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Mind Of Stone (Remix) Ft. Call Me J

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

produced by me and @heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

prod. me

you're all the best fr <3

lyrics:
I gotta get fucking grip
i let everything slip thru my fingers
im walkin on glass I might trip 
let it cut me just cut me to pieces 

on dry ice frostbite from your lips sent a shiver down my spine thru the vine to my hips 
there ain a lotta love for me, not to give. 
I been tryna figure how the fuck im gonna live like
this.

im wasted, complacent.
u name it
im lame man, 

cut my lips, cant speak to you 
i blew the shield can't read into 
the cold ass stare i get, you use 
permission to light the fuse 

im just a figment 
walkin thru your vision
catch me upset, its just something you're dismissin 
solice is only possible when were in two 
love so still, its all because i skipped the route
unmissable 

i am 
cant relate to me relate to you
i try 
some days i wonder why i cant cry 
my eyes 
been frosted since i last quit my lies 
so why 
is my chest still caving in

i feel my worth in my skin
but i can't seem to let it grow
i feel the grief in my soul
leave slowly

frostbite

spotify

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

@sadboykana 
@tnvr555 

// kana 
always on these fucking drugs
cause its the only time i open up right
hiding in the fucking sky i
hide myself from others eye sight
love it when i’m in the night light
no one’s awake to see me cry right?
cutting up my skin, im pale white
paper thin when the blades slice
hope that i die
and i
swear to god it’s been like five nights
curled up in my bed like snow white
look at people through my phone light
and i swear to god it must be so nice
don’t know when my fucking soul died
bruises on my heart i’m cold i
keep looking out onto the night sky
swear to god this is my last night

trust me, i’m ok
just got some problems that wont go away
just got some issues keep coming my way
promise im great
just need some space
else i’ll just break

// geist 
else i’ll just break
i just want to wake up in a home that feels like home
paper thin, can’t cut i’d hit a bone
i can’t fight this feeling anymore
sick of always coping on my own

sick of always fighting every night
intrusive thoughts they rip apart my mind
i just want a love that fills the night
the way i felt staring into your eyes

and i need space
but i’m ok
trust me i’m not lying
i’ve got friends
who hate my face
and they’re no good at hiding it
i’m blacked out in the benz yet once again
self-destructing till i meet my end

trust me, i'm ok w/ kana [tnvr]

Self Prod :) 
Featuring @Sinxi

LYRICS

Break my trust
Taking all I had from us
Leave me just to die
That's so fucked up
Leave me all alone
With my pockets turned to stone
Hell is frozen over

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

Why'd you say you care when you really don't?
Thinking you're so innocent and then you choke
On all your insecurities you never know
Just how to hold composure when it means the most
You froze at the sight of him
Why'd it make you feel so different when you care so much for me
This kerosene could ignite the bond we built for this
Are you sure you wanna leave? i'll ignite it here

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

You know it hurts a hundred times you screamed my name
The times it hurt I let it fade away in vain
So take the words right out my mouth and make it say what you hate
Cuz you know my heart starts pumping never had to jump back in your arms
To save my life I guess I feel like I might just start hoping
Everything might fall right if I die
The only way that I can make it if I...

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

SPOTIFY

BAD HABITS (feat.Sinxi)

prod hira

If I disappear 
nobody would know

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

Disappear 
Nobody will know

So please don’t let it
Go to your head love 
I’ll be fighting after the war 
Do you not feel the regret from all the  blood that you’ve poured 
Psycho little bitch should be assigned to a ward 
Ruining yourself downing bleach on the floor

You don’t wanna talk to me 
You never even had to
I’d break another bone but
I just can’t seem to fight for you
But I’d die for you
Down another bottle and I’ll lay with you

Why you gotta be so far
Put another s into the side of my arm
You could never be more wrong
Tryna let it go but I had nothing to start 
Why u tryna prove me wrong
I’m such a lost cause bitch u did it again
Drowning and it’s all your fault 
Fingers getting cold wrapped my hand round her neck 

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

after the war

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

home

Criteria

OK YES (why not) (with Reo Cragun)

Recalibrating (with Reo Cragun)

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

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