Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2w_9fZzJlfc
Mixed and mastered by polyfawn

Unnerving Entity

chronicling the holidays seasons of 2018-2020 

lyrics:
some heavier footsteps
morning is here
a wrathful note from dad who spoke for god

“to who fucked up the tree
you’ve spat on the cross”
and jesus slammed his kids against the wall

i hate this place
like i hated my friends
and everything’s as bad as it’s ever been

how could you?
how could you make my mother cry
break our family

my christ is dead
i loved him and you took his head

i hate his face
like he hated my friends
and even going on was at an end

now i was goddamn special
but feeling better was a sin
my voice was healing crowds
but did they know my dad was just like them

everything’s so quiet when the black and blue turns grey and green
fly away and hide from healing just so i can say i’m free

so touch starved i could cry
i break down every night
i’ve been dead for way too long to want to die

i hope my father hears this and he knows how much he fucked my life
i hope if god exists that i can burn in hell and burn inside
i hope the hellfire stops the panic attacks i get every night
i hope the christmas after this i finally feel at rest inside

enormous thank you to @ebumusicc and @echoriftmusic for feedback that made the song listenable lol. and waves r-bass it saved my ass

christmas song

all platforms + BC

March 21st roared

And wind
permeates your flesh;
hardened, but not insulated.
A cold armor, 
against those who would hurt you.
But just as abrasive
to those...

And bone
too wet
to even start a fire.

And quickly,
as it had broken you,
it left.
Its frigid claws unmemorable.
No mark, ever dug.
You've felt it too many times before.

And life,
tempo too slow
to even be perceived a song.

And march went.
And the year went.
And with so much change
you've never felt more stagnant.
Feet deep in mud;
with insects who feed on 
bone
too wet
to even start a fire.

08/02/22 - My 19th Birthday

a spoken word piece

scaffolding feels quite different to what I'd usually make! I tried to make something a bit more minimal in atmosphere, and I think I did ok 

Contains "葉衣 " by Ironomi
Contains "Herald" by Richard Dawson
Contains "Pause" by Sora
Contains a recording of "Scaffolding" by Seamus Heaney, read by Seamus Heaney

scaffolding

Λ

written, composed, produced, mixed & mastered by dearest alyx
linktr.ee/frosteralyx
cover art by @Shopuhl

archetype / charcoal

charcoal

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archetype

silence
i've heard it too long
my patience
i've wasted it all

so sincere
you say, "what's wrong?"
i say what's wrong

hate to hear 
"there's nothing wrong"
there's something wrong

if i could find a way
to make you see what i see
if i could run away
and make you feel in my place

so sincere
i'd say, "what's wrong?"
you'd say what's wrong

you tell me
"there's something wrong"
there's something-

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@charlie-zacks

I'm scared to leave my room now
I'm scared to leave my house
My mom says it's unhealthy
That I never get out
I'm scared of the helicopters
Scared of the cops
I'm scared of the chemtrails
Keep my door locked

Keep in the filtered air
Recycle everything
Everywhere now
See me through my webcam
You know they can
You know they can
You know, you know

Don't want my life to pass me by
God damn it, maybe it's really my star sign
You said I'm prone to hiding
I said it's just anxiety
"Why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
Take the risk take the shot
And see wherever it goes"
I wish it was that simple
But I can't shake this syndrome

Another light show inside my retina
Drones around my head, satellites pick up antennas again
I wrap my table in foil
Off white color, I picked up another cigarette
It's a brave new world
Survival of the fittest, they control the citizens
Get the clock and watch it tick away to get right through the shift
It wasn't your choice, I'm not taking my chances again

Keep in the filtered air
Recycle everything
Everywhere now
See me through my webcam
You know they can
You know they can
You know, you know

Don't want my life to pass me by
God damn it, maybe it's really my star sign
You said I'm prone to hiding
I said it's just anxiety
"Why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
Take the risk take the shot
And see wherever it goes"
I wish it was that simple
But I can't shake this syndrome