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Lyrics -
i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls
i didn't wanna text you
too long
that i didn't really see you
won't lie yeah, i've changed a lot
spent the summer with myself and all of my thoughts
bring another bottle
i could really use one
but it's something that i never really talk about
never really saw the same
never really felt the pain

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

i just watch u cry
you do it all the time
i'm here cause i like you
it ain't a lie
focus how to breathe
i need u for some venting
look at me i'm worth
more than i really think
knock me down until it hurts
i'm omw to brink
i'm omw to edge
i'm omw to learn
i'm omw to death 
i don't wanna make this turn, no
i don't wanna make this turn
i don't wanna hit the dirt
i don't wanna make it worse

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls (feat. heylog)

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lyrics - 
and how could i forget?
every single step we made
i hate how it went
and save me from mistakes i made
i couldn't change the way i am

i won't see tomorrow, but you'll be right there
i hate how they stare at me
i don't like this place
just tell me where home is

all on my own
secluded no phone
i just wanna scream your name
am i in love now?
(yes)
i don't really have doubts, no
i won't sleep 'till you're here next to me, no
and i won't leave until i know its safe for me to go

'cos we don't really know how long we've got
i hope it's forever
i hope it's forever

i see your missed call, well
i'm coming home
you say nothing's wrong
oh
nothing at all
a tear leaves your eyes but
you stick to 'i'm fine'
you sit there 'till sunrise
rethinking your life

let's go home

all on my own
secluded no phone
i just wanna scream your name
am i in love now?
(yes)
i don't really have doubts, no
i won't sleep 'till you're here next to me, no
and i won't leave until i know its safe for me to go

'cos we don't really know how long we've got
i hope it's forever

i won't see tomorrow

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lyrics -
push your mind use your head lift your eyelids 
go away’s what u said but i don’t mind it 
heard you tell your friends u slipped me medication 
struggle walking this all feels so simulated

oh my god 
‘just loosen up my friend’
‘you’re getting closer to the edge’
i but what if that’s what i want?
cut our ties we’ll meet again 
mental imprint of your name 
cos you’ll always be number one 

bruise around my neck 
i’m never ever comfortable 
don’t tell my im the best
when the best is so impossible 
mental suicide 
when i dream for unattainable 
tell me that u want it all

oh 
it won’t take long 
oh
you’re so cold 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just say 
what wrong with me 
i hate 
apologies 
but you can’t clearly see
the way we’re supposed to be 

no

following my heart 
but where does it go now 
left me in the dark 
with the memories and photos 
i don’t understand 
gotta walk a path solo 
i don’t wanna die 
but the thought is so

good for me?
that’s what u said 
honestly 
im not impressed 
pressure on my chest 
but i don’t mind no 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted 

just leave me here to die 
don’t lie to me be honest 
never ask why 
just smile and be a princess 
cant leave my state of mind 
but i’ll overcome i promise 
stay here by my side 
and you’ll never feel unwanted

unwanted

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lyrics - 
i've been feeling low, MIA
i didn't wanna feel anyways
and i can see concern on your face
you never showed any lately

what the fuck is up?
yeah you're feeling left out?
and i ain't gonna lie that's the point
what i want now

i'm not okay
you heard me say

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

And its fine
So I’ll just turn off my phone
You can’t fix me, many tried
Guess I’ll end up alone

It’s okay
I don’t know where I will go
Cause lately I been thinking
That it’s the end of the road

Someday you will wonder where I’m at now
You can’t really say I’ve never tried to
Get better, feel okay with who I am, how
Are you pinning all the blame on me, it’s who I am now

And now I can’t feel a thing
Went way too deep in this
The point of no return
And I’m just gone

You just never understood 
Why I am always feeling down
That’s why I never say it out loud
No point in sharing with no one

oh it's fine
don't you worry
cos i don't mind a little excess
lately i've been thinking that i'm just not in the best place
left me here alone so i texted 'coming back yet?'
couldn't bear to cry
cos i don't have any tears left

oh no, where you going? where you at now?
it's a shame that you don't like who i am now
too much for your love you just wanna be friends
i ain't here for this shit so let's run it again

excess (feat. deadfish)

