Horny But Happy/Depressed The Sequel

PROD: https://youtube.com/@taymxru?si=2TOXRCuRPBlGgOHb (IG: @taymxru)

MIXED BY: @saira17 x 11eeyore

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Xdium-dreaming-is-her-lyrics

COVERART: photo by me :) (IG: @letzhatexdium)

$KUM Inc.; ℗ 2023 $KUM Records, a division of AKIRA Recordings, Inc.

Dreaming Is Her

Dreaming Is Her [Prod. Taymxru]

SMOKE IT OFF! - Mega Mix - Slowed (Lumi Athena, jnhygs, cade clair)

ODETARI - DOOR TO DUSK [SLOWED]

ROCK THAT SHIT!

FASTER N HARDER - 6arelyhuman [slowed]

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3X0to9gIbZPb9gNYLYToSi?si=086dde0924a14c0a

unable to trust

https://instagram.com/asteriasdeath
https://instagram.com/kets4eki

Artwork by Hikikomori Neighbourhood:
https://instagram.com/hkk.neighbourhood

ULTRA INSTINCT (feat. kets4eki)

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

heaven
can't wait forever to fix you
your purpose lies
wherever you want it to
your presence shrouded lies
your soul remains open
i don't think now's the time
but when was it ever?
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me
tell me why there's blood on my hands, oh no
what the fuck did i do this time?
yet again i strive to torture my own
i keep blacking out, i'm out of my mind
so please, could you leave me alone?
it will take a while for me to be right
'cos i struggle to feel like diamond in coal
'cos god forever i've been so blind
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me

imprint

seizure (w @yungketa2007)

Prod. by me
w/@ruevi
Cover pic by my gf <3

{Lyrics}
(Morri)
eternal agony
a sight that starts to bleed
a place where i can be
and hurt that i can see from here
i wanted to be seen
im not a nobody
my dreams are filled with fear
and i cant wake up from my dream

im a failure 
cant keep nothing i have intact
carousal my way out of life
ive had enough time
running out run away 
turn my back turn away
contemplate
bout my ways
that i wanted to
change
i feel insane
feel like im a waste

(Ruevi)
i couldnt save me
so im begging for mercy
my vision still blurry
and my mind is still bleeding

(Morri)
why do you do this
run through the moment
couldn't say my behaviour was toxic to me
eternal optimist
i make the best of it
couldnt say my behaviour was toxic to me

(Ruevi)
i couldnt save me
so im begging for mercy
my vision still blurry
and my mind is still bleeding

tell me everything i never want to hear again
tell me everything that is in your intend

one more just to let go
one more just to pass by
one more just to get close
one more just to feel alive

(Morri)
my toxic behaviour
has left me in the dust
i was covered in mud
after i crawled back up

im a failure 
cant keep nothing i have intact
carousal my way out of life
ive had enough time
running out run away 
turn my back turn away
contemplate
bout my ways
that i wanted to
change
i feel insane
feel like im a waste

Eternal w/Ruevi

suffer (outro)

alone tonight

cruel

k2 ᢜᢜᡚ हूꞆ

produced by heylog

lyrics:
when my body's lying in place
every memory of you now awakes
the road was stable, now it's rough
cause i'm starting to let u back up
i'm fine
at least i tried
bright light
your piece of mind
i am okay
you wanna see what i'm made of
i'm not the same
you wanna see what i'm capable of
i start to feel like nothing
why does everything slip through my hands
people think i'm sad but bitch i'm not
it just looks like i am
can't go out 
i look like i got eczema all down my face
every time i sweat it starts to sting
even with tallow paste
flare up, then get better, do it all over again
red around the center, i'm not tryna screw with it
you don't even wanna know what it's like being me
every second always stressed and always worrying
i rest your soul by my side
cause i know i'll sleep just fine
i barely see anyone
if it's just you i don't mind
i'm upstairs makin some sounds
na this mixed never too loud
want this shit piercing my ears
until it rings so severe
until it

spotify

flare

https://instagram.com/asteriasdeath
https://instagram.com/kets4eki

Artwork by Hikikomori Neighborhood:
https://instagram.com/hkk.neighbourhood

DON'T UNDERSTAND IT (feat. kets4eki)

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY - https://open.spotify.com/track/1AMLE5YVPiz4aDWdCdR6SI?si=d7f766155fee47d7

Lyrics:
Now that i'm older i get it, i'm finally understanding your pain
I'm finally understanding your ways, i'm finally giving you your space
I wait for this shit to be over, was born in this life just so i could find an escape
I'm tryna get sober i meant it, but you still won't believe a damn thing that i say

Funny how messages always interpreted as something with ill intent
I'm like why the fuck you wanna question me bitch, you not the only one that's been going through hell
Made me feel lesser than, tryna be the bigger man, so i'm ignoring you
Even though you have been threatening me, i still told you it was cool

You no angel, that's in plain view
Told you my pain but it, just entertains you
My mental state soon, will have no saved room
I tried to save you, look what it's came to

Trying to search for the root of the problem, i guess i gotta go and pull out the index
Know that we both had to start from the bottom, we argued back and forth we both were defensive
Breaking apart so we could start to blossom, i turned to a flower and you gained resentment
I think all my trauma i told you forgotten, like that's exactly why i never be venting

You'll never understand why i was homesick
You selfish too but the difference is that i show it
You just want me broken, i figured that's your motive
Our arguments explosive, girl that shit made me hopeless

Back to the index again, back to the index my friend
Hope that you soon get what I said, cause all the assumptions been dead
Then you stab that knife through my neck, then proceed to slice through my chest
Girl neither of us were correct, so why do you pray for my end

You'll never get it, something that i have accepted
You know that we both been projecting, and that's cause we both been neglected
We both were rejecting our trust, and that was infecting our love
And that was reflecting on us, so i'm tryna move on i'm done

A to z, searching for the answers please, please just let me be
Flipping through these fucking pages, tryna find a time and then a place
Hate how you were implicating that all of my love for you wasn't the same

INDEX (PROD. MEKBOK)

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY - https://open.spotify.com/track/0Pi4u1FO3TsZy7R7tb4i66?si=c11037848cf24eae

Lyrics:
Thinking about a lot
Feeling like the person that you probably wouldn't want 
Girl this music shit been comin' at a cost
All these things have been tearing away at my motherfuckin' heart

Thinking about the harder things in life
Thinking about all the things I've tried for you
Thinking about all the times I lied to you
So I think that just killed my high for you girl

Sorry I'm not sorry cause life been moving faster
Can't wait till you're like 40 and realize you a bastard
I'll pull up at your party so I can cause disaster
Bitch you do not exist inside my life you turned to Casper

If you died like tomorrow
I swear God it wouldn't matter
So when you're breaking up with him don't come back to me after
I'll scroll up on your story and reply it with laughter

You deserve everything you get
Bitch fuck everything you said
Got too many problems back here at home
So fuck everything you're dead to me

Thinking about a lot
Feeling like the person that you probably wouldn't want 
Girl this music shit been comin' at a cost
All these things have been tearing away at my motherfuckin' heart

TEAR ME APART (PROD. YUSHA X JXZZYTRIP)

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY - https://open.spotify.com/track/7ButAkhO6IOrtNbgEhYxBU?si=1cb3f1a2918c4c39

Lyrics:
Ooo, oh
Girl where did you go
I was searching for you back home
But you just turned to a new shadow

Don't know why I am so content with being occupied
Fuck up every relationship, so I apologize
Don't know why this is how I am, yet I still gotta try
Think I lost the peace of my mind, while seeing homicides

Got a new phone call, I decline, I'm sick of talking I
Think about your family sometimes, they got me traumatized
Breaking up with you was a blessing, that was in disguise
Always comin' up with a lie, can't make a promise I

Can't keep
Every night with you, I can't sleep
Every fight with you, was on me
Forever I'm always gon' live with bad dreams

No, fuck that cause I'm moving on you'll see
Get the fuck from 'round me
These days been getting cloudy
But all my family countin' on me

MARLBORO (PROD. UOBH)

s/o to the most genuine ppl i've ever met through music @1kaido @yoshi

prod. dye

https://www.instagram.com/starfallxo/
https://www.instagram.com/whoiskaido/
https://www.instagram.com/christianblair/
https://www.instagram.com/1lildyee/

lyrics

[ star's verse ]

am i allowed to speak on the truth?
i think you'd understand my pain if i did what you did, to you
and it's hard, but i'm getting through.
i wish you knew what this shit do to me when you leave so soon.

why can't you stop and listen?
i tried my best but but i'm bout to give in,
i tried to leave but you're my addiction.

what is trust? no idea.
think i'm stupid? oo woa oo woa oo woa

it's just a feeling but i'm feeling intoxicated,
im trynna tell you sum but i just can't really explain it
i wish i had you by my side then i wouldn't have to be crying,
wanna say that i don't love you but then i would just be lying,
gotta let you go, you keep on playing with my heart

wait, where even is it?

you tore that shit apart,
think i'm stupid?
im not.
nah i ain't stupid, you're fucking round with me you're acting like im clueless.

[ @1kaido's verse ]

i had to run away from you
cause you weren’t happy at all
if i was
hiding the truth you couldn’t take it all
and your best friend
she wouldn’t hate me at all
if she knew what i would do
it’s just a feeling but i’m feeling intoxicated
would you feel better if i told you about when we dated
i love you
want you
baby i don’t need you at all
i’m overthinking it all
like just don’t do it all
and your blood is so pretty
you’re feeling my pity
and that’s okay

[ @yoshi's verse ]

tell me when you wake up
you’re so pretty in your makeup, girl
its no problem if you can’t be here
oo- ooooo - oooo

i know its been a while, but we’re falling apart
feels like you stabbed me in my heart
have you been telling me the truth?
well have you, don't lie

you said i was in love with you
you said i’m ready to die for two

ive been running away
yeah im scared of you i
can’t take anymore

Horny But Happy/Depressed The Sequel

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