a secret jem I won't lie we should talk about this song more

Listening to this over and over again, this song is so underrated it's ridiculous, you and heylog did a great job on this

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

'me' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

guitar by @nevrfall
produced by heylog

lyrics:
rotting my flesh
mold in my lens
i feel corrupt
everything is a mess
i hear noise and groans
my systems broke
i'm deader as dust
takes over my bones

she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

thank god i'm all alone don't gotta worry bout a damn thing
she loves makin eye contact with me now i just translate
while both her irises are narrowed by her pupils
caught up in the moment, every single time it's crucial
babe it's crucial
loving you is brutal
i'm willing for another shot to be quadruple
but your approval
it's only your approval
the only person is with me whom you'll be truthful

run from her fast
don't let her grab
or else she'll latch me
and start attacking

(x2)
she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

gnaw

you could get somewhere if you shut your mouth
six shooter spinning lately let me down
in too deep you dont want me now
in too deep you should pull me out

aim for my throat girl
i dont even choke love
give me some more
im a ghost when im inside of you
we rot on the floor
dont stop
gimme it all love
i shouldve know
my friends all told me that youre going out and talking alone

i dont feel much better after all this time
you should let me choke and pretend you tried
you should fill my throat with some morph and wine
so i cant feel a thing i feel like nothing else is going right

stab me to watch me bleed
youve taken all that i am
my friends are leaving me
dont know how long i have left

i shouldve know what youre pulling me for 
dont stop now
i feel like i could do more

is your father not bored
youre dressed like a whore
everytime you go out you fuck 5 or more
alcohol 
theres no alcohol
you swear you get pissed
no you dont at all

and you can try to change me
ur time is wasted 
you might be deluded need a milli to persuade me
my bones are breaking
harvest wasted
drop me in the shit so you can flush me vacant

vacant

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

heylog - repeat (nevrfall remix)

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

B Murph

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