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

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lyrics -

i'm wasting my time
i can't wait
to ride the high then fade away
'cos nothing ever changed
and it never even phased me

i know i made mistakes
but i never walked away
getting sick of you lately
i promise i don't need you to save me

oh no, wait

said i never cared but
i never understood what you wanted
i don't know why i came here
'cos i know you'd be better off without me engulfed in flames
hard to live with the heartache
telling me to use my words, this ain't the breeze you said it was
i don't know what to say here
'cos nothing makes it better and nothing will ever fix it

favored hardly
but you're the sweetest thing to me
are you okay now?
hope i don't overstep myself
i'm lost again
inside those pretty eyes
you just cant stay here
trust me that's okay

said i never cared but
i never understood what you wanted
i don't know why i came here
'cos i know you'd be better off without me engulfed in flames
hard to live with the heartache
telling me to use my words, this ain't the breeze you said it was
i don't know what to say here
'cos nothing makes it better and nothing will ever fix it

heartache

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lyrics -
i'm so done with love
i never instigated but you still called me an asshole
i didn't want a lot
but how much did it mean to you?

i don't understand you
you couldn't give me much back
it's a little complicated
but i think i'll be alright because
i
let myself be loved a little more today
i 
went and learned a way to never care for this

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this feeling at all

i used to get lost in our memory
but nostalgia's always sweeter than reality
now that i'm moving on she wanna message me
asking me what's up like what i'm on
i told her i've been
focused on myself for a minute now
opposition's livid when they see the way i'm living now
i've been out the way
no time to waste
lotta words to say
shawty know i don't play

we could get away no risk
i don't think that i'll get better
with a love like this
what a sentimental moment
fuck this
i'm so sick of feeling helpless
heart skips beats
i ain't never felt this feeling at all

complicated (feat. demxntia)

lyrics

tried to save you, sorry
couldn't get there fast enough
safer to give up than hurt yourself
it's safer just to burn out

i know you've been lonely
why'd you think i helped you out?
i know you ain't honest
fucking off with someone else

tell me why i'd care?
you look a little helpless, phone glued to your hand
i don't wanna call
seemed hard to tell, think you see me as an eyesore
don't know what to call it
pressure in my chest when you told me you don't want me
it's getting hard to talk
so i think that i'll just call it and make my way home

i hate the way you're shouting down the phone, love
i fucking hate the way you talk to me in person
i was never so intent on feeling worthless
leaving all my cuts along the surface

blood froze
kinda feel like i deserve it
i'm lost
how the fuck could i trust this
you never cared if were really being honest
cant lie you should really stop talking

tell me why i'd care?
you look a little helpless, phone glued to your hand
i don't wanna call
seemed hard to tell, think you see me as an eyesore
don't know what to call it
pressure in my chest when you told me you don't want me
it's getting hard to talk
so i think that i'll just call it and make my way home

lonely (feat. hiraeth)

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lyrics -
ur telling me to hold on
i don't really think u see the best in me
'cos i know
if u really want it you'd make it work
oh i can see the end of us
can't believe that the wall was breached
god i don't wanna go
but you've been pushing me out for a while now
oh no

i hide my face when she laughing at it
cant lie, i dont care, cause shes going nowhere
told ur boy if he wanna back it, come out on the street but hes going somewhere
she getting cold now
pulled out, undercover when she come round
whole streets on the floor, what she know now
tears ready on the floor when she go out

breaking loads of bottles again
got a problem when you talk on ya friends
you want to tell me how she loves me
take you to dance
say you want to trust me I can’t relax
taking all you pour out
i don’t want the door down
7 milli foreign with the Roley got me iced out
in my dreams you know I’m having it
i can barely breathe when all these problems keep on happening

