the most
it’s time i face the holy ghost

holy ghost (feat. thebreathingbackwards) [prod. deadbeatteen]

john scene-a (prod. twintails)

vintage vibes so run it up <3
feat @nicoteenninyo
prod @treetimee
mixed by @trechorboy & @wgm2093
cover art https://www.instagram.com/n.gorbatova

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Verse: nicoteen ninyo]
She don't even want me
But she want me when the mood right
She don't even love me but she wants me just to waste time
I'm a put my hand up on her throat and make her lose life
Biting when I stroke hoe gone hurt me but that shit tight 
Screaming out for more she transform on a dark night
Lookin into souls breaking bones with her cold eyes
Tell her that I love her so my passion turns her tongue tied
She don't even understand love so it's all lies
Back stabs me in the moonlight
It alright though cause she by my side
Not desperate cause every other bitch I slide
Cheap liquor she go dummy on ice
I don't know if I'm wrong or right
But tonight I'll hide my doubts inside
Hold her tight as the hour dies
To be close one last time in the moonlight

[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Outro: heroine diaries]
We can make it alright, alright
Still might die tonight, tonight
Come alive at midnight, midnight
I’ve been up two nights, nights
Cry with me and play my songs
If you don’t love me run along
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs

blood on my halo (feat. nicoteen ninyo) (prod. treetime)

produced by the one & only: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @decksmusic & @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

sendflowrs:

it’s been a year since we left and we’re still not fuckin talkin,
left my home at 16, it feels like i’m still runnin 
why am i so upset?
i broke my nose now i’m covered in red,
and will you promise, stay right by my side?
it’s cold out there my love, pls just stay with me tonight 
just put your phone away yeah, i don’t wanna fight
(cus i know that i can’t trust u,
i know that i can’t trust u)

look what you did yeah, look at the mess that you made,
boy i’m good everywhere, each city i’m the thane 
fire up my bow yea the skies are turning grey,
fire up my flow yea best pray for it to rain

(cus i’ve been walking,
on my own,
never delete your number 
out my phone
she loves that fucking powder in her nose,
loves that fuckin powder, loves that fuckin powder, yeah)

decks:

it never even mattered to me
i said it was a problem but i lied thru my teeth
you’re the only one that i wanna see
dont wanna cause a scene, i don’t wanna intervene but

look at the way that u treat me
and deceive me
now im leaving
i don’t wanna be a problem
but you beat me
now im fleeting
and i tweet about it every day but now i need to “let it go”
i wish you could save me but i know you’re not my antidote
and yeah i know that im obsessed with you
or maybe i just like the idea
and i know that i need to get it through
my fuckin skull and get up out of here



nevermadeithome:

Well can you get the fuck out of my brain now 
im fuckin pissed off with you constantly being there 
And everytime that im walking around town 
I swear i see your face on everybodys head 
All your friends, they are fucking dead to me
They all knew, that you cheated 
I hope that your next boyfriend 
Goes out never made it home again 
I think ive just finally got over you 
Get outta my mind girl 
Stop hitting my line girl 
Even though your fine girl 
I dont wanna see you again 
Laying in my bed at night 
I cant see your eyes for the first time 
For the first time in my life 
My life 
My life 
Im upset 
In my life

upset :( w/ decks & nevermadeithome

Produced, Mixed + Mastered by FRAN$E

Lyrics:
@ProdFranse
I’ve been treading water since I fell into the deep end
Im bout my money now and I don’t really need friends
Im sick of fucking faking it and playing pretend
Back the fuck away, you wanna talk? well that’ll depend
Yeah, if I need help can I reach out? Yeah
Or is that all out of reach now?
Fucking faded yeah I practice what I preach now

I’ve been treading water since I fell into the deep end
Im bout my money now and I don’t really need friends
Im sick of fucking faking it and playing pretend
Back the fuck away, you wanna talk? well that’ll depend
Yeah, if I need help can I reach out? Yeah
Or is that all out of reach now?
Fucking faded yeah I practice what I preach now
Tell me where you are because I swear you’re all I need now

