mixed/mastered by me and kinshii
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feat. https://soundcloud.com/kinshii
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prod by https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow
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//LYRICS//
its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and i swear that i am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today

in my room and I'm feeling so faded don't know what to grabbing my knife I'm gonna stab myself and you don't love me like before oh before 

its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and I swear that I am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today every time I wake up feeling wasted times moving really fucking fast and I don't like that why you talk to me I don't talk to you every time I wake up wanna sleep some more

(Kinshii)
now my beds the place i spend my days i can’t get up staring at a screen i do this every night and i don’t want to talk about it appreciate the thought but i’ve been trying to push away what makes me feel alive that’s growing up guess i can’t take it life used to be fun, now i live sedated don’t know why im smoking but still getting faded maybe the clouds free my brain from its cages sike no it’s not, causing a block life’s getting harder and harder than cock prosthetic leg maybe hard as rock kick to the face and it don’t ever stop and my family keeps calling me crazy probably cause i ain’t speak to them lately i been showing the signs someone save me and the reaper just said he’s done waiting truthfully not sure what im supposed do and the voice in my head, who im talking to is convincing enough, i might follow through or maybe i won’t just to stay with you

used to it w/ kinshii (prod. caspr & saint tomorrow)

stockholm (prod. sorrow bringer)

never:

so fuck u if u dnt fuck me 
ive been grinding real hard 
took defeats all on my arms 
its not my fault if u dont brush ur teeth 
cuz i dont really care 
if u try to step to me 
i got the energy sword from halo reach
so fuck u if u dnt fuck me 
ive been grinding real hard 
took defeats all on my arms 
its not my fault if u dont brush ur teeth 

ha ur slytherin and im fkn griffindor
causing panic in the scene like they seen a dinosaur 
ha im a t rex the way im eating all these btecs 
i know u didnt like school now ur shotting on recess 

flowrs: 

you got needles in your arms like halo reach 
in a banshee ima swerve 
throwing plasma at the scene 
what you gotta say? 
just talk straight to the breeze 
i got commando pro 
so don’t try run
i’ll bring you to your knees 
keep a tac knife when i’m running thru these streets 
fuckin cracked with this scope 
you don’t wanna fuck with me 
it’s not my fault if you don’t brush ur teeth 
just back the fuck up 
cus i can see you breathing green, ew!

defeat w/ sendflowrs (back2thapast x jolst)

https://open.spotify.com/track/2dpnY3iPVo4MefSdhrYoxK

produced by @nevermadeithome 

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lyrics:
i’m driving in the rain
when the whip starts to fucking hydroplane
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain
its the only way to cope with all the pain
its late at night and i’m driving in the rain
when the whip starts to fucking hydroplane
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain
its the only way to cope with all the pain
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain

take a shot to my brain
you’re the only one who knows my pain
claim you feel the same damn way
if you hate me then you can push the blame on me
shame on you for putting shame on me
hate myself, don’t need your hate on me
so take your shot you got you’re aim on me
so take your shot

i’m driving in the rain
when the whip starts to fucking hydroplane
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain
its the only way to cope with all the pain
its late at night and i’m driving in the rain
when the whip starts to fucking hydroplane
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain
its the only way to cope with all the pain
take a shot, I take a shot right to the brain

in the rain [never]

via @universalchill
prod jolst x viera
music video: https://youtu.be/J9w6bF2pk90

go home,
go home 
out the cold
i feel so cold 
so cold
i just wanna keep you warm
but you lay in the dirt
in the dirt

n jus go home 
go home 
out the heat 
i am so hot 
so hot
i need your helping hand but u just let me burn
let me burn 

and this happens like every fucking autumn 
baby let the leaves fall down on my coffin 
i’ll make u a coffee when i leave in the morning 
the morning 

im fuckin geeked up when u be callin
i’m sorry that i slur i know u just don’t want it
i can’t help myself bein sober 2 boring 2 boring 

ima sleep in a little bit don’t hit my phone up
it’s not like i’m hurting anybody out here

i cancel all my plans and just cut the cord cus i need two 20’s for my head to feel clear

talkin bout 20’s i jus pop and pop them 
i know it’s not cool but im already here

i need a pretty girl to just cock her shotgun
and evaporate my heart 
i don’t wanna be here 

n i can’t make the music if the energy ain’t right 

n i can’t focus up unless there TR in my sprite 

i pour the pinewood till my chest don’t feel so tight 

2 fucked up u can’t kill me twice

think my heart just caved in 
i’m thinking bout all the time that i jus wasted
texting u but i don’t get a reply
like no way

i’m just a waste of space and
even with this music i don’t think i’ll make it
i’m spilling all my guts on this stupid
fucking iphone notes page 
x2

tarnished (jolst x viera)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

nothing to lose

Never Love The Same

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3jaeosEPdXJt5pXv6unG7a?si=89_VHMdTSMK38Jfz8HWElw

yeah i’m sick of always feeling like i’m not enough 
i’m so sorry that i just can’t seem to care enough
i’ve been trying but i think that i ran out of luck 
yeah i’m sick of always acting like i give a fuck
sick of it all i’m not fine 
feels like im stuck in my own mind
one more day 
might be my last
i just miss the way it was back in the past

back in the past i thought it would last 
now i’m hiding in my room feeling so sad 

back in the past, thought it would last
now i'm hiding in my room feeling so sad
it hurts so bad 
knowing it’s my fault and i have done this to myself 
taking medication hoping it will numb 
hoping that i’ll be okay maybe someday 
but for now i’m lacking purpose
it still feels the same 
wake up and ill waste the day 
it’s the same rountine

sick of it all (prod. dead spyro)

SHINIGAMI - OPTIC (PROD. RYDER JOHNSON x FATHERBLAZE)

produced by @metlast
featuring at @ihatepromnight

https://soundcloud.com/lottaheart/broken-in-two
https://soundcloud.com/ihatepromnight/restart-prodmetlast


@lottaheart:
broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that its true
you say you want me
i want you too

baby come with me
just take my hand
i can tell you really wanna dance
if only you could give me one more chance
cause you're the only one that understands me

as long as i have you i dont need no plan b
tell you i want you and you say that you want me
hold you so close when i'm feeling lonely
you're so sweet baby you remind me of candy

so sweet
you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down



@ihatepromnight:
yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

self destructive-
type of person
my demons chase me,
they fucking lurking
i'm sick and tired-
of fucking hurting
will i ever be better than a burden?

yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

sick of it all (prod. dead spyro)

deadsoon

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