produced by hiraeth


Leave me outside in the rain 
Crying with no one to stay
Leave me to rot and decay
Can’t even look at my face

Say that you hate me 
I won’t break
Don’t ever tell me to change
I know I struggle I promise I’ll wait
If I’m staying inside 
am I safe ?

Call me anything you promised that you’d wait
Changed my name so I don’t fall by what you say
Letting go just to save me from what I hate

Take away from what I own
I never had a plan
Saving grace you never cared 
I never had a chance 
Tear me up and take away from all I ever had
Can’t believe you tried to blame it on your fucking past

Nothing lasts
You were all I had
Turning back 
Save me fore I crash
Going bad 
Turning into ash
Nothing lasts
Holding to the past

grise fiord

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lyrics:
u saw me right through
i looked up to u
ur the reason i make songs, how could u
u made me live
but it came to this
oh thanks to all my friends
i’ll never quit

trying to find the love of my life
but it ain’t going to go so well
i act dumb but i know that u lie
everything for u is going so well 
i’m a fucking piece of shit if u know
i mentioned it in a song long ago 
still pissed but i have to let it go
break me down but i’ll grow 

oh stronger and stronger
i’ve been living my life with no father
take my time, im never bothered 
i wish for the worse upon her (x2)

how could i love you
i don’t even like me
why do i wake up
death dosent want me
i’m stuck in my room
they won’t let me leave
one day i’ll kill them all
they don’t believe me (x2)

it’s cuz i’m weak
it’s cuz im a bitch
when pressures on
i throw a fit
but not no more
build up my core
when pressures on
i’ll start a war

arrogant

prod. me
(capsctrl on acoustic guitar)
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lyrics:
what was it like to fall in love with me?
asleep in the morning, awake in the night
i'll take it all, i'll face it all, im in deep.
no saving me now.

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

take your time, take your time
save your breath
its all a lie, all a lie, its a test
waking up, waking up all over again
waste of lungs, wasted lungs i am.

if youd listened to me who knows what we could be
(stop it now its dark in here)
so tied up on things that we didnt even mean
(stop it now i've had enough)
said you know me the best but you dont know me at all
i was depressed and didnt bother to call out to you
so much changed so fast but im right here
please dont give up

what is it like to fall out of love with me?
i feel so annoyed and, i dont know why
i took it all, i faced it all, i was in deep
dont start from the beginning just end it

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

who i was

spotify

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

lyrics//

iv been talking to god
iv been doing my part like you told me

was it always so hard
i know you think you were always controlling
but it was never thay part
i saw a light and it killed me slowly
and now im packing my car
i made you think
you dont even know me


i was lost in the fallout
you pushed me down as i climbed out
or tried to
ivy league to the dog house
wonder what they would say
if they got to?

now my comforters stained out
took it all to the grave like i told you
was i always a let down?
was i always a person that you once knew?

fallout [idly blare]

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories
Keep
Pulling me apart
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start
Recently deleted
Select all
Confirm delete em
1000 images or more
And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised
I’m burning through these highs
u don’t even ask how I am
it feels like nothings right
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story
I can’t go back to the start
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

select all, confirm, delete

blame

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i ain’t scared cos life finds a way
you don’t mind that i’ll never wait
for what we never wanted anyway
cos i don’t know why i’d bother wasting my time

u could live forever if u wanted to
i didn’t wanna say it but im wanting it too
i could let them take me if u want that
just say if u want that

fight

hold down
Send
More in
Hold out

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

Maybe I’d be better alone
So I don’t intrude
Stare at my phone, cause I need you
Hold me like the worlds on my back
I’m counting curls in your hair
And pray to god that it lasts 

I Don’t have to count no sheep
I just look into your eyes
One moment, fast asleep
I’m tryna stay up all night

Maybe this rain is too heavy 
For us to lay in it 
But we’ll sit out on the porch 
Covered in acid and mould 
Maybe my life wasn’t wasted
Now that you’re a part of it
I’ve never done this before
Everything I touch starts to fall 

(Covered in acid and mould)

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

I hate this world so much
I feel my body closing in
Though when I conversate with you, I start to feel complete again

Rushing out to tell him that I’ve found a friend
And though I can’t get a reply i know he thinks you’re the best

bore

storm

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


you & i

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

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