@wstdyth
Shawty what you thinkin? Can’t see you all weekend
Cutting off some loose ends, fuck it I might lose friends
Cannot fuck with creeping, everybody sleeping
Open up my eyes now, I been coolin teachin
Tell me can you feel it? I don’t think I’m real yet
Shutting out my last part, I still gotta heal it
This aint what I asked for, feel like I’m unreal and
Baby but its okay there’s angels in my ceiling
Yeah there’s angels in my ceiling, I can’t explain what Im feeling

@ProdFranse
Yeah, if I need help can I reach out? Yeah
Or is that all out of reach now?
Fucking faded yeah I practice what I preach now

I’ve been treading water since I fell into the deep end
Im bout my money now and I don’t really need friends
Im sick of fucking faking it and playing pretend
Back the fuck away, you wanna talk? well that’ll depend
Yeah, if I need help can I reach out? Yeah
Or is that all out of reach now?
Fucking faded yeah I practice what I preach now
Tell me where you are because I swear you’re all I need now

Out of Reach

✞ spotify + apple ✞

Out of Reach ft. wstdyth

produced by: malith
vocals, mixing and crying by: @sendflowrs
visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ2TJ3aX_Rc

lyrics:

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
cus i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for?
x2

hit me on my cell,
it’s all you there’s no one else,
you’re the one i call yeah when i need help,
you’re the one i call yeah when i’m in hell
n you can kill me i won’t tell,
you hate me more than you hate yourself
i been sleepin all day, i’m not well,
but im pushin thru, all by myself 

yeah, and i’ve had enough 
of writing all these songs about you,
because you’re dead and gone,
to me you’re just a girl with some tattoos

but when it’s said and done;
i still can’t help myself when i’m around you,
and i won’t hold my tongue,
cus everyday i wake up in a bad mood

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for,
x2

covenant

lyrics
—————
i look outside, watch the leaves fall down
will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
& why u do care so much
& why don’t i give a fuck
i guess
i’m cynical at best 

will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
..will i leave this town

ion wanna be like this
ion wanna feel like this either
all the scars that are on my wrist
each time just a lil bit deeper

& i’m faded
i’m jaded
ion think that i can take this
i dont really know where to go from here
but i know soon that i’ll dissspear

i guess
i'm cynical at best

& i really feel i’m runnin' outta time
prolly cus i’m always wasting mine
& know i'm runnin' outta time
prolly cus i'm wasting mine

cynical at best [prod. Luciid & Ninewater]

Big shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/brevanti the bro!

lyrics:
baby hold me down
I can't get enough
I been stacking all this guap 
roll another blunt
in these cycles
viscous lies, they keep adding up
girl I thought that you were mine, pour another cup

can't talk right now
I been fucked up off the jack and rum
cut up by the barbed wire stump
stuck up, look what i've become
pound that drum
coping by spitting these lyrics you hearing
I got all the weed in backpack
homie start rolling that loudpack
blowing out smoke till she text back
she give me top and I drive back home yeah
dropping the top and I bump that omega-3
watchu see in me?
baby are we history?
are you missing me?
cause its been too long since you said that
got my head back
feeling fine until the moment that you read that
lost those lips again
the fuck did I expect though
I be walking home alone inside storm snow

baby hold me down
I can't get enough
I been stacking all this guap 
roll another blunt
in these cycles
viscous lies, they keep adding up
girl I thought that you were mine, pour another cup

see how you doing 
but u never texting me back girl yuh
ride in the whip all alone
fuck the past oh yeah
I'm overthinking her tone
just like the last girl yeah
hope this the last girl 
but I have crashed in the past girl

Can't get Enough [prod. brevanti]

shrimp - cold front

lyrics:

(kindmile)
I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

I wanna fuck again for the first time 
That giddy awkward feeling now seems sublime 
I wanna get high like the first time 
But it’s like every time I do it it just toys with my mind 

I’m always like fuck this fuck that 
I whine that life is so wack 
it’s all me 
It’s my fault 
Autumn leaves 
I fall 
Happy ending? Nah, life is nothing like a fairytale 
Prince Charming nah I got no princess in a wedding vale 
Society tells me that I’m not good enough 
Depressions a bitch and she got my ass cuffed