my nose red, blood is pouring out fast
i sit down, think i need to relax
she start her month say, "let's go to the bath"
she look at me when i cause her to gag
after i'm done i gotta leave ur house
cus i don't got time for any cuddles now
a kiss goodbye but she pulls me down
she told me she wanna go another round

couldn’t get enough, ignore the other side
I’ll tell it from the front
you speak about love, that’s never been us
these doors stayed shut
keep your facade
laid out-
knowing it was dormant
a few years and I’m back to this torment
is it really that important?
you know it better than me
you couldn’t let it at peace
this whole story was about me
I’ve got you right on your knees
the only thing that I need
is to make you forget at least…

the end of us (feat. hiraeth, erxn, heylog & xona)

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lyrics -
i
went under for a very long time
i told myself it's all that u want
but i don't really see the lines
and i don't wanna be who u love

you could hear me over the sounds
sirens told us all to get out
there's panic all over your face
but i tried to keep u here on the ground

you can tell me what's going on
'cos lately you've been shutting off too much love
we got too comfortable
a bond so unbreakable it broke us
now i ain't fine
i tried to lie just for damage control
it broke my spine
now i'm fixated on preventable

don't go yet baby, don't go
don't go yet babe, i have to

~ i tried to keep u here

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

and i could be the one that you love
i'm sick to death you love it and i know you don't care but
i could be the one that you want
i'll lift you on my back, bear the pain i won't
try to understand who you are
you told me not to care so much, i can't stop
i can't stop
and let me call your bluff
'cos i just can't see a reason i should pack my stuff and give you up
oh no
i didn't want to say it but i need to make it clear
why you so on edge when you're all that i want?
want
want
want
want
want
ill be honest, think you need someone else
and my thoughts get worse when i dwell
no fucks, i'm not feeling too well
i cant lie love you're all that i want
i feel like i need space to be alone
left to right i'm cracking every bone
i cant lie love you're all that i want
want
want
want
i cant lie love you're all that i want
want
want
want
i cant lie love you're all that i want

reason [feat. hiraeth]

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

you're my home
that i wasted
never felt more alone
and i'm the one to blame here
could you pick up your phone?
or at least call back?
i think it's time to let you know
even though i don't want that
could you tell me what you want?
i can take it
i'm sorry if i'm like that
i'll break stasis
'cos i don't wanna cry yet
i'll wait
could you be the one to
lie awake
thinking if you know me
no way
i can barely see you
through the frame
i know you wouldn't like that
no way
getting sick to death of the moment that you left
but i'm all okay
You’re forgetting everything you said to me
How you turn around and left me, girl you’re dead to me
Ain’t no turn around from here, saving all my tears
Was a problem when you was here, turned up like some stairs
We do this over and over again
First time you left it was over your friends
Then you came back and you did it again
Ain’t no more talking, ain’t making amends, oh
No no no baby we can’t be friends
I can not even pretend
Dead to me you don’t exist
I’d rather keep it on 10
What you want from me
I know I don’t even want your company
You came in and you took way too much from me
I don’t even want to stay in touch
could you tell me what you want?
i can take it
i'm sorry if i'm like that
i'll break stasis
'cos i don't wanna cry yet
i'll wait
could you be the one to
lie awake
thinking if you know me
no way
i can barely see you
through the frame
i know you wouldn't like that
no way
getting sick to death of the moment that you left
but i'm all okay
you said we're forever oh
yeah, you said it'd never work
how could you tell me this wouldn't hurt?
as you're watching me fill the floor
with blood that you let me spill
my body's so lifeless still
you laughed as you left so calm
don't let me go
let me go
let me go
let me go

lifeless [feat. joshua blu]

i can't sleep without u here
i can't sleep without u here
i don't know if it's the right place
once again i'm in my head trying not to break
'cos my heart's in an overdrive here and i'm wasted
but you promised me everything baby, i don't wanna wait
and it's hard getting better when you keep me here so low
and lately i've been tryna find my way out of this choke hold
i'm lost in the memory of when things were better
and baby you should know since your heart is so hollow
i'm clinging on to pieces and the pill's hard to swallow
and you could try forever yet you'd never get the message
and come on now baby
we could find a saving grace
that will fix the issues facing us
when we choose to ignore
i'm lost in the memory of when things were better
and baby you should know since your heart is so hollow
i'm clinging on to pieces and the pill's hard to swallow
and you could try forever yet you'd never get the message

without u here

heaven
can't wait forever to fix you
your purpose lies
wherever you want it to
your presence shrouded lies
your soul remains open
i don't think now's the time
but when was it ever?
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me
tell me why there's blood on my hands, oh no
what the fuck did i do this time?
yet again i strive to torture my own
i keep blacking out, i'm out of my mind
so please, could you leave me alone?
it will take a while for me to be right
'cos i struggle to feel like diamond in coal
'cos god forever i've been so blind
and i can't wait
to see you at the other side
i'm hoping you don't have any plans for me
these bags imprinted under my eyes
but it's fine
'cos i told you that i'd never forget
i'm sick to death of all of this make believe
i'll raise my hands straight up to the sky
it seems you've done all that you can for me

imprint

lyrics

so what's on your mind?
'cos it's important to say
emotions you're feeling 
and the burdens you face
you say there's something about me
that keep you leaving this place
hey, i don't really know but i'm committed to stay

you say don't doubt me 
you know i won't
heading outside so let's look around
savor my heart, you won't hear a sound
you wanted me to care, but what if i don't?

i'm sticking around, i'll hold
all of my hope in her arms
i know it ain't much but it's all i've got
i hope you don't mind
i hope you don't mind

you say don't doubt me 
you know i won't
heading outside so let's look around
savor my heart, you won't hear a sound
you wanted me to care, but what if i don't?

doubt

Stream

lyrics -

i thought maybe i'd
help you realise
there's no freedom to win
while these burns ignite my skin
you asked me if i felt afraid
but i can't feel much anyway
but that's a talk for another day
god i'm coming down

go

rather be there instead
i hate the thought of this place
i bet it sucks to be you
and that's making you stressed
i didn't mean to upset you
it's just so common to see
how much it sucks to be you
and there's no point in a dream

the air up here is thin and its only
an hour till we have to get home these
fingertips bleed but i won't freeze
cos i don't wanna waste this
rather be with her and my instincts
telling me it's right but i'm fighting
whatever stupid reason i come up with
but i still ain't gonna waste it

waste

blame

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i ain’t scared cos life finds a way
you don’t mind that i’ll never wait
for what we never wanted anyway
cos i don’t know why i’d bother wasting my time

u could live forever if u wanted to
i didn’t wanna say it but im wanting it too
i could let them take me if u want that
just say if u want that

fight

storm

lyrics -
stick around
i hear ur heart
it's calling out
and makes no sound

i let her down
but i'll make it fine
she don't want me now
i can give her time

feel the same as when u took away a part of me
why so many people onto me?
you didn't do anything
you just stared and watched me bleed
now there's a pool right under me
and these clothes don't cover me

struck into my core and u found no sign of me
it's a state of mine baby
'cos i focus on the dark and i let it take control of me 
now i find no light

and keep me here love
oh i need to stay awake
it's not about reality
it's keeping myself sane

awake

lyrics ~

If it never mattered then why keep me alive?
I’m weak and losing focus 
pushed against the current 
too late to remind me 
Of everything I’m sorry 
Of everything I couldn’t see 
Of what you needed me to be

I’m too perplexed to analyse 
The way I dragged us down 
Too incessant and too hasty 
Too eager just to end things 
I just need you to believe in me 
I just need you to

Believe in me 
Believe in me 
Your love’s like ecstasy 
Your love’s like ecstasy

Wait woah
I see you at the end of the road
How can that be when you’re here with me
Some kind of illusion 
Or maybe a dream 
Is it something inside me 
Inept and obscene

I don’t wanna believe my eyes
But I’m so cold now 
I’m feeling the ice 
And all I feel is love inside you 
I can’t take it 
I just wanna go home

Believe in me 
Believe in me 
Your love’s like ecstasy 
Your love’s like ecstasy 
Believe in me 
Believe in me 
Your love’s like ecstasy
Your love’s like ecstasy

Stream x

ECSTASY

lyrics ~ 

And when our hands intertwine 
And you say that you only want me your whole life 
And you got the world to see
Saying I won’t go if you ain’t beside me

And my world revolves around you 
Stop this searching 
Girl I’ve found it 
The saving light in this pit of darkness 
Never thought I’d fall in love again I wanna know 

How you stayed so stable 
lives unstable 
Safe inside all cards on the table 
Risk it all for a chance I’m able 
To love unconditionally I’m here to save you
and i don't feel any emotion unless it's you
and you think im lying girl its the honest truth 

And when our hands intertwine 
And you say that you only want me your whole life 
And you got the world to see
Saying I won’t go if you ain’t beside me

Intertwining 
You’re Writing 
Everything that could give us a reason the feeling
That you don’t wanna fall in love again 
And I love you too much to let this go cos I’ve only been able to think of one road 
To go down 
It’s with you
The truth is I miss you 
I hope that you know that you never left my brain 
When the summer rain pours down 
I’m stuck in a cycle 
Recollections apparent when the dark thoughts hit you

I’m sorry that I can’t be more 
I’ll try my hardest to be yours

And when our hands intertwine 
And you say that you only want me your whole life 
And you got the world to see
Saying I won’t go if you ain’t beside me

Spotify <3

~ beside me

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS NOW

lyrics ~ 

you held my hand
i was falling forever
don't waste your time
we just can't be together
i'm too much to take and i know that you know that
despite my mistakes you're still wanting to risk it
all

and i was sent away
they didn't think that i could make it
struggled everyday
now i strive for imperfection
pondered why in disarray
and i can't provide the answers to the questions they would say, i

lose myself
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times

lose myself
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times

and how did you find me?
yeah you were so far away
i don't mean to interject but i lost my way
contradicting decisions i made
and i'm helpless without them
i feel like i'm dying

and all of this is coming full circle
and i can't wait to drown it out
i don't need you to help me now
i hear the truth coming out

lose myself
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times

lose myself
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times
a couple hundred times

~ lose myself

OUT NOW

lyrics ~ 

and you point the blame
you say you can't recall
playing innocent
and cutting off our calls
but i know your type
you're always in control
you'll just fuck it up
and drag me through it all

and i don't wanna sit and wait
i'm listening yeah
you say that you're prepared to change
but i don't see it yeah
so don't you go lying babe
it ain't a good look yet
but i know that you meant to say
that you'll stay the same

you say that you're prepared to change
but i don't see it yeah

and i'll wait
with my back to the sun
cos i'll take
all my love to the stars
and i love
everything that you are
but you said
that it wasn't enough

'he was all i could ever want, all i ever needed and more'

you say that you're prepared to change
but i don't see it yeah

i got you my arms again
i’m too diligent
aware of my surroundings but I fear that you’re just skipping it
absorbing all my energy to make you feel alive a bit
i guess it hurt to say you never really gave a shit for this

maybe I should get away
clear my head and just
focus on myself before I succumb to all this dissonance
i’m perfectly imperfect and you’re the one that told me this
maybe if I died you could tell them all the lies you said
oh

Stream <3

~ innocent

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lyrics ~ 

when you say it like that i'll slip through the cracks
lost in your emotion, mind under attack
focused on your movements while your heart stays black
lost again yeah i'll find a way to bring you back

oh no, you've been waiting for a long time
for acceptance in yourself and for peace of mind
i couldn't tell the difference from the time that we last mentioned that your esteem was something that you lacked

i don't care about the way you are
i know that you'll go far
and i hope that you take my word
and i hope that you take my word

'cos i don't see the world like you do babe
and i can't keep the secrets that stay to the grave
but i hope that that don't make you
i hope that you stay true
is she really like that?
devil horns & devil tatts
is that what makes you?
i love that way you stay true

better keep light off our feet now
yeah
know that one little misstep could be the one that shatters everything
shattered everything
'cos we're falling from heaven
oh ain't no point in fluttering those wings
glimmer of the shards fell graces to the wind
blister of the frost too cold to feel a thing
poisoned words of yours laid whispered in the air
look what you created

is this everything you wanted?
after all of this
making wishes on what isn't
you can still sit there so indifferent
ay

'cos i don't see the world like you do babe
and i can't keep the secrets that stay to the grave
but i hope that that don't make you
i hope that you stay true
is she really like that?
devil horns & devil tatts
is that what makes you?
i love that way you stay true

~ is that what makes u (feat. suisai)

pre save my album 'roses' dropping april 17th <3

lyrics ~
oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

to go around
and break your heart

oh i wonder
if this life could get any better
i tried
to be the one you fantasised 
i lost it
yeah you tried to call me weak
when i cried
this could be our own little paradise

oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

oh i could spare a minute if you need it
threw away your purpose then you spoke to me
is there any reason to be over this?
i could reminisce but i don't think that i'd remember anything
woke up to another missed voicemail
they say they wanna talk but they didn't say i had to
sky blue from the start to the end
have my say then i'm out
why you gotta act so innocent?

'cos i'm falling away from you
yeah i'm falling away from you

oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

PRE-SAVE MY ALBUM

~ death of me

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lyrics -
you said 'don't fall in love again'
'it wouldn't be the same' you said
but i'll just move along i guess
'cos nothing really changed
you're still the reason that i left
oh i'd give up every ounce of my capacity
to see the world
with someone that i barely know
oh my fear of new beginnings yeah i've overgrown
and i wanna fucking love again
instead of this incompetence

and all the memories drove me to insanity
got me thinking is existence all just make believe
'cos nobody really cares about the way i'm feeling
and i
just wanna fucking die in your arms

and i'll wait
all this time wasted for another day
no blood left to bleed, but i'll find a way
bridge view, kim wilde, 1982
top down, el camino, i could be there soon
no heart for the faint
best believe it now
cloud 9 on the cards
i ain't coming down
oh i always fade away when i'm wanting you
oh i always fade away when i'm wanting you

and all the memories drove me to insanity
got me thinking is existence all just make believe
'cos nobody really cares about the way i'm feeling
and i
just wanna fucking die in your arms

die in your arms

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Lyrics -
and she predicts love like some summer rain
drowning in some tanqueray to hide the way
she feels about a boy she met the other day
and knowing that he'll never feel the fucking same
and tulip heart strung, pretty bouquet
guess there ain't no way of knowing
how far you're willing to go babe
how much you're willing to know

when the time comes
and we're grown up
and we got a nice house, two kids and some true love
maybe I could tell you all the words I couldn't say
when I was that boy you met the other day
it's been a few years yet the sun rays
still shine the same on your face, babe
still reminiscent of your kind grace

true love
when i was that boy you met the other day
true love
drowning in some tanqueray to hide the way
x2

and oh i've been silent too long
cos i gotta let you go inside my soul
you'll find emotions that i couldn't bear to show
all the time i felt defeated cos i couldnt open up
i feel it growing
i feel it growing

when the time comes
and we're grown up
and we got a nice house, two kids and some true love
maybe I could tell you all the words I couldn't say
when I was that boy you met the other day
it's been a few years yet the sun rays
still shine the same on your face, babe
still reminiscent of your kind grace

true love
when i was that boy you met the other day
true love
drowning in some tanqueray to hide the way
x2

that boy u met the other day

'Sin-Shi'

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