YOOO I DID NOT EXPECT THAT, THIS IS SO GOOD

I have fucking goosebumps. This music is better then love and sex. Let me ride this song into an euphoric death.

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lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

lyrics

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
brick walls and a mattress on the basement floor
the worst part is i bet she didnt even think at all
think to call
think to care
would u even care
u got skeletons theyre hiding underneath the stairs
she got patience for everyone but me
im just stating facts
we wasnt meant to last

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
and im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

1000 miles from ur house thats up the mountains
we say our parts and the tears come like a fountain
broken hearts keep a list cus she been counting 
my head is sore could u try and keep it down
i been moving on
think im going strong
but the damage has been done
and it was fucking wrong
ay i put i on faith
u wont recognize my face
too much has fucking changed
and i dont look the same anymore

and if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

i dont look the same anymore (pekarot)

Featuring @ihateshinigami
Produced by @horoshavibes
Art by Kat (artstation.com/katieimbro)

LYRICS
I've been living in a dream for far too long
Desperately in need of
Someone to wake me up
Stuck in a state of
Suspended animation
Can't escape this simulation
And it's getting harder just to fake it

Nothing seems to stimulate me
And all the while I'm deteriorating
Feel like everybody hates me
Can't get out of my head
 
I've seen the world for what it is and I'm not convinced
There's gotta be something more to all of this
If ignorance is bliss than I
Am living in a paradise

(Horosha)
If all of this is just a dream
Then what visions will we see
When we wake up
Do I even want to know

(shinigami)
I’ve been living in a dream
Everything feels so far from me
I can’t tell if I’m asleep
I just really need you here next to me

And I just wanna give you the best of me
Butterflies every time that you’re texting me
Sick and tired of turning in my sheets
Lately it’s been really hard to breathe

I can’t take this anymore
Hands to my chest I’m on the floor
Wanna live a good life ‘cause this shit’s short
That’s one thing I know for sure

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Suspended Animation w/ shinigami (Prod. Horosha)

comfort

Mastered by Hector Vega

I bite down and bite hard
Wake up at the crack of dawn
Don't notice, must've beat it over your head
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I'm all dolled up for you, I'm not stupid
If you're not the hawk like you said
Say it again... just for me
And it always ends the same, I'm in your mouth again
I'll ride your coattails if I can't reach the rest of you
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares

Cage Girl

cage girl (single ver)

~2300~

Lyrics:
[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

[VERSE]
Finally feel something
I thought it all hurt
Where is the real substance
I felt like all her
Personality was just a fabrication
Out of desperation for validation
So don't walk in my shoes
I don't feel the same I am nothing like you 
There's nobody to blame for your lack of IQ 
You never feel shame when they talk about you 
You know what you do

[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

Constant (prod. King Theta)

Dust bowl [ethel cain cover]

~ i hope wishes come true ~

i had thought these feelings were gone 
i guess i was wrong, and i won't stay in place
i've gotta try and be strong
the summer's gonna be long 
without your face
tiptoe around my heart in your heels
i hate when you're not around
i love how you make me feel 
and i just thought i'd put it in song 
hope you're singing along 
whenever i say 

you're living like you're a dandelion 
yeah you ease the pain when the stress is high 
yeah you bring the things that i missed in life 
with your country twang and your dreamy eyes 
your spirits like a whirling fire 
i'm a moth in flight, and i'm drawn to your light 
i don't care if i have no songs to write
everything's just fine when your by my side
dandelion

dandelion

+spotify soon+

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

this is not a british accent fuck u

produced by yungspoiler and daks9k

originally performed by 9tails

completely non profit

lyrics:

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies where not a factor
gotta move different cus of outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truths what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get shattered
on my new reboks plant matter
and it coned out raw
smoke that spliff then wrote this song

holding in smoke face
blue man group 
loud way too loud
man it smell like poop
but enough about me
tell me more about you
did your friend text back?
did u link that dude?

treat him like a main or a strong number 2
u about to break with the weight on u
put the faith in him but he always falls thru
lately i just hope that im not that dude
u aint really done nothing bad say u (say who?)
i been getting pew pewed every other song
drop
drop bombs and support gonna cease i guess
profit increase so does everybody's needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off now u fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss ur teeth whats next

im sorry friend
could we make amends? 
its the second call 
but ima call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles concious n spliff
all beside me n the whip

i want decemeber 
there wasnt as many plans
that i felt bad for missing
to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain 
and the subject matter inside
u leave im working
im eager
something i could never hide
something i could never hide
no
no

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive
my thoughts override
as fear overrides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked up
with the blood spit
yuck

some_ missed_ calls_ (yungspoiler x daks9k)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

and i'm trynna get my money up
travel where the dreams come true 
when people make it it's never luck
except when it comes to you 

lately i been asking for help
sadly with no1 to come thru 
they say i just think bout myself
i'm trynna keep myself away from the box made out of wood

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how 

drugs keep me afloat
wavs keep me from ending it all
sometimes i wish u crushed my throat
so i woulnd't have to feel at all
so i wouldn't've to deal with all
the bullshit i get involved 
with everysingle day 
cause it just means a new headache 

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

all my friends say i've changed (kaydo)

if you know where the reference bars are from - you are swag

Lyrics:

on the pavement i've been laying low
i'd rather lay alone
i'd rather sit and contemplate my fate and fuckin zone
wield a mask and cut my wrist until i feel the flow
i wanna kill myself so bad and you don't even know
never cared about the money or the fame
cuz the money fill my tummy but my pockets stay the same
i've been slowly craving happiness and I should be ashamed
i ain't let myself feel anything these thoughts are all to blame

sweater weather's better
i'd go shirtless in december
but i'm dysmorphic of my body
with no sign of getting better
so i hate the way i look
and i hate the way i feel
but i cannot force the change
so i just suffer in what's real

no happily ever after
return the cast back to sender
i'm no mage but eating spells is something i think i could manage
i just pop another xanax
i am used to disadvantage
i can see through every wall
but i just let her deal me damage

she supports me from the shadows
and i don't know if that's better
think i'd rather her let go
she makes me kinda wanna vanish
i just relish in the effort from my friends and all my brothers
if these pills happen to kill me
hide my body from my mother

my own mind got me fallin off the deep end
sleepin in the crevice
it's not much
just slowly creepin
if you tryna stay alive
don't bother
voices been speaking
cuz the reaper split your face in two 
your blood is leaking

sweater weather (hollowprpl)

Prod. Me 
When I was in the fire; molding all my bones
Where were you at
At my lowest truly
I don't think I'll ever make it back
Paint a picture of me
Watch the portrait slowly turn to ash
Hash I'm packing
Just to keep my days in motion

While I lack Commitment
This my mission
Working towards my vision
As long as I am still living
I stop and my spirit dies
Can't fuck with a nine-five
Fuck hobbies, this is my life
Can't tell me otherwise
Now I'm back into motion
I'm geekin up off the potion
I've been stuck in my bed
Still healing from strong emotions
Give a fuck what they said about me
I'm living life
I'm doing alright despite
These demons up in my sight
Pray amen
I'm just a man with a plan
I get that check in advance
Sparkin up plants
Gettin as high as a rocket
You thought I was buzzin' the way I've been doin my dance

When I was in the fire; molding all my bones
Where were you at
At my lowest truly
I don't think I'll ever make it back
Paint a picture of me
Watch the portrait slowly turn to ash
Hash I'm packing
Just to keep my days in motion

The Blacksmith

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