Horny But Happy/Depressed The Sequel

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

think 
that you know
i could die
and be set in stone love
you dont know me
ur so broken
i see ur eyes roll back 
youve lost it

half my face is in the mud
im getting nauseous i cant breathe well
looking in disgust as if i wasnt meant to sleep yet
turning into anger 
watch my face is going bright red
turning into nothing see my life is getting violent

this is not what i had in mind
youve taken all but the worst in life
but ur ruined
now switching sides
all while ur watching me die

must be a sign
must be a sign
could talk to you for hours i dont have to lie
could be ur life
and you could tell me mine
dont have to be alone for you to watch me die

see my blood runs thick on the cotton-dye
if you never spoke to me id still consider you mine <3
im feeling weak could you check all of my vitals
can tell by my body im getting violent

this is not what i had in mind
youve taken all but the worst in life
but ur ruined
now switching sides
all while ur watching me die

violent

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

heylog - repeat (nevrfall remix)

SMOKE IT OFF! - Mega Mix - Slowed (Lumi Athena, jnhygs, cade clair)

ODETARI - DOOR TO DUSK [SLOWED]

Is this what you really want?
'Cause I think you've been lying to yourself
You just keep on leading me on
I know that you're seeing someone else
I could be there for you
If you wanted me to
I said, I could be there for you
But you don't want me to
And you lie, and you lie and I could see it in your-
You lie, and you lie and I could see it in your eyes
Yeah, I know that you're picking sides
I guess it's just left for you to decide

(I guess it's just left for you to decide)
(I guess it's just left for you to de-)
First song of 2024. enjoy! 
w/ @xodazed

Lyrics:
I guess it's just left for you to decide
You ain't getting through to me
You're a witch, im gonna burn you alive
I ain't showing no empathy
I know the truth there ain't no need to hide
Is this who you want to be
It's kind of funny that you still think you're right
Such a waste of an entity
(And you lie, and you lie, and you lie)
(And you lie, and I can see it in your eyes)
(Yeah, I know that you're picking sides)
(I guess it's just left for you to decide)

decide (dazed?!)

FASTER N HARDER - 6arelyhuman [slowed]

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

heaven
can't wait forever to fix you
your purpose lies
wherever you want it to
your presence shrouded lies
your soul remains open
i don't think now's the time
but when was it ever?
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me
tell me why there's blood on my hands, oh no
what the fuck did i do this time?
yet again i strive to torture my own
i keep blacking out, i'm out of my mind
so please, could you leave me alone?
it will take a while for me to be right
'cos i struggle to feel like diamond in coal
'cos god forever i've been so blind
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me

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hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

Spotify

BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

Produced by ERXN 
@itsbuffe 

Lyrics 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And now my head can never feel right 
I got all this anxiety staying with my head 

I hope one day that I will feel right 
Otherwise im scared that I might jump right out my bed 
And if these walls around me close 
Il be memories and a ghost
Il be rid of all this pain 
Write down what you say and what you know 
Hopefully one day its close 
And you will never stay awake 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

what did you say?
you lied to my face
i can't stay
i feel betrayed

i don't wanna fight
i just keep my thoughts inside
stay out of my sight
i don't want you by my side
hate it when you were beside of me
weighted with anxiety
feels like someone's watching me
i don't know this part of me

paranoid

it's so sad it's so bad i'd rather be alone
i'd rather be at home
scratch on my neck
write your name in my flesh
carve out all of your stress
i'd rather be dead 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

REST w/ buffë

7.
prod. grayskies

Can you breathe in and out for me?
I want to make sure you’re okay
Watch the stars fall to earth, you’ll see
That we can not escape
That we can not escape

Don't expect it to change
Just because of your face
That's what they all say
They all say

And I know I can't get too close
Gotta hold it back
Can’t get too attached
You said you know that
You know that

As we watch the sun
You said I was the one
I can’t fall for your love
Fall for you love

Can you breathe in and out for me?
I want to make sure you’re okay
Watch the stars fall to earth, you’ll see
That we can not escape
That we can not escape
_______________________________________________________________________________

loveu333

no escape

something a lil sleep token/ brakencey/ sinxi/ deadfishy inspired
obviously


i hear a little whisper between silence on the phone
you say you really miss me, god i hope you really dont
the feelings shattered across somewhere, between the ash and gold
i feel a bit uncomfortable, pretend i really dont

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction


im sure youve heard this song before in every genre
always ranting about something and nobodys bothered
i could try be clever write a double entendre
just for you to listen and not read the lyrics
or maybe i’ll produce something spend ages working on it

-------------just to be compared to every artist that you know ----------------             
                     ===================================
or maybe it’s your fault for listening to everyone and nobody at all
i guess i could be wrong
i guess ill never know
everything’s generic so im reaping what they sow

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence

As long as I have you (Official Audio)

'Sin-Shi'

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