super-glued to the feeling
that no matter how kind
i will become
how much i wail in regret
it will never ever excuse
my mistakes

when i chat with you i just want to hear you understand
i know my voice was never that pretty
though it might feel like you hold me hostage (all the time)
it might be better this way

oh, i just wanna be held

cant wear myself down for such stupid reasons anymore
youre another me with all the good parts
and mishaps all intact

i want to say it again
my grip isn't something i could fix with something as simple as a sorry

just so terrified of losing everything again 
once i let loose it'll all move apart
like with everyone else whose faces are etched into the back of my eyes
while i stayed nothing but a messed up canvas of their past life

hostage

guitar loop by @spagdus

youre soaked
you couldnt outrun the rain
the gray clouds forming apropos
leaving you drenched from head to toe
and youre fucked
but youre not one to complain
changing skies of every glow
winter rain and summer snow
and youre not
the one i met before
who found me all those years ago
and taught me how to live and grow
and youre not
the person you once were
the rhizome splits
the sunlight hits
the morning mist
begins it all again

and rain

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

10/1
was it worth the wait?
you didn't have to try that hard

when push comes to shove
i don't have the balance
to stand on the rug
that you pulled from under me

balance

im bladee she call me blade e

hello user

11-3-2021 1:08am  something to help me sleep

before i wake up (mumble demo)

around the world immediately (mumble demo)

original song (re)percussions by @dramatrial
non-original song by me

c(re)epercussions

honestly goes really hard
done by me :3 @jauntsen

brakence argyle but it's just my voice

live a little bit more in the moment! (written, produced & performed by Micah Callari)
stream the song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0KzTPBsgGUfPj45KkHQVgv?si=c0ca099235bb4a6b
stems: https://stemmy.versary.town/a/micahcallari/stim-in-the-moment/
remixes: https://soundcloud.com/micahcallari/sets/stim-in-the-moment-the-remixes

-LYRICS-


Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment

And I think that it’s okay to be something
Whatever, I think it’s better than nothing

Morning seems to come when I least expect it
Blinded by the spotlight so I redirect it
Stirred you in a tizzy yet I’m unaffected
Master of the craft, but I won’t respect it

Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment

Do-do-do you think that it’s okay to be something
‘Cause I do
And do you worry you’ll forever be nothing
Me too

Need a dose of my favorite noises
Hate the sound of these nasally voices
Don’t regret all my worrying choices
Shove it all away and stim

Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment
Live a little bit more in the moment

before i wake up (mumble demo)

daywaiter