I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

(doan)
One day imma be happy
Shit I’m lyin to myself again
I been lyin to all my friends
Sometimes I just want the end 
But I just sit and play pretend 
That in the future I’ll be happy then
Sometimes I wanna start again
I’m high but it was better then
So pills became a better friend
At first they were to pass the time
Now it’s a means to an end
I don’t think u could understand 
Maybe I could explain 
But even if u think u know we’ll never feel the same pain
Fuck this world 
They don’t want me to win 
Everything I do a sin 
It’s like my past and future got me pinned
Cuz I don’t like who I been
I used to like who I’m becoming 
But so much shit overwhelming 
Voices in my head are floodin
All my thought are gettin muddy 
Death stopped by he thought that it’d be funny
Gave me visions of the end 
I thought that it would be more bloody

(kindmile)
I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

be happy w/ doan(prod. immortal)

Produced by @tadaddy

POURED UP ON A SONG NOW IM FADED :(

Lyrics:

now baby why r u ignoring
i tried to call u in the morning
im getting wasted tonight
why u gotta put up a fight
pretty face with a little waist
share with me u got a lot of cake

"iluvtora"

and i got my eyes closed
i swear my heart froze
u don't even like me
but u pull up on my shows
i'm hopping out the black whip
with my wrist slit
i don't know if i'm rly gonna make it 

got my eyes closed
i swear my heart froze
u don't even like me
but u pull up on my shows
i'm hopping out the black whip
with my wrist slit
i don't know if im rly gonna make it 

i'm gonna make it
cus when i see it imma take it
poured up on a song now i'm faded
yeah im faded, i'm gonna drain my life out
and even if i see u i'm gonna cry now 

yeah
im gonna cry now
yeah, yeah

now baby why r u ignoring
i tried to call u in the morning
i'm getting wasted tonight
why u gotta put up a fight
pretty face with a little waist
share with me u got a lot of cake
istg that ur love is fake
istg that ur love is fake

now baby why r u ignoring
i tried to call u in the morning
im getting wasted tonight
why u gotta put up a fight
pretty face with a little waist
share with me u got a lot of cake
istg that ur love is fake
ist...

and i got my eyes closed
i swear my heart froze
u don't even like me
but u pull up on my shows
im hopping out the black whip
with my wrist slit
i don't know if im rly gonna make it 

got my eyes closed
i swear my heart froze
u don't even like me
but u pull up on my shows
im hopping out the black whip
with my wrist slit
i don't know if im rly gonna make it

Spotify

istg, pretty face (prod. tadaddy)

Hope you enjoy. 
Lyrics:
need an answer
can someone just help me
no sign cause your gone
just help please
need an answer
can someone just help me
no sign cause your gone
just help please

can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here
can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here

called you up
but was treated with the dialtone
got a little mad
so what can I dial though
sent a dm ig but it wont show
late night in my bed
where'd my life go
cant predict the open roads
you expect it out of me
though we were an open door
guess I was sound asleep

can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here
can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here

need you here but im trynna get my checks up
money right cause you know im feelin like im next yuh
wish you were with me through these times but im check out
my plans are movin theres so much blessings to count
cant predict the open roads
you expect it out of me
though we were an open door
guess I was sound asleep

can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here
can i get a reason
cause i dont want you leavin
i know its all over from hints ive been seein
can i get a reason
cause im left on red
dont go and walk away i need you here

need an answer
can someone just help me
no sign cause your gone
just help please
need an answer
can someone just help me
no sign cause your gone
just help please

leftquiet:
open.spotify.com/artist/42f0KXL3P…wuSLC_eIaCCkHGhw
www.instagram.com/left.quiet/
@leftquietverified
www.youtube.com/channel/UCnwzxgNCeTAlRu2qIZ4waww

deadspyro:
www.instagram.com/deadspyro/
www.youtube.com/channel/UCoIq0W9q…xIikQ3IA/featured

delusional disorder

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