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For basics

someone tell me where my life went.....
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Lyrics:
Oh i know that its hard to let go
I wish i could let go
Of the pain that i know
Everybody gets low
Everytime that im froze
Im froze watching everything grow old



Someone tell me where my life went
I wanna die when i think of all the time left
Im so high, when i think of our time spent
Its alright, they gon pull me down alive

They whisper in the night bitch
My best friend is the silence
Im stressed out i need quiet
No im not fine i was lying


I pull out my hair
What u so scared of
None of its fair
Ur leaving a tear love


Tearing me apart
Scatter into shards
No one knows the scars 
Turn them into art

Stab me through the heart
Yeah
In the dark
Fallin through my arms
Hate my life, restart
Howd u get so far
x2

froze (prod. discent)

arrowhead

never going back (ft. brody)

thanks to @deadfishpoland for have saved this Tuesday's song

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you'on really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

[verse(deadfish)]
I don't need you
you never said back anything like "love u"
stop hitting up my phone, nothing's there to stop u
from fucking killing me

When you have said that we are fine
we were looking at the stars
when you've walked past me that first time
I thought that u could shine
and show me where's the light
in my dark and shady life
man that was a mistake
to keep believing that all was fine
keep on trying
now I'm crying

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you don't really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

i don't need you ft. deadfish [prod. myhzy]

a surprise song <3
written, produced, mixed and mastered by me

lyrics:

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know

i know that i've fucked up
will I ever be forgiven
hitting up another pub
im really so emotion driven

said to me you don't want to see my face
you don't see me trying, i don't see you crying
didn't see you running, didn't see me fighting
i ain't even trying to get with you again

i could really mention, all the things you did in the past
but i don't see the point 
cause when i try to talk things out
they always end up on your side
and here's another fight
i'm the one to blame
all the time

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know
x2

Always Thought It Was My Fault

One of my first songs that was really popular and I've decided to remix and remaster it. Hope you'll enjoy <3

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/buddhachieff

lyrics:



bottle is my only friend
couldn't remember
thought i was just defending myself

nobody tried to wake me up
i was sleepwalking
did trust them but it was all a trap

girl you left me hanging
my being is a trading
chip for you
so here i am drowning my pain in you

my momma said they were no friends
didn't believe her
and got caught up into this shit again

i have attracted you
you've sticked with me
so you could just make me look like a fool

did not sleep since this moment
because of you
you broke me down
and laughed at me with all of your friends

i have woken up again
after suicide attempt
please just leave me all alone
i won't be fine
With no friends

all i asked you was just go
pack your shit and find new home
point your fingers all you want
im already dead
with no friends

took me a moment to build myself
work up the courage
and i have fallen from this ruined stairs

i might have just hurt myself
my blood's escaping
making swirls, a landscape
in the bathroom sink

girl you've left me bleeding
my suffering is just a
game for you
so i hope that i was worth your time

my family was warning me
i blew them off
it seems that god has put a curse on me

i am lonely but this is my fate
there is just silence
don't wanna to see you in my current state

did not sleep since that moment
i have just stood
you've put me down
and then i finally have met the death

i have woken up again
after suicide attempt
please just leave me all alone
i won't be fine
With no friends

all i asked you was just go
pack your shit and find new home
point your fingers all you want
im already dead
with no friends

No Friends (prod. BuddhaChieff)

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
don't ever fall in love they say
it's the biggest trap, don't go this way
you're gonna get it when you grow up
20 years old, still didn't got that

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

and that is how i'm feeling
i don't want to lay, staring at the ceiling
i just want us to be together
heart to heart, thinking bout whatever
comes to mind
baby we are fine
don't worry bout a thing
i can deal with anything
yea
for you, i'll do everything
i'll do everything
cause

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

i just want to feel

deadfish - i just want to feel

https://soundcloud.com/odece

bad bitch, acting like you fucking know me
wrist slit, all my blood is on your blade
gonna quit, too many scars on my skin
admit - you're the sin so Imma pray

I gave everything to you
You took everything you could
It still wasn't enough for you
You want to tore apart my heart

You want to know what the fuck I am
You said that I'm the scum, god damn
I ain't even try to fight
Just leave and say goodbye

just leave and say goodbye
i don't need these pointless fights
all I hear is "go and die"
repeat, this time look into my eyes

look into my eyes, tell me that you want me dead
want me dead, you must have forgotten who the fuck I am
I have helped you like a million times
Don't want nothing in return and I'm the bad guy

I can feel your hands, double edged blade
scar myself, cut myself, for you I'd bleed out, god damn
Now I'm left alone
don't need you, just go home

I gave everything to you
You took everything you could
It still wasn't enough for you
You want to tore apart my heart

You want to know what the fuck I am
You said that I'm the scum, god damn
I ain't even try to fight
Just leave and say goodbye

leave and say goodbye [prod. odece]

a reupload of the previous song

lyrics:

and if I would disappear
I don't want you to cry
Don't drop a single tear
you're gonna be just fine

and if you don't know where to go
just know, I'm watching over you
look up and go ahead
I'm always there for you
x2

I know it could be hard
and
I want another start yea

where I could redo it over 
You know me, I ain't ever getting sober
Don't get me wrong, I don't do it cause I like it
Imma down my bottle so I won't think about it all

leave me alone, I'm on my own
Can't do nothing bout it
I'm on my own, nowhere to go
always have lived like this
Always struggle, so grab a bottle
different day, but nothing seems to change

and if I would disappear
I don't want you to cry
Don't drop a single tear
you're gonna be just fine

and if I would disappear
I don't want you to cry
Don't drop a single tear
you're gonna be just fine

and if you don't know where to go
just know, I'm watching over you
look up and go ahead
I'm always there for you

don't cry [prod. raspo]

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Suicide, don't let me die
My eyes are blind, but I still try
Do you still cry
'Cause I still cry
And I can't find
Some peace of mind
So Imma just do everything to get fucked up again
'Cause I don't really need your voice inside my head
No more pain
No more blood
It's all the same
It's never enough

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

Inner Peace [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

[verse]
Try to spend a life without me
Even if I know that for you that's easy
Hitting on a blunt now I'm feeling dizzy
Without your arms around me
I swear that I'm freezing
You make me feel like
I'm not enough for you
No matter what I do
No matter my efforts
I got no more force
I'm trying to let you understand
You were my only friend
You were the only one I love
And I will love forever
I can't still accept that we'll never be together
'Cause you took me out from the darkness
But then you let me down
And the sky looks starless

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

Without Breathing [prod. Ahnboi]

prod: @caustyk

I can't talk to anyone, anyone its so cold

Lyrics:
Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight


I died when i realized that nothings ever changed
Always on the edge, every week its the same
And im so insane
I know its not healthy but i think i love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so theres liquor in my veins

She the one i want, but the one i cant save
Pictures that i cropped, shawty your my cocaine
i feel overclocked, i can feel my heart race


I dont like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like im losing everyone
Everyone thats close

Since the time skip
More burdens that i cant fix
And i cant talk to anyone
Anyone its so cold 

Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought i died last night 
Ashes fall its like
Everytime im in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed

I cant let go 
But i might break my bones
I wish i could know
But this my only road


Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like its stolen 
So why you down, tell me why u feelin hopeless 
So much shit in life left me feelin so broken
x2

she's the one i want, but the one i can't save (prod. caustyk)

Lyrics

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Love is a drug and I'm fiending
I fucking mean it
Thought she was who I should be with
But that ain't even close to attaining
I don't like this shit, wanna be faded

The fuck is this shit?
I'm not amazing
So fucking pissed
It's fucking amazing
How I could hold all this pain
Until I find the words that can take it away

I'm not a goat, I'm not a legend
I'm nothing special, I'm not eleven
I'm just a ghost, sending a message
This where my head go when I get stressin'

I'm on a road headed to nowhere
Stay out my head, ain't nobody should go there
My body soaked with all the toxic shit
I don't get how anyone could like this

Numbers don't help, I'm stuck in hell
I don't like the shit that I felt
I'm a lost cause, blow my top off
I'm on the edge, think I'ma walk off

I made an album to let go but it ain't work out
I can still feel all the hurt now
I know that I am a mess so no need to point out
All expectations I won't mount

Tell me please, am I really helping?
By talking bout all the pain that I dealt with
I can't see, who I'm affecting
So I appreciate when I get messaged

I'm just a human going through it
I got some thoughts I don't know what to do with
Other than turning it all into music
I don't what I would do if I lose it

This ain't a song, this an attempt
To show myself that I can get a grip if I really try
Because sometimes I feel like
Life ain't worth the time

Thoughts in my mind
That I don't like
I feel like I'm
Running out of time
I can't take another night

endeavor. | Produced by killedmyself

Lyrics:
[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely
 
[verse]
Take a pill so the stress goes right away
My head's a mess, it gets worse every day
Worse every day
I can't be sober, life sucks way too much
Ever since I lost the feel of your touch
Ever since my life lost all its joy
Cause I miss too much the sound of your voice
The sound of your laughter
Give it back to me
Cause right after
You left I stopped to live

[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely

[bridge]
I'm just trying to make it clear
That I want you with me
I'm just trying to fall asleep
But my head doesn't let me
My heart does not beat
I cannot rest in peace

[hook]
Please don't let me fall again, again
I don't like at all the pain, the pain
You make me feel
My mother always told me
That life is never sorry
It lets you by your lonely
And I'm lonely, I'm lonely

MUSIC VIDEO

I'm Lonely [Prod. Jody & Larrybeats1999]

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Unknxwn. - Problems. (Prod Chuki Beats.)

Music video link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=18cjnRsgHvA

NEVER (ft. Yates XV & Killsadist) [prod. Malloy x Yeezo] *music video in description*

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My Experience with music making : 5 Months
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don't cry [prod. raspo